Chapter 10

BPOV

I messaged Edward and told him to come get me and he was now on his way. I had to tell my parents that I was going to be out with him; it's the responsible thing to do. They were in the living room watching the Seahawks me on Dad's big screen. Normally, they would be right behind home plate but this year they decided to watch it from home.

"I'm going out," I said standing in the entrance leaning against the archway.

"You're going out?" My mom asked looking back at me.

"Yeah, I'm going to hang out with Edward Cullen." I was ready for the questions and the flow of concern my parents were sure to bombard me with. My dad didn't turn from his game or say anything. My mom looked proud, like I just won first place in the science fair or something. I have never gone anywhere with a guy, ever, this was all new to me and to them.

"Call and check in okay," she smiled sweetly and turned her attention back on the big screen. I was relieved and concerned that they were both content with me going out with a boy. Technically they both already knew him; everybody knows everybody here. They would definitely approve of Edward Cullen, who wouldn't.

I made my way to the porch, anxious to see him or anxious to get out of the house; I wasn't entirely sure. I sat on the cold cement steps and watched the leaves as they fell from the trees. There was a light breeze, nothing too bone chilling for good ol' Forks, but I was grateful to have my hoodie.

When he pulled up in front of my house he was wearing a beautiful grin. I didn't move from my seated position; I couldn't. He was so gorgeous, smiling that crooked smile that literally rendered me motionless. I have never taken the time to really look at him; I mean I have seen him around here and there ever since I can remember, but I never really looked at him. To study his perfect face, hard jaw line, rustled hair; it was like beauty in the form of an entity and that entity was smiling at me.

"Are you okay Bella?" he asked with concern preparing to open his door.

"I'm fine," I said before he could get out of the car, "Just enjoying the view." I couldn't tell him that view was him; that would be too embarrassing for me. I picked myself up and walked toward the car. He got out quickly and ran around to open the passenger side door for me. "Thank you."

I waited for him to move so I could sink down into his shiny Volvo but he stayed still as stone. He was looking at me like he had some kind of epiphany; that sense came to his head and he was going to head for the hills. Nervous habit of mine, I started to naw on my bottom lip and lowered my head to stare at my feet.

I didn't look long before his tingling fingers grazed under my chin and I lifted my head instinctively and was met with his soft lips against mine. The force was strong; so much that my head pushed back with him and I would have fallen straight on my ass if he hadn't wrapped his free arm around my waist, bringing me close up against him.

"I have been waiting all day to do that," he smiled that smile and I couldn't help but smile my own goofy smile back.

"Well I'm glad you did," I giggled. Yeah, that would've been totally low key to do that in front of everyone at school. I got in the car and he shut my door. I took the moment to observe his space; this is the first time I was in his car knowing he is my M&M. It smelt like him, like after shave and wintergreen. It was an odd combination but it was wonderful. He had a row of CD's on his visor and I noticed Muse was one of his CD's; I knew of that band.

When he got in and shut the door his fragrance was intensified 10 folds. "Where do you want to go?"

"I don't know where can we go?" I didn't think that far ahead; where would we go?

We can go to my house, my brother and sister are likely to be there. Or I can take you somewhere private if you prefer," god he is gorgeous. I don't think I paid attention to anything he said, I was too mesmerized by the way his jaw moved in very exciting ways when he spoke.

"Umm, somewhere private," I managed to reply.

"Would you like to go out to dinner with me?" his expression was seductive or persuasive, I couldn't decide. He looked so appealing in that moment I couldn't stop myself before I made my next move. I swiveled in my seat, leaned toward him; placing my hand behind his head: I…kissed…him. No boy has ever asked me that, except Mike but he doesn't count, and I was in awe that Edward was the one to do it. He smiled against me before he kissed me back; his lips were moving in sync with mine.

I pulled away and opened my eyes to find the emerald green I was looking for, "I would love to go to dinner with you."

"That's good, I was starting to think you were going to decline," he joked because he knew I wouldn't do that. I laughed because he was trying to be serious but the breathtaking smile was plastered on his face.

"How could I say no to that face?"

"You never know," he started the car, flipped a bitch and we were on our way, to where I don't know.

"So where are you taking me?" We turned onto the 101 and headed east. Nothing was in that direction until you got to Port Angeles.

"It's a surprise," he smiled that crooked sexy smile, and as if that wasn't enough to make my insides celebrate; he grabbed my hand, put it on the shifter knob and held his hand on top of mine while he shifted. His hands were soft yet firm, strong, and I had to hold back a giggle like a 13 year old girl who was experiencing a boyfriend for the first time. Technically this is my first experience and I was completely lost when it came to knowing what to do next.

It was less awkward than the first time I road in his car; at least this time we had things to talk about other than Tanya. Then it dawned on me that he was falling for me while talking to the Marie me. And if that isn't confusing enough, I was falling for him while I was talking to my M&M. I wondered to myself if that would constitute cheating even though we weren't and still aren't together. In a way, being with him came naturally; I already knew more about him then most of his friends. The only thing that made it uncomfortable was the fact that I didn't think it was going to last.

We ended up at a little diner called in downtown Port Angeles. It wasn't anything too fancy but it was very romantic.

"I hope you like Italian?" he said when he slipped out of the driver's seat to open my door for me. He held my hand as we walked across the street and all the way up until he held the door open for me. Once inside there was a concierge woman ready to seat us.

"Table for two?" she asked, talking more to Edward than myself.

"Yes please," his eyes were smoldering as he answered her and didn't attempt to meet her wandering eyes. "Oh and if you can get us something private," he added, looking away from me. She grabbed two menus and led us to the back area; there were six tables and none of them occupied.

"Will this suffice?"

"Thank you," he held my chair out for me before he sat himself. "So what do you think?"

"I don't know, it's cute and this is definitely private. I like that."

"I thought you would," he chuckled to himself leaning across the table towards me. The look in his eyes sent shivers through my entire body. "Can I ask you a question?"

"Sure," I replied in a daze; my thoughts were revolving around his smile, his voice and the light tent of his aftershave. He smelt and looked divine. Before I could answer him the waitress came to take our order.

Edward ordered Agnello Scottadita and he ordered for me the Mushroom Veal Marsala. I couldn't tell you what either of them consisted of, but I trusted his judgment. When she left Edward finally asked his question. "Where do you see this going?"

There was seriousness on his face that I have never seen before and I couldn't believe he was the one asking that question. "I should ask the same question."

"You want to be friends?" That's what he wanted to be: Friends.

"Yeah…friends," I looked down at my lap because that is what I do when I hide my feelings. That hurt.

"Bella," he cooed. I don't think I could just be friends with Edward, not now. I feel so close to him and I wanted to be closer not further apart. I heard his chair screech across the floor closer to me. "Bella," he said when I didn't respond. I hesitantly lifted my head, my emotions pouring out of me; I felt so vulnerable. I didn't want him to see this weak side of me, at least not now. So I mustered up the best confident face I could put on before I lifted my head completely.

"What?" my voice cracked in a whisper and totally blew my cover; but it didn't matter. Edward grabbed one of my hands out of my lap and kissed the top of it. He smiled his unbearably gorgeous smile and my heart paused to appreciate it.

"I'm asking you if that's what you want, it isn't what I want; not even close," he raised my hand and rubbed it against his cheek adoringly. "I want to be this close to you every day every chance I get, as often as I can." He was speaking slowly and sensually as he traced the back of my hand with his pointer finger. "I want to discover all you little habits and obsessions," I bit my bottom lip as my cheeks burned red from the sweetness that was Edward. "Like that. It is unexplainable what that does to me."

I was speechless; I really did not know what to say to that. I had no time to prepare for this nor do I have any amount of experience to deal with this. "Can we just hang out first, I'm a little nervous about the people at school."

"Friends it is," he leaned back into his chair releasing my hand but keeping the smile.

"No Edward, it's more than that," I wasn't smiling anymore but my voice was barely over a whisper. "I just don't want everyone to know about this just yet. I'm nervous that's all."

"That's fine, I can wait as long as you need me to." He leaned back close to me and our faces were lined up perfectly.

"Thank you." His eyes searched over me like they were inspecting my body for any injuries or memorizing every inch of it, either way, it was making the butterflies rise to the surface. He looked at my mouth, then dropped down to my collar bone and back to my eyes.

"What are you thinking?" he asked in a low voice but before I could answer him the waitress came out with our meal.

So the Agnello Scottadita that Edward ordered ended up being grilled lamb and my Mushroom Veal Marsala was exactly what the title says; veal, mushrooms and Marsala wine. It was exquisite, and I say that because I feel like I'm off in some villa in Italy eating my Italian with a beautiful man; not to mention the painted like surroundings. It was amazing to say the least.

Half way through our meal Edward brought up his previous question, "So you never answered my question. What's running through your mind?"

"A lot," I sighed, "I feel overwhelmed." My mind was running a mile a minute.

"In a good way I hope?"

"Yeah, I've just never been in this situation before, I don't really know how to handle it. I like to be prepared for anything and this was unexpected."

"You just let whatever happens happen, you can't always be prepared for everything." How true he was, I was not expecting this when school started or when I started talking to my M well, talking to Edward. This was totally out of the blue.

"Can you just give me time to get used to it," I asked sweetly. "It has nothing to do with you…it's all me."

"You're really giving me the "it's not you it's me speech already"?" He chuckled into his plate and a piece of hair fell into his face. He mechanically brushed it back with his hand and it was without a doubt the sexiest thing I have ever seen a man do.

"You know what I mean," I blushed.

We talked for a while, picking at our food as we got to know more about each other. It was easy to talk to him now that we had met, since we talked online for two months we had tons of common interests.

I spent all day Saturday with Edward at some meadow nestled deep into the woods off of highway 101. He came here when he wanted to be alone or needed inspiration and I could see why; it was very tranquil and had a natural beauty to it. The grass was overgrown but not immensely so and the gurgling creek could be heard over the birds chirping and the squirrels gathering nuts for the winter. It was cold, but Edward came prepared.

He brought blankets and hot cocoa; he had two metal mugs and everything. It was very sweet. We kissed a lot: Being close to him like that, there are no words to explain it. It was so natural, exciting and serene all at the same time. Even when we ran out of things to talk about we just cuddled under the blanket under the tree and watched nature in its form.

I never wanted to leave but the darkness came and tomorrow was a busy day. I'd put off all of my homework and now I had to do it all the day before. Monday started our new partners in Biology and I couldn't wait to sit next to Edward for the rest of the month. I had a reason to talk to him and be near him, that's all that mattered.

Just as we were leaving the meadow it started to rain; as if Mother Nature didn't want to ruin our perfect day. It was cold enough without the rain. The walk back to the car wasn't as bad as the walk to the meadow, well, minus the rain. The car was warm; once we started to drive the heater kicked in but most of the warmth was coming from Edward's hand on top of mine on the shifter.

It was completely dark by the time we got to my house and I made no move to get out into the rain. It was pounding on the car, so thick I couldn't see the porch; only the light that was left on for me. It was quiet in the car as I looked into Edward's eyes. So much honesty and devotion was pouring out of them, like there was so much he wanted to say to me but he just wouldn't. I wished he would, just like I wished I could tell him how I truly felt.

I loved him, there was no doubt about that, some may say it happened too soon but we talked about the most intimate things, things I wouldn't tell anyone, and we trusted each other with our secrets for over a month. He was my best friend when he was my M&M, now it was much more than that.

"What are you thinking?" he asked his voice laced with curiosity.

"So many things," I laughed because he would think I was some crazy person if he could get into my head. "What are you thinking?"

"Uh uh," he leaned over the seat and kissed me sweetly on the cheek. "I asked first," he smiled.

"That isn't far," I complained.

"What?"

"You kissed me and now that's all I can think about," I blushed.

"It's all I can think about, I think that makes it fair," he leaned over again, this time kissing me softly on my lips. When he pulled away I was smiling.

"How did this happen?" I had to ask, it was running through my head all night and day. "How did we end up in this situation?" I was looking at him for the answer and he looked so relaxed and comfortable. His eyes were boring into mine and he was preparing his answer.

He moved quickly, right up against me so that our lips were slightly touching, "It all started in a chat room." His lips crushed to mine and I couldn't even tell you which one of us was at fault. His hand was behind my head caressing my hair in the most absurd ways. His breath was warm and tasted of hot chocolate and spearmint. We had kissed so much to day and every time we did I waited for him to make the kiss deeper, more intimate, but he never did. This time I was going to make it happen.

My tongue was on a mission as soon as I decided to do it and I licked his bottom lip lightly. Without warning, as if he had been waiting for me to do it, to give him some kind of sign that it was okay, his tongue took over. The kiss became more vigorous and my body started acting on its own. It was like I went into lust mode, taking over my logical reactions; I became a different person under his touch. A person with passion and confidence; he made me a better person which made me want him closer.

So I made that happen too.

I climbed onto my knees on the seat not breaking our connection for a second. He realized what I was doing and leaned his seat back to a laying position. I leaned into him, lying completely on his chest as my breathing became erratic. He welcomed me by wrapping his arms around me and holding me tight against him. His hands were pressed firmly into the small of my back and it sent my mind spinning. His hands were big, strong and gentle; very sexy to say the least.

Our embrace didn't last long, when the porch light flickered we both rushed to get back into our intended seats.

"You are so beautiful my Bella," he cooed as he gave me a virtuous kiss goodbye. "Are you sure I can't see you tomorrow?" he pouted his lip and it was so freaking cute.

"I have to do homework, but we can talk all day through Google." I tried to sound enthused but I didn't like that idea either.

"I guess that will have to due until Monday when we go back to just being friends." I didn't really like the idea of being only Edward's friend, but I didn't like the idea of being the cause of all the gossip and whispers even more.

"You know you will never just be my friend, you are so much more than that," I kissed him quickly, sweetly and urgently, "Bye my M&M."

I ran through the rain until I was under the cover of the porch and watched as Edward pulled away. My body knew he was leaving and instantly he was all I could think about. I got a goodnight IM from Edward and went to bed shortly after that. I dreamt of Edward like I have every night sense I started talking to him as my M&M. This one was a little more in-depth but I really can't recall exactly what happened but I woke up bright and early with a smile on my face. I smiled even wider when I saw I already had a good morning IM from him.

Badassvamp360: Good morning Beautiful…ready for the long day of homework?

Vamplvr1987: Of course I am, you know me LOL

Badassvamp360: I told someone, I couldn't help it. I know you didn't want me to and I am sorry for betraying your trust but she bombarded me last night when I got home late. Please don't be upset with me…

Vamplvr1987: Who did you tell?????

Badassvamp360: My sister Alice, she's actually very excited to get to know you. She won't say anything, not even to Jasper.

Vamplvr1987: I can't believe you told someone, but I forgive you. Tell her I can't wait either, but…not yet okay.

Badassvamp360: She said okay but don't make us wait too long.

Vamplvr1987: I won't I promise, let's try to go about this slowly. I'm really nervous about it.

Badassvamp360: Oh my beautiful, smart, klutzy Bella…you have nothing to worry about. No one will say anything because then they'll have to answer to the Cullen's and nobody wants that.

Vamplvr1987: Is that a fact? What do you think the Hale's will say?

Badassvamp360: We could find out, Rosalie is upstairs with Em right now, I could go ask…

Vamplvr1987: NO….wait, please don't.

Vamplvr1987: Time, I need time for all this to fully set in…

Badassvamp360: I'm kidding Bella; they will be fine with it, they're neutral. Well, Rosalie is kind of a bitch when she wants to be but it's easy to get used to. Jasper, he does whatever Alice tells him to so if she tells him to give you a chance he will. And she won't have to tell him that because everyone will love you, you'll fit right in.

Vamplvr1987: Everyone will love me huh?

Badassvamp360: Everyone!

Vamplvr1987: What is the perimeter of an isosceles triangle whose sides are 45.25in., 35.75in., and 35.75in."

Badassvamp360: You are asking me a trig question?

Vamplvr1987: Yeah, I want to see if you have been listening…I never asked you…how did the test go?

Badassvamp360: 116.75in….I think it went okay, we'll find out tomorrow.

Vamplvr1987: you got it..yay LOL…that's good , I hope you can manage to graduate with honors.

Badassvamp360: With you on my side that is definitely a possibility.

Vamplvr1987: I never knew you were so sweet, thanks.

Badassvamp360: oh you haven't seen anything yet.

We talked all day while I did my homework, not about anything unparticular, we just talked about school, about his family and mine. Somewhere during all of our ramblings we got into exes. My list was short, none. His wasn't a long one either, Tanya; but he was raised old fashioned and the one thing that made me smile ear to ear was that he has never given himself to anyone. I did a little happy dance on my bed when I read that. Another thing we shared.

Monday I woke up to yet another good morning beautiful IM; it was always such a confidence booster and I think that's why he did it as often as he did. I remembered he said he liked it when I wore my hair down so I decided I would do that today. The first step in the right direction, something small but I hoped I could do it without turning tomato red.

I wore it down but covered it with my hoodie. I would take it down during out study session, Biology and maybe even lunch so he could see it.

Dad didn't say much on our drive to school but he thanked me for being responsible with my new freedom. That made me more determined than ever to find out what I did, but not today. This day started out good and I wanted it to end that way.

Thank you again for reading BMNM...I posted banners for all of my fanfics on my page if you're interested in seeing them. I also posted the award banners for CA..Next chapter will be some twists and then it's on to EPOV...

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