I know I haven't updated in like 2 months but I've been busy and now schools going to start im so sorry but here's then next chapter.
I hope to update again soon.
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Ya I gave up I shouldn't have it's a reflexes so I ran until I couldn't anymore I don't like pain no one dose but we have to live with it we don't want to but we do. So sense I bottled it up it came out in one massive blow. That hurt not only me but the Cullen's awhile I shouldn't care but I do and that what suck the most to know that it hurts them and to actually care. I mean why should it hurt me that I hurt them the only one that deserve it are Emmett and Rose and Jasper.
But it doesn't matter its true I still love them more then I should but what's weird is the person that I care about the most is jasper he got hurt to and when I saw him again I just wanted to huge him it took all my restraint not to, too just stand there and kick and scream which helps no one but I did it any ways and probably gave them whiplash but I don't want to be hurt again. Like the song says it's one of those thing that I want to tell that I need them I want them. But I can't have them I didn't want to give up but I had to it was a struggle but I had to I needed to.
I had to find myself but all I got in return was heart ace it was worse then when Edward left it felt like I was leaving something important behind and I didn't know what it was and I still don't but I think before things can get better I need to find out. I have to.
But I also know I want my family back I cant stand not having them again but I also don't want to be the one to come running back and crying and begging for them but I know deep in my dead rock hard heart that's what I need to do but I was never the one to do that now that I've been changed when I saw Edward and Alice I should have stayed and fix things and move one but I don't think I wanted to. I still don't but I have to…….
So its time to open Isabella Rosalie McCarty Whitlock cold dead heart once again but can I do that again and not be hurt?
Sorry it was a small chapter but it had to be done just one step at a time so fallow me in the story and remember to love Emmett and PLZ REVIEW! AH TOODLS! THIS CHAPTER INSPIERD BY JUSTONE OF THOSE THINGS MEGAND DIA