Standard disclaimers apply. I don't own the song "Tsunami" either. The song belongs to Southern All Stars.
A/N: Thank you to all those who reviewed chapter 9, despite it being such a sad chapter. Here comes chapter 10, and I hope you guys will like it too! I used some lyrics in this chapter, so please check out the translation at the bottom of the page.
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Title: Rewind
Chapter 10: Darkness
(Sesshoumaru's POV)
"Sesshoumaru-sama, your wife is on the line, extension four." My secretary, Miss Iida, said over the phone.
"Alright, I got it." I replied, before pressing the number four on the telephone's keypad. "Hello?"
"Sess? Is that you?" Kagome's voice came over from the other end, asking despite it being her who called me.
"Yes," I said, returning my attention to the documents on my desk before asking, "Is anything the matter?"
"Hmm…not really." She said sweetly. I could almost see her smiling on the other end. "I just wanted to hear your voice. Did you miss me?"
I couldn't help the tiny smile that crept up my face when I heard that. "You have no idea how much."
A small giggle escaped her, before she replied. "I miss you too…say, shall we eat out tonight? You know, just the two of us? Sango is going over to Kumi's place for dinner."
"Are you thinking of going on a strike?" I concealed my intended teasing under a serious tone, suppressing my laughter when I heard her laugh out loud.
"Hey! Haven't I been cooking everyday for the past few weeks?" She retorted good-naturedly, trying to hold her laughter back. "Slave driver."
"I never said you were the slave. You said it yourself, my dear."
"Fine…you know you love me anyway." Kagome said adorably. "So, what time will you pick me up today?"
"How does 6.30 sound to you?"
"Sure, I'll see you later then." She agreed, before dropping her voice to a cute little whisper. "I love you, mochi!"
"Haven't I told you not to call me that?" I feigned annoyance at her chosen nickname for me. I will never figure out how I resemble mochi, the white, sticky rice cake. Dropping my voice to a whisper as well, I ended the conversation. "Love you too…see you later." With that, I hung up.
It's been more than a month since the night when Kagome ran out of the apartment, frantically searching for me.
Despite the duration of time which has lapsed past, I found myself somewhat unable to forget or overlook the incident.
What had caused her to react in such a way? It was highly unlike her to lose it like that, sobbing and running aimlessly just to look for me. She has always been an independent woman, and never too clingy or insecure since the days when we first started seeing each other.
There was something bothering her, and it somehow involved me. Another reason would be her insecurity after seeing her best friends' crumbling marriage, resulting in her over protectiveness of her own.
Speaking of her friends, I can only sigh inwardly. I contacted Miroku a week ago, and it seems like he has already made his stand to Sango, only to no avail. She seems determined to divorce him, and even asked him to do so as a favor to her. But Miroku refused to sign it.
"So what do you plan to do about it?" I asked.
"I will not sign it. I will never sign it." He said stubbornly, his jaw clenched.
"You should know that doing so will only lead to her lawyer sending you more letters."
"Then let them do so. For I will persist until the very last day…As long as she is my legal wife for one more day, I will persist." He replied. There was an awkward pause before he asked softly.
"How is Kagome-san?"
"She's fine."
That brought my mind back to my wife. Sure, she is a lot better now, but the increased numbers of calls she has been making to my office was worrying me. Compared to prior that incident, she has been calling up quite a lot more often to simply hear my voice during work.
Something was terribly wrong, but she's not telling me.
It has already been a month, and she's keeping everything in her heart.
Until she feels like telling me, I will not press for an answer. I can only make sure she does not feel threatened enough to get scared again.
(Kagome's POV)
"Anna ni suki na hito ni deau natsu wa, nido to nai…" I sang to the song playing on the car radio, smiling at my husband's handsome side profile as I did.
This line from the song "Tsunami" by Southern All Stars is my all-time favorite, never failing to inject a syrupy sweetness into my heart every time I hear it.
Sesshoumaru turned to look back at me tenderly for a moment before turning back to keep his eyes on the road ahead. His hand, however, reached across to land on mine.
After a highly satisfying dinner of sukiyaki at Ebisu garden and a romantic stroll in the European style garden, we were somehow transported back to the magical mood when we first started dating. The fuzzy sweet stirrings of love, the chaste kisses, the blushes…These are all what we have forgotten in the face of life's hectic pace.
I was in an indescribably good mood. Nothing could dampen my mood at the moment, and I felt like I've truly gotten over Asami's threat and now regarded it as nothing more than gibberish.
As his fingers interlaced with mine, I felt as if I was the happiest woman alive.
"Mitsume au to, sunao ni oshaberi dekinai…" The romantic music played, bringing back fond memories of the days when I would sing the song and he would listen to the lyrics.
I have a wonderful husband who loves me so much. What more can I ask for?
He never let me down in any aspect, and in fact, gave me even more than I ever asked for. He liked peace and quiet and was introverted, but for me he was accommodating. He became milder in his temperament at home, was filial to my elders and even made friends with my friends.
My mind drifted involuntarily to my best friends, and a pang pf pain struck my heart. I wished I could say the same for Sango's marriage, but it was too late. She had given up completely on any chances of reconciliation, and in fact, has already started packing to move out into a one room apartment she found near her workplace.
I'm not mad at Miroku either, for after seeing how that Asami woman acts, I can roughly understand how good she can get at forcing herself onto him.
They were all victims of unpredictable situation.
"Yume ga owari mezameru toki, fukai yami ni yoake ga kuru…"
'When my dreams ended and I awoke, to the deep abyss of darkness came dawn.' I liked the way the lyrics sounded; they gave hope to me.
Sesshoumaru suddenly spoke up. "Kagome."
"Hmm?"
"You know," He spoke casually, his eyes never leaving the road. "That's what you did to me."
"Nani?"
"Yoake ga kureta koto." His voice was soft, with a tenderness underlying it. It was so simple, but it meant so much more to me.
I smiled, squeezing his hand gently. Only he had the ability to make me feel so much love in my heart, and I only realized a few days ago that I've often been the taking party in the relationship.
It is the time to give, to give him the most precious thing that can belong to the two of us.
I have been meaning to talk to him about my decision, but I didn't know how to say it to him. But tonight seems like the perfect timing.
"Sess…"
"Hm?"
"I was thinking…" I tried to get the words out of my mouth, but somehow I didn't dare to. What if he was disapproving of my decision? What if he thought that I was simply joking, since I was the one who refused initially? "Umm…"
"Go on."
"I…I don't know if you'd agree to this, but…" I closed my eyes, counting down from five. "I want to give us a child. I want to give birth to your child. Can you…can you…you know…"
He didn't make a sound.
I opened my eyes to look at him beside me, and saw his eyes open wider than usual, his hand gripping the steering wheel. That was before I saw the biggest smile I've ever seen on his face since our marriage, take over the look of surprise.
He turned to look at me, his eyes shining with joy. "Can I what?"
I smiled in exasperation and hit him on the shoulder, chiding, "Baka! How can you ask such a question? Especially when you already know the answer!"
"I don't…and unless you tell me, I wouldn't know what to do." He feigned ignorance, a smile lingering on his face the entire time.
"I'm not saying it." I declared stubbornly, crossing my arms.
"How are you going to get a child on your own?" He smiled at me. "Binary fission?"
"Hidoi mochi!" I exclaimed, wrinkling my nose at him. "How dare you refer to me as an amoeba!"
He shrugged. "So what am I supposed to do? I'm only a mochi."
"You…You…I want you to make me pregnant with your child!" I sputtered, feeling a warmth rush up from my neck to color my cheeks.
The traffic light turned red, and he pulled to a stop.
Leaning over, he placed both arms on either side of me. My breath hitched; his close proximity, his serious expression was making my heart pump at twice its usual speed.
He closed his eyes, and placed a kiss at my forehead. Drawing away, he looked into my eyes and said with a small smile.
"Your wish is my command."
I couldn't help the small grin that graced my face before I leaned in to kiss him chastely on his lips. I didn't let the kiss escalate into anything more passionate, for we were after all, on the middle of the road.
"I love you, mochi." I whispered, my heart feeling more like a ball of fluffy cotton candy.
"I love you too." He replied.
The traffic lights turned green, and the car started.
The background music of the song filled the interior of our car, and the beauty of life itself at this magical moment was enough to last me for an eternity. I smiled to myself, thinking of the blissful days we have ahead of us, along with the little life we were about to create.
Will it be a boy? Or a little girl?
"Meguri aeta toki kara, shinu made suki to itte…"
As we turned around the bend, a car suddenly appeared out of the blue, cutting into our path.
It was so close; there was almost no way of avoiding it. So close, so close…
I was too shocked to do anything, and could only watch on helplessly as Sesshoumaru swerved sharply to avoid hitting the car. From where I was, I could catch a flash of silver.
A silver Toyota Corolla…?
"Kagome!" He placed his arm directly across my chest, holding me back to prevent me from hurtling forward. I couldn't hear him that clearly at the moment either; all I could see was a huge tree by the road right ahead of us.
"Sess, watch out!" I screamed, and he turned just in time to see the tree we were heading straight for. He stepped on the brakes furiously, before swerving again so his side would hit the tree and take the impact instead. Meanwhile, his hand was still holding me tightly in place.
"No!! Sess, no!!" The tears were welling up in my eyes, before I reached out to attempt to steer away…
Everything was happening so fast; I barely had time to register anything in my mind. Before I knew it, we crashed heavily into the tree, the impact causing me to lurch to the side. I felt myself hit the window hard, and shards of glass from the windscreen rained down upon me.
As quickly as it happened, the car stopped completely, the side of the car partially smashed in. I drew a gulp of air shakily, before reaching out to my side, to where my husband was.
"Sess…" I gasped, the excruciating pain in my head making me see black dots dancing in front of my eyes. "Sess…"
I gripped his shoulder with all the strength I could muster, and shook him. "Sess…wake up…please…"
He didn't respond; he was unconscious.
"Wake up, Sess…can you…hear me?" I called out to him with all my remaining strength, placing my hand on the back of his head.
Please be alright, my love…
That was when I felt a sticky wetness. I drew my hand back to myself.
It was stained crimson with blood. His blood.
"Se-Sess…" My mouth was completely parched with fear and worry. Before darkness completely took over me, I heard the final sentence of the song.
"Suki nano ni, naita no wa naze…omoide wa itsu no hi no…ame. "
To be continued…
A/N: Oh no…what will happen to Sesshoumaru from now? How about Kagome? And the accident, why did it happen just when everything was so happy for them?
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Glossary:
Mochi – Japanese sticky rice cake (equivalent to Korean tteok, or Chinese nian gao)
"Anna ni suki na hito ni deau natsu wa, nido to nai…" – There will never be another summer when I meet a person I love so much.
"Mitsume au to, sunao ni oshaberi dekinai…" – Whenever our eyes meet, I lose the ability to express myself honestly.
"Yume ga owari mezameru toki, fukai yami ni yoake ga kuru…" – When my dreams ended and I awoke, to the deep abyss of darkness came dawn.
Nani – what
Yoake ga kureta koto – Giving me the dawn
Baka – Idiot
Hidoi mochi – Evil rice cake
"Meguri aeta toki kara, shinu made suki to itte…" – From the moment we met, I would say I love you till the moment I die
"Suki nano ni, naita no wa naze…omoide wa itsu no hi no…ame. " – Why am I crying when I love you so much? In my memories, it is always raining.
