Last half of Chapter 28 - Chapter 29

Sitting across from Edward, watching him nervously spin the coffee cup around in front of him, I already know what's happening.

He's dumping me.

I should have seen it coming.

After all the shit with my insecurities and drama, he should want to leave me.

I just didn't realize how much it would hurt.

The promotion would be a wonderful way for him to start a new life.

He could go somewhere no one knows he's a recovering fatty.

He could meet someone who isn't bogged down with negative self-worth and a fat ass.

He could…

As he kneels down in front of me, all I can see is the hope and love shining in his eyes.

Listening to his words, I can hear his sincerity.

He loves me.

He wants me.

I can't stop myself from jumping into his arms, sending us careening to the ground.

But he broke my fall, keeping me safe.

Like he always will.

And then…my world got even better when he asked me to marry him.

Was it perfect, lying there on a dirty diner floor?

Hell no.

But it was us, and that was all that mattered.

*()*()*

As the months pass and he still hasn't gotten me a ring or talked about the wedding, I start to lose hope.

Maybe he changed his mind.

He's getting the milk for free…so why would he want to buy the cow?

And it seems all I can do is cry anymore.

*()*()*

Watching Alice get her nursery ready is like a knife through my heart.

Edward hasn't said anything about wanting kids.

Even after he found the pregnancy test, we never really discussed having babies.

I want them…so badly.

But does he?

Will he still want me when I'm pregnant and fat, with varicose veins and hemorrhoids?

Our visit to Dr. Banner does little to calm my fears.

I can tell Edward feels better, but I don't.

The only thing that makes me feel better is hearing those words from Edward's mouth.

"We need to set a date and get a ring and book a chapel or whatever we need to do to get the ball rolling on this. I want you to be mine, in the eyes of God and the law and whoever else makes the rules. I love you, Bella Swan. Forever."

And it was then that I realized our happily ever after might just come true.

SO…the Fatty 5k is on Sunday. I have the little epi/outtake all ready. I will TRY very hard to also have the last chapter of this done on Sunday. See you then.