Song for this chapter
Say goodbye by Skillet
That morning Sanada woke up and looked at the sun which was rising into the sky.
"Today I leave Ōshū, the people who I have come to care about, and" Sanada clinched his fist and looked away from the sun to the forest "And Masamune-dono" It seemed so still that day smoke rose from house chimneys and it just seemed way too still. He then heard boots and closed the door to leave a crack so he could look to see who it was.
Masamune walked towards sanada's room just before he walked past he stopped and looked at the door he walked up to it then let out a sigh. 'he probably doesn't want to say goodbye to me' He walked past the door his pace slowed as his thoughts swirled around in his head which made him turn to a part of the castle that he hadn't been to in a while it was more of Kojūrō's territory, the garden. He had a feeling that he should continue going but he stopped and turned but then looked to the garden again. He sighed as he started to walk to the garden again. ' I will get Sanada back I promised that to myself and to Sanada. We're friends. But why do I feel so, … so … unusually happy around him? It must be his positive attitude, I just don't know what I am to do. He's technically Takada citizen right. but he's been here for how many years? He's like one of my people. And a leader protects his own …. but I failed I didn't protect him.' Masamune was so lost in thought that he didn't notice the slight footsteps of a creeping tiger following not too far from him. 'Why am I doing this?!' Sanada screamed in his head. He stopped and hid when he heard another voice.
"Lord Masamune sir" a soldier came up to Masamune.
"Yes Youta, what is it?" Masamune said still kinda lost in thought
"Takeda is ready to leave with Yukimura when he's ready sir."
Masamune looked at Youta and clinched his fist
"I'll go make sure that he is ready then" Masamune said turning around towards sanada's room.
"Takeda says hurry up with goodbyes and pack up, sir."
Masamune waved signaling that he got it. 'Just because he's older and taking a friend from me he thinks he can boss me around, on my own turf, Ha!'
Sanada over heard the conversation and knew it was too late to make a break for it with Masamune walking towards him. Thinking quickly he snuck around the other end of the garden and made it appear as if he were coming from his room. He smiled at himself for being clever then felt a pain in his heart. 'clever, Masamune-dono is also very clever, why won't these thought's leave my head?'
Sanada looked up when he heard a familiar voice.
"Hey, Yuki… mura, I mean Sanada, I just came to tell you that Takada is waiting for you." Masamune looked at Sanada and he could feel the pain in his chest that felt like he would die right there and now.
"Thank you, Masamune-dono" Sanada said bluntly.
'I wish this burning pain in my heart when I see him down would go away. He is the only one to blame! He is the one who made you feel this way. You should feel hate towards this man before you! You should want to stab him in the heart!' Masamune turned around and took a step forward his body ached or was it just his imagination 'these are going to be the first steps that I take away from him, why ….. why do i feel like breaking down?!' Masamune said to himself when suddenly Sanada spoke, interrupting his thoughts.
"Masamune-dono?" Sanada said with such a soft almost pathetic voice. Masamune stopped he didn't turn he just stopped he didn't want to see him and feel this pain intensify.
"Yeah Sanada?" Masamune said softly
"I..I….It was nothing" sanada said turning away from him.
"I'll miss you Kiddo. I'm sorry." Masamune said as a tear streamed down his face he walked away slowly he was forcing himself to continue on he had to 'Move on. Just move the fuck on!' He heard a soft footstep then there were a few more they came closer to him. Masamune turned towards Sanada his lips pulled back in what could be considered a growl "Goodbye Sanada" He looked at sanada whose eyes were a silent waterfall, Sanada reached out to Masamune. Masamune's heart leapt his heart said hug him but his mind said walk away. He slapped sanada's hand away and walked away his head down in sadness, tears flowed down his face he wanted to escape he wanted away! He started to run till he found himself a place to sit down. He could see Takada's men and him standing there in a way most would say stoic but in Masamune's eye he saw a tiger standing over his prey ready to take the killing bite. He felt so defenseless. So weak and he hated it no he loathed this feeling of being defeated and robbed. ' I hope you're proud of yourself, Takeda. You've finally got the better of me. What more could you take, i wonder.' Masamune seethed silently, The soldiers taking notice of the burning glare in their backs, and quickly moved away to avoid the potential rage of the young dragon. That is when he saw the one who he called 'friend' walking towards them. His rage soon turned to torment. He wanted to run and grab Sanada like that one time and just run until they were safe. But his feet didn't move they stayed in place and it hurt it was torture he saw how Takada smiled so ….. warmly at Sanada and how Sanada gave a shy smile back. All he could do was close his eye and listen to the horses and footsteps fade off. He fell to his knees. 'this is hell this is the pain and agony that I want to end, for everyone.' He just walked solemnly back to his room and collapsed on his bed he wished that he didn't feel anything no pain, no happiness, no nothing just emptiness.
"Lord Masamune?" Kojūrō asked from outside
"Go away Kojūrō." Masamune grumbled
"My lord I know that you must be going through this with more pain than I but You can't just mope about all day" Kojūrō sighed
"Just watch me, do exactly that! I don't want to be disturbed for a whole week Kojūrō." Masamune retorted
"My lord, you must move on from this. You must grow stronger from this. Think of it like a strengthening on your personality. You can fight harder now, for Sanada." Kojūrō tried to convince Masamune
Masamune raised his head but then sunk his head back down in the bed
"I still wish to be left alone for a week." Masamune grumbled
"My lord, forgive me for the subordination, but how long do you think you can stay there?" Kojūrō asked
"I could stay here forever, Yet I know you won't allow that, I will stay in my room for a week" Masamune moaned
"Sir, you're moping in there while Sanada is out here." Kojūrō said knowing this would trick his young lord
"Yuki!" Masamune jumped out of bed and slammed the door open.
Kojūrō quickly grabbed Masamune and pulled him away from the room.
"Kojūrō what do you think you're doing!" Masamune shouted and trashed about
"Doing my duty, sir. I was told to watch over you and make sure you were trained properly to fulfill your duties as lord. I was never told i wasn't allowed to discipline or force you. Your parents trusted me with your future, and as horrible as your mother was, i'm not one to forget my promises" kojūrō retorted back to his young lord.
"I will not allow this!" Masamune yelled still trying his best to be free of the others grasp.
"You have no say in this sir. You still aren't even of age to take lordship. By all rights, you are a child, albeit a bratty one, in a household." kojūrō sighed