Author's Note (Monster): Hello, our lovelies. I truly believe the hidden meaning of Mother Murder (Thanks, Daiyu Ability for proposing this song) is a bit like this story. In an interview Charlie stated the tour got delayed because his girlfriend was pregnant. The next Songfic is done too but that's not what we'll be updating next. Replies to the reviews below. Enjoy

The lyrics of Mother Murder:

I can see blood, all over my hands
The longer you lay next to me, the further I ran
What's it all worth? How much can you stand?
The longer you stay close to me, the further I ran

Warning: bromance between the guys and Charlie and a huggable Danny

Charlie was restless. His chest heaving and his breath rapid intakes. His heart was beating like crazy. Again he saw the picture before his eyes. He looked down at his pillow. There was blood. The blood seemed to come out of his pillow, covered his bed in the red liquid and drowned him in it. He tried to scream for help but he was drowning in blood.

His eyes shot open and he sat upright immediately, hitting his head against the roof of his bunk. He was panicking. The pain was too much. His shirt was drenched in sweat and the sweat beading on his forehead dripped down to his nose. His hair was damp. He sat upright panting before his face showed pain and he crashed. Tears slid down his cheeks and a soft sob left his throat. Why did he have to keep waking up like that?

It had been over eight years since it happened but why did he still have get nightmares over it? He cried his eyes out, desperately trying to be silent. Funny Man awoke and looked down at him from his top spot bunk. "Charlie? You ok?"

"No", Charlie managed to say in between his sniffs. "I'm not at all ok."

The Mexican got out of his bunk and stood next to his. "What happened?"

"The nightmare again."

"What did you see this time?" Funny Man asked.

The rapper calmed his sobs. "There was blood. Blood everywhere."

Funny Man got in the bunk with him and rubbed his back while he cried. "It's ok. It's ok."

"No, it's not! How could we kill her like that?!"

"You don't know if she would've survived. She could've died after a month on her own."

"No, she was going to live and I was going to be a father but we killed her. How could I have been so stupid? She would've been eight years old by now. Why did I let her die?"

"You didn't kill her", Funny Man said prominently. He squeezed his shoulder and took him against his side in a half hug. "It wasn't even a baby yet."

"But there was a heartbeat", Charlie murmured. He leaned into Funny Man. "I can't believe what it caused."

Eight Years Ago

"I'm pregnant."

Charlie looked up startled. "Say that again?"

"I'm pregnant and it's yours", Randi repeated.

The bandana rapper swallowed thickly and turned off the television. "Are you serious? That's awesome!"

He took her in a hug but she moved away. "No, it's not."

"Why not?"

"Because you're in a touring band and I'll be raising the baby on my own", Randi expressed, folding her arms. "That's why I don't want this baby. I don't want to raise it on my own."

"You won't have to raise her on your own."

"I will because you're busy with Hollywood Undead. Or will you drop out of the band?"

"No! I can't quit Hollywood Undead", Charlie defended himself. "We're leaving for a tour tomorrow."

"Exactly. That's why I'm getting an abortion."

"What?!"

"Listen, Jordon, I love you, but I can't have this baby if there won't be a father."

"Fine", Charlie said before he could stop himself. "How far are you?"

"Six weeks", she said, her lips trembling.

Charlie looked down at his feet. "Are you sure you don't want to have this baby?"

"Let's not call it a baby anymore. It's not a baby yet. There's only a heartbeat."

"Let's compromise. We'll call it a she", the bandana responded, his throat suddenly sore.

"Fine, but we're not having her", she coldly stated.

Charlie blinked a few times, not fully processing what she was saying. "So when are you seeing the doctor?"

"The day after tomorrow. I'd like for you to be there with me."

"But I'm leaving for the tour", Charlie argued.

She folded her arms. "So you're dumping your pregnant girlfriend for the tour instead of accompanying her to abort your child?"

The rapper sighed. "Fine, I'll tell the guys I can't leave for the tour yet."

That was how their tour had been delayed. Because Charlie's girlfriend was pregnant.

Present time

"I just can't believe how I could stand there idly and let her abort the baby", Charlie whispered, still feeling the reassuring hand of his best friend rub over his back. He hid his face in his hands. "I was so stupid. I was joking about it all the time like it didn't hit me but it did."

"You joke about everything serious to make it easier. I know that as well as you do", the Mexican told him and he nodded numbly.

"I just… She told me it wouldn't work out if we had the kid while I was touring so much. Have you looked at Johnny and Danny? They're touring and their wives and daughters are ok with it. Why couldn't Randi be ok with it?" Charlie said, a heartfelt sob leaving his throat.

"You were only 21 years old. You couldn't have a kid at that age", Funny Man said.

Charlie sighed. "I could. I would've but she didn't want to."

The baritone voiced rapper remained silent. He looked around at the other bunks but no one seemed to wake up while the main rapper was so upset. No one knew what was going on with him. No one knew about the nightmares.

"I don't even know what's the worst part of it", Charlie murmured.

"What do you mean?"

"Was it the part where I sat idly as they killed our baby? Or the part where we grew apart?"

Seven Years Ago

"Our baby would've been born by now", Charlie murmured.

Randi dropped her plate and cursed underneath her breath. She rushed to find a cloth and cleaned the spaghetti sauce off the floor. "What did you say, honey?"

"I said she would've been born by now", he repeated.

She glared at him. "Not this shit again. Are you trying to make me feel guilty? You're still a child yourself. You couldn't raise a kid. You're only 22!"

The bandana rapper scoffed. "I said I could handle a child."

"Saying is different of actually taking care of one. You wouldn't be around to take care of her. For all you know, it could've been a son too."

"A son would've been great. I would have a kid to share my experiences with!"

"What experiences? Your stupidity? Your ignorance? Obnoxious behavior? Lack of care for your girlfriend?"

"Just shut up already", Charlie grumbled and sat down at the table. "Since you removed the baby, you've been on your permanent period."

"Permanent period? Maybe I just don't like it how you seem to fuck around."

"Fuck around? I don't fuck around", Charlie scoffed.

Randi raised an eyebrow. "You've made out with George at least three times already."

"Are you insane? That's not fucking around."

"No, but it's still cheating", she called out.

The bandana rapper laughed harshly and short. "You're pathetic."

He took his plate of food and went upstairs, not wanting to hear her anymore. She was killing him. And she took away his kid, so she killed him twice.

Present Time

"I can't believe we managed to keep up our fighting relationship until a while ago. We were literally fighting for five years. Three years ago we finally broke up. Can you believe how long I managed to stick with her without being close? I ran so hard", Charlie told his friend.

Funny Man rubbed his shoulder to warm him up since his sweat was starting to cool down and made him feel cold. "It's ok now. You don't have to deal with it anymore."

The light switched on to reveal the guys standing around his bunk. "What? Were you guys standing there all this time?"

Johnny lowered his eyes. "I awoke when you said my name. I never knew it bothered you so much."

"It's not your fault", Charlie said.

Danny crawled into the tight space with the two of them, making it even more cramped up but he nested himself in Charlie's lap. "If it makes you feel better, being a dead beat dad who's never there, isn't fun either."

"Yeah, I miss my girl like crazy", Johnny endorsed.

J-Dog cleared his throat. "I never wanted kids so I don't know what you're going through, but it must suck."

"Really, everything will be just fine. The nightmares will stop. You'll get another shot at being a father", Da Kurlzz assured him.

Charlie shrugged. "I just can't believe I'll never meet her. She's dead."

Danny hugged him. "You can take care of me?"

The rapper chuckled despite his tears. "Danny!"

"What? I had to say something."

"Adorable", Funny Man chuckled. He pulled Charlie in close too. "We're here for you, even if we can't help you with this."

"I didn't know you wanted a child", Johnny said. "But if you were meant to be a father, you'll get another chance."

Charlie shrugged. "I don't really know if I want to be a father. I just didn't want her to die like that. She didn't even get the chance to live."

"But in the short time she did live, she knew you were fighting for her cause", Da Kurlzz assured him. He knew it was total bullshit because she wasn't conscious but he felt like those were the words he had to say to make him feel better.

Charlie smiled. "Thanks, guys. Danny, please get off my lap. You're crushing my junk."

"No! I'm comforting!"

"Yeah, you are, but at least don't lean on my family jewels like that."

Danny got up and out of the bunk. "Fine, but don't you dare close on us. We're having a moment here! Whether you like it or not, we're here for you!"

"And I appreciate it."

Please Review, they're our heavy fuel! I wasn't going to let it end well but I did anyway. I am in no way hating on his wife here but it's an AU in which he didn't turn out fine. Which song should we do next?

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Gabbi: Might be unexpected but I used to be a horribly mean guy with a foul mouth (still got the foul mouth). I met my boyfriend after I got beaten up so I'm not complaining. To get back at you about Awoken's Australian heritage, he used to call me 'mate' all the damn time. When we met, we used to throw all of the stereotypical Brittish and Australian words at each other but we make sure to write American.

Dismay: The one I just wrote (Lion) got Awoken in tears. I'm in no way innocent when it's about smut but I can't say I'm experienced in what they did last chapter. I'll get to those three eventually but next time this story gets an update, it'll be Lion, sorry.

NightfireRed: Really? I considered it to be sexy-and-a-bit-too-honest. I wouldn't know what you're going through because my 'dorm' is my appartment really close to campus. I know what you mean about how it may not suit you because I changed too. It went well but it just wasn't my dream. The runaway was nothing, Awoken blew it up because he was worried but I just wandered around the city for a while. Our lives are strange but fine.

Aleasha: I consider this one to be the most fun to write while Awoken thinks Discovery is the most fun. Again, we love your reviews