I am so terribly sorry about my tardiness. But its my last year of school and its been very stressful and I've been having some personal problems. But I will not leave this story I promise. This story is far from finished. Thank you for staying with me and reading. Btw for those who didnt know I am from Australia, so my holidays (and spelling) are different from most of you. Thank you for sticking with this story.

Chapter 10

After school Stefan stayed at my place for the night. We lay down in my bed talking about anything and everything. He played with my hair as I told him about how one time I broke my arm, he kisses me softly, whispering sweet nothings into my ear. Right now was our time. I didn't want to be anywhere other than Stefan's arms.

He intertwined our fingers and brought his hand up to his lips "I understand if you're not ready to tell me yet, I just thought I would tell you" Stefan whispered against my hand.

I sigh. To be honest I'm scared to tell Stefan I love him. What if everything goes wrong what if he finds some other girl? What if we break apart? What if I'm not good enough. Questions like these keep circling my head making me feel sick. I have to tell him how I feel.

The thing with relationships are you either break up, or end up getting married. Now that's a scary thought.

"It's just..." I say not being able to finish. He looks at me in my eyes waiting for me to continue. "I – I always said that I wouldn't fall in love with someone this quick, I always planned to say the 'I love you' in a year or so." He nods in understanding.

"But things change, feelings change. And I've come to realise I can't plan or control with who I'm in love with and when. I always thought that you couldn't fall in love this easily, but I was wrong. With you it's hard not to fall in love. With you I have fallen so hard. And maybe I'm scared, I'm scared that this is happening so fast and soon you will be gone. I'm scared that in the future things will change. I'm scared of losing you." I say quietly scared that I will break any minute.

"I'm scared that once you know everything about me, you won't love me anymore. I'm scared that one day you won't need me anymore. I'm scared that if I say it back, you will leave and I will be heart broken. I don't want to risk it, I don't want to fall." I whimper. I staple my lips closed and I start shivering, my whole body is shaking lightly. My eyes are glued to his, I'm too afraid to move, worried that he will disappear into thin air. I half expect him to run without a word.

He moves his body over mine so that he can see my whole face, his lips just inches away from mine. I can feel my knees buckling, and they keep grazing his pants. He smiles calmly "Oh 'Lena, don't you realize how important you are?" he asks me. I swallow hard.

"Your right you can't control your fate, you just let it go, let fate take its course. And over time I have learnt that. Fate has brought me to you and I'm not going anywhere." He caresses my cheek.

"You don't have to be scared; I will never leave your side. Nothing will ever change my feelings toward you. You're not going to lose me. The more I find out about you I love you more, if that's even possible. I will always want and need you. I'm in love with you Elena; I will always be in love with you." He whispers the last sentence.

He leans in further only to meet my lips with his. It's soft and gentle but is soon finished.

I sniffle back my tears. We position ourselves so I am basically lying on top of his lap. He is leaning against the headboard of my bed and wraps me in his arms. I bring my legs up slightly and move my head to the crook of his neck. His free hand holds both my tiny hands. He places his lips on my forehead leaving them there. We lay there until we are both ready for sleep. Before I drift off to sleep I whisper "Thank you". I feel him smile against my forehead.

The next 2 months flew by. As the days went on I started falling for him more and more each day. He tell me every morning and every night before I go to sleep. He tells me as much as he can.; but not in a creep way but instead at the perfect times. I only wish I had the confidence to say it back. I want but its never right time. But I know he understands.

Once the second week came around he got into a habit of telling me during lunch breaks when everyone else was having a conversation he would whisper in my ear how much he loves me it usually went like this "I love you so much Elena. I can't wait to hold you in my arms every night; I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you. I will love you forever."

It gave me goose bumps. It was hard to believe someone could love me this much.

I have been so close to telling him, but I always coward out. I wish I could commit as much as he has.

I shake my head getting out of my trance I was just in. I start packing up like everybody else, knowing its time to leave soon. Once the final bell rang, indicating that school was over I walked over to my car waiting for Jeremy and Vikki. They usually walked home, but the past couple of days they wanted a lift, I didn't mind though.

I wait by my car patiently for them, playing with me keys.

I see Jeremy and Vikki head my way holding hands like they usually did.

It used to make me feel weird, that my brother was in love, I guess I really didn't understand it, until now, I guess I can thank Stefan for that. I smile thinking about him.

"Hey 'Lena" Jeremy says stopping in front of me. "Hey, how was school?" I ask, being polite. He shrugs. Just then Vikki nudges him and raises her eyebrows at him, like she wants him to say something.

"Oh yeah right" Jeremy says finally getting whatever Vikki meant. "We are going to walk home today. And Stefan wants to see you on the football field." He says. Vikki rolls her eyes at him and he pokes his tongue at her.

"Oh ok, do you know why?" I ask, this was weird.

"Nah he just really wants to see you" Jeremy says nodding his head slightly. I nod "okay, see you at home guys" I say picking up my bag heading towards the football field. Then I hear Vikki and Jeremy murmur.

"You had one job Jeremy, one thing Stefan asked for you to do and you go blank" she huffs,

"Well sorry, I was too busy thinking about what we were going to do tonight" he says suggestively. And then she giggles.

Now that I wasn't comfortable with, I made my steps faster not wanting to hear any more of that conversation. Soon I reach the football field, and there is no one in sight. "Stefan" I yell, hoping he was around. No answer.

Just then someone's strong hands wrap around my waist. I jump and turn around to face my predator only to see Stefan's smiling face. "Shit Stefan, you scared me" I say out of breathe

"Sorry beautiful" he smiles.

"So why am I here?" I ask him, he smiles cheekily and grabs something from his pocket. It's a small velvet box.

"This might be too soon in the relationship, but oh well. Happy 6 month anniversary my love" he says opening the box to reveal a beautiful silver heart necklace with flecks of gold. My eyes widen and I gasp.

I grab it from the box and admire its beauty "It's so beautiful" I say "Not nearly as beautiful as you" he adds and I smile widely up at him. He winks back at me.

I turn around asking him to put the necklace around my neck. And he does so and quickly places a soft kiss on my neck.

"I love it, thank you so much Stefan" I grin. I grab his hands in mine. "Anything for you" he says softly.

"I wish I had got you something" I say, but as soon as I say it he places his finger to my lips. "This might sound cheesy but, your love is enough"

"Very cheesy" I giggle. He wraps his arms around my waist as I wrap my arms around his neck. "You have no idea how much this means to me Stefan," I whisper so close to his lips. "I'm glad you like it" he whispers back before capturing my lips in a long passionate kiss.

My usual babysitting routine continues as usual, tonight was Saturday night. Usually Stefan was out only two Saturday nights he stayed and helped with Lexi- or we stayed in his room. But tonight he was staying over – this time being his third time, it had been three days since Stefan gave me my necklace and I haven't stopped wearing it.

As soon as I entered their house Lexi commented on how beautiful it looks and how she went with Stefan to buy it. She told me she wouldn't tell me the price because Stefan told her not to. I was a little bit curious though.

Stefan was late, he was out getting some snacks for us, and the three of us were going to watch a movie before Lexi went to bed.

"Elena are you pregnant?" Lexi asked. I stopped playing with the Barbie she handed me and looked at the curious girls face. "I'm not saying your fat, but I thought if you loved someone you got pregnant." Lexi continued. Well I was glad she didn't think I was fat.

"Well, not always. Usually if two people love each other yes they do have a baby, but not so quickly, it takes time." I told her finding the best answer from the top of my head "And when they are ready they can get a baby." I say not totally answering her question. "I'm not pregnant" I also add.

"How do you get pregnant?" she asks, oh god, I did not want to have this conversation with a nine year old. "Well you cuddle with the person you love and-"

"But you and Stefan cuddle all the time" she states, and I huff. "Once you cuddle you have to wish for a baby and when you're ready the baby will come into the girl's tummy" I say hoping I convinced her. "But you have to be in love, and be with this boy for a long time and soon when you're ready the baby will come" I add.

She furrows her eyebrows and nods. "But I want you guys to have a baby now" she groans.

"Not for a while Lexi" Stefan says from behind me, and I wonder how long he has been there. I also blush at the idea of us having kids. I turn around and smile up at him.

"Now go get the movie, so we can start." He adds and she rushes off the get the movie.

I stand up and give him a peck on the lips. "How long were you standing there?" I ask. He smirks "when she asked if you were pregnant" he says. I giggle "She is a funny one" I say and he nods in agreement. We clean up the little mess I and Lexi made and he places the snacks on the coffee table.

"A chocolate bar and a lollipop for Lex" he says sorting out our snacks and Lexi jumps in excitement. I get the movie set up and sit on the couch. "And cookies and cream ice-cream for Elena and me" he smiles.

Lexi gets settled in her blanket on the floor in front of us and smooths out her pillow while saying "Stefan might eat it all Elena, he is very greedy" she smiles cheekily at Stefan and he pokes his tongue out at her.

Stefan sits up on the couch with me and hands me the ice-cream and a spoon as the movie starts. He sits along the couch and I lay in between his legs. "What about your spoon?" I whisper, trying not to disturb Lexi. "Were sharing" he smirks and I can't help but blush a little.

As the movie plays I have a couple of spoonful's of ice-cream and so does Stefan, soon Stefan starts feeding me. I must admit it was weird at first but I soon got used to it.

I loved how he would look into my eyes dreamily after giving me a spoonful and then smile at me.

Soon I am no longer lying down but I am sitting up with Stefan. He will grab a massive spoonful and have half of it and feed me the rest. My heart flutters with every look he gives me, I am no longer watching the movie, but I am watching Stefan eating his ice-cream and licking his creamy lips. As he feeds me a bit he purposely misses my mouth causing some of it to melt down my chin. He licks his lips and starts licking from my neck all the way up to my lips, licking any ice-cream left on me.

The ice cream was cold but my skin was on fire. This was the most inappropriate time to want him. But he kept flirting every now and then dripping some ice cream on himself. He would ask me to lick it off, so I did, I licked all of it off.

We tried to be quiet as Lexi was near, but the movie was really loud and she was really captivated by the screen.

He grabbed another spoonful and aimed it for my mouth but as I was about to eat it he got to it first and grinned at me, I huffed and rolled my eyes. He was being such a tease and he knew it.

The next thing he did was actually feed me this time but once my lips closed he covered my lips with his and kissed me. He licked my lower lip and I gained his tongue access. Our tongues fought against each other, he tasted the ice cream along with me. I tried not to moan but god I wanted him so badly. Once the ice cream is down my throat he stops kissing me. And goes back to eating the ice-cream, I stare at him in shock; he was going to have to pay for that.

With a sneaky grin on my face I move my body slightly facing him. Knowing my mouth is cold I start to softly kiss his jaw line. Soon I start leaving cold wet trails from my tongue down his neck. I can feel him gulp as I do this. I smirk and move my mouth up to his ear kissing just underneath his earlobe. With my left hand I softly run my fingers down his chest, up and down.

Just then I hear him hum in pleasure.

I move my lips to his. He is no longer eating and is focusing on what I am doing to him. I kiss the right side of his lips and then nip at them softly he moans softly as I do this. I hear him placing the ice-cream down on the floor and then his hands move to my hips, his thumbs stroking me gently.

I then move my face only inches apart from his, both our eyes are open watching each other. His lips are slightly parted open ready to kiss me. I move in closer so that when I speak my lips gently graze his.

"Two can play at this game Stefan" I whisper, barley hearing my own words. I see him close his eyes, I brush my lips against his and then I pull away and sit back down watching the movie, as though none of that just happened. He looks at my dumfounded, and I smirk. Payback's a bitch, I think to myself.

It's a brand new week and almost the end of term one, almost Easter holidays. Things have been going quickly this year, which I'm glad about considering it's my last year at school, and I can't wait to leave.

I sit at my lunch table with Caroline and Bonnie as they discuss about what they got up to this weekend.

Caroline spent most of her weekend shopping with Tyler without his own free will. But she said he didn't mind because he was with her, that was cute and all, but I don't believe that for a second. I know boys hate shopping especially if it's with Caroline. She becomes weird and controlling. I don't think I would put Stefan through that.

Bonnie spent the weekend with her grandparents. She was really close with her Grams, they did everything together. Bonnie didn't have as much to say as Caroline, she just said it was fun and simple. That's what I liked about Bonnie she was simple and didn't over analyse things like Caroline, but then again that's why I loved Caroline, I guess I need them both and they need each other.

As Bonnie was finishing her little tale of her weekend the boys came over, by boys I mean, Stefan, Tyler and Matt. Matt was first to greet me as Tyler and Stefan were dragging along behind him talking about something.

"Hey 'Lena!" he greeted

"Hey Matt, how was your weekend?"

I ask him motioning him to sit down next to me, and he does. As he answers he grabs out an apple from his backpack to eat.

"It was cool, very relaxing. You?" he asks now taking a bite out of his apple.

I smile thinking about how I spent all weekend with Stefan. I can tell Matt knows what I'm thinking about, he knows me well enough.

"It was great! We went out last night" I say, remembering our date last night. We went to an expensive restaurant considering we hadn't been to one in ages.

Matt smiles and nods and then starts a conversation with Caroline, which I can tell he knows is a bad idea as soon as she starts blabbering on about the dress Tyler bought her. But Matt listens he always listens.

Stefan once finished talking to Tyler sits down on the other side of me, making Bonnie move over slightly. I turn to face him and as soon as I do this he grabs my face and gently kisses me.

When Stefan is around me all his attention is on me usually and all he cares about is me and my needs. When he isn't with me he focuses on whoever he is with and goes about his normal ways.

He isn't rude to others when he is around me, but he prefers when were together, for us just to have alone time, where he can cherish me.

Kissing him, you would think it would become a regular thing and you would get used to it. But with Stefan every time I kiss him it feels like the first time I have kissed him and the last time I ever will. I always get those butterflies in my stomach and I feel dizzy. Nothing ever changes and I don't think it ever will.

When he pulls away I inhale his musky scent and smile, as does he. I hum and move closer towards him, I lean into the crook of his neck and he rubs my back, running his fingers over my spine.

"Guys these Easter holidays we have to go to Tyler's parents holiday house and chill there for the weekend" Caroline suggests.

"Yeah it's big enough for all of us" Tyler adds.

We probably don't get a say anyway. So I guess these Easter holidays we have plans.

Thank you for reading! I will post the next chapter soon! please review!

- brittnilovesstelena