HOLY SHIT! I JUST REALIZED THAT LAST CHAPTER WAS MY LONGEST ONE! AND IT BROKE 3,000 WORDS WITHOUT AUTHORS NOTES :O As always, read, review, and let me know what you wanna see? And I don't own ANYTHING UNFORTUNATELY! AND WHOOO CHAPTER 10 EVERYBODY
Chapter 10
I open my eyes and groan, my body hurts all over and I can barely remember what happened last night, then I get flashes of things, me on top of Valentine, me taking the pills, me giving him a blow job. When I get these images I run to the bathroom and throw up, I throw up everything nasty that happened to me, I completely empty the contents of my stomach, which isn't that much considering I did the exact same thing yesterday. I lean back after flushing the toilet against the wall, too weak to do anything else, I lean my head against it, breathing heavily, then slowly get up walking over to the sink and washing out my mouth, then brushing my teeth harshly. After I finish I get some clothes, ignoring the big blood mess on the floor of my room, and get in the shower, starting to scrub my body everywhere, ignoring the stinging and soreness of my back and lower regions. I look at my arms and see old bruises are barely noticeable, but the newer ones are dark against my pale skin, maybe Isabelle wouldn't notice them if I went over today? I keep scrubbing painfully at my body to where it bleeds trying to get the feel of him off me, the feel of him inside me, I can't take it. I ignore the red soreness, the faint lines of blood all over me, and keep scrubbing. I finally break down and fall on my tired, hurting ass, and cry for a second. I promise myself that this is the first and last time I will ever cry because of what he did to me. I won't ever do it again, I will leave this place as soon as I can and never come back. But where do I go? I could go to the crack house with TJ and stay there, but Valentine would surely find me there. Or would he have the balls to go into a house he's always known to be my sanctuary, and think he would come out alive? Before I misbehaved yesterday I could've gone to Jace's, but I think I screwed that up when I hit Isabelle. Or when I ran away, and hit Jace. That might've been where I screwed up as well. I really have no other choice but to go to the crack house, and with what Valentine said yesterday he most likely hurt Tim as well.
I finally get out of the shower, my skin all red and no longer bleeding, and I yank on my clothes, I get dressed in a loose tank top and some sweat pants that are also loose, pulling on a hoodie over it. I leave my hair down, covering my face and lock the door after cleaning up the blood off my floor, it being easier to do since it is tile. I sneak out of the window, using the drainage pipe to climb down. I plug in my headphones to my broken iPod and play my running music, and start jogging towards the house. I am sweating and panting when I walk inside, ignoring the door like everyone else does. I look over to where TJ would usually be sitting, and when I don't see him, I go to where I know his room is -him always wanting his room to be the first one you see- and just open the door. I ignore his nakedness and push his shoulder, glad to not find another woman in his bed, which was awkward the last time. I gently shake him awake mumbling "T, wake up man, I need to talk to you" when he finally opens his eyes, he grabs me by the waist and rolls so I'm under him and glares down at me. Both of us ignoring his morning problem.
"What are you doing here Little Red? Or did you just want some of this?" He asks pushing his body lightly against mine. He stops when he sees my pain ridden face, and instantly sits up and hurriedly puts on some boxers, gently lying beside me and bringing me into his arms. "Hey, Clary-Berry, talk to me little one." I look over at him and bury my head in the crook of his neck. He just holds me while I take the time to calm down, my back feeling like it's on fire. The sweat that was lightly running down my back, when he flipped me on my back got stuck against my shirt, sticking it to my skin. "How bad was it this time C-Dog?" I giggle softly as he says that, then get up, taking off my hoodie, then I slowly peel off my shirt, wincing as I do, then take off my sweatpants, me wearing a thong so he can see clearly that Valentine branded my ass practically. I ignore the gasp and obvious anger that rolls through him when he sees my back and body, he gently turns me so I'm away from the door, and if someone were to walk in they'd see his back instead of mine. He hugs me gently and whispers harshly into my ear "I swear to God Clary, that I will kill him. I will take my time with him, I will make him feel all the pain you've been feeling for all these years. I will make him regret ever getting with your mother, then make sure that she watches, then I will slowly kill her as well. A mother and father is supposed to protect you from things like this. I will show them what a real protector will do about it." I pull away from him slightly, and make him look at me, shaking my head slightly.
"No, you don't have to do that. Just don't worry about it, as long as I have a place to come when he starts doing this shit I'm happy" I smile and hug him tightly, him still be gentle with my back. I don't even register the tightening of his body as someone opens the door, then hear the gasp of "Clary." I jerk away from TJ slightly and look around his body to see the golden hair Adonis staring at me. He's staring at me as if I just ripped out his heart and stomped on it a million times. I go to pull away from TJ and walk towards him, when TJ's hand on my naked thigh and hip stops me from doing it. I don't want him to see my naked battered body "Jace" I say surprised and smile thankfully at TJ when he hands me one of his long shirts, quickly yanking it across my body. I step out of his arms and walk towards Jace, stopping when he shakes his head no "It's not what it looks like, and either way, why are you here? This isn't a place you'd usually hang out is it? So what are you doing here, what do you want?" I ignore the way as I talk he flinches away as if I had smacked him, I ignore the heartbroken way he stares at me, and I damn sure ignore the way his voice cracks when he finally does find his voice.
"I came looking for you, I looked around all night after I found out what happened with my sister and you. None of us are mad at you" His eyes travel to where the shirt ends and they stay there, probably thinking that since TJ is only in boxers something happened between us. "But I guess that you didn't care about that as you came over here and just had sex with him, probably laughing at me for how stupid I was to think that you'd ever actually like me. I was stupid, yea 'it's not what I think?' Is it? What do I look like stupid? Don't ever think about coming around me or my family ever again. We don't want anything to do with you now, just stay away." After he makes his speech he storms out the room, slamming the door shut on his way out. I turn to TJ and open my arms, taking him up on another hug. I ignore the way my heart hurts and burying my face into the crook of his neck.
I look up at him and my eyes sting slightly, knowing I'm about to cry "Give me something strong. Now." I order him and he smiles at me sadly, then nods. I yank my sweatpants, and tank top, and hoodie back on. I go with him into the smoking room and sit on the couch, I look up at him, now in some shorts, showing off his skinny yet a little muscular body. I quickly take two of the pills he offers me, then spread a lot of cocaine on my finger, sniffing it roughly. I sniff deeply after I pull my finger away from my nostril. I notice there is still some on my finger and sniff it up the other nostril. I smile, then pull the joint out of his pocket where I know he keeps pre-rolled joints and get a lighter off the table lighting up, already starting to feel the effect of the drugs I've already taken. I smile taking a long drag of the weed, then do it again passing it to him, I know the rules to drug circles, puff, puff, pass. I laugh despite myself and smile at him "I'm already starting to feel a little better, what else do you have?" I ask smiling up at him, then frown when he shakes his head no.
"This is enough for you my little one, you're too much of a lightweight. I have tequila that we can drink then that's it for you alright?" I pout looking at him, taking the blunt from him again, we keep passing it back and forth, until someone else comes in with a bottle of tequila and I take it from them pushing them back out the room, ignoring the shocked look on his face. I shake the bottle near TJ and giggle opening it then taking a long drink. I know how to handle my alcohol and drugs, having done all of it since I was an itty bitty kid. I laugh then hand the bottle to him, I straddle him, taking the joint from his hands smirking. He laughs at my silliness then says indignantly "Hey! Don't nigger lip it!" I smirk and put my lips more on it, then give it to him, I get off him, and walk over to the door.
I look back at him "Hey, you think that one of them would give me a ride somewhere?" I ask smirking, and giggle as he nods. I stumble out into the living room and call out "Who wants to give me a ride? And I mean a ride like driving a car, I'm not gonna please any of you" I laugh, and let one guy get up grabbing my small tiny hand and leads me to a really nice car "You're a dealer aren't you?" I ask him as I get in to the impeccable car. I smile and look at his light white hair, and black eyes "What's your name?" I ask him when he gets in.
He looks over at me with those black pit eyes, and smiles at me as he starts the car "Well gorgeous, my name is Sebastian, and to answer your question, yes I am a dealer. Quite successful one as well, just like your little friend TJ. Except he also uses, I don't" I smile and shake my head over at him, and he just smiles widely at me, knowing he's my entertainment right now "Now little red haired hotness, where are we going?" I smile and laugh then point to the left, and he takes a left, continuing to do this all the way to where I remember Jace and them taking me yesterday, Sebastian looks at me surprised and raises his eyebrows "Are you sure about this sexy? I don't think that you're in the right place sweetheart. This is a rich neighborhood, and everyone says you've never lived in one of them." I ignore his worry and get out the car.
"Yea, I'm sure about it Sebby, now I'll see you later?" I ask leaning over and gently kissing him on the cheek, it contrasting to his dark eyes, being a pale white color, a little more colorful then mine. I smirk and wink at him then stumble up to the house, knocking -read as pounding- on the door "Heyyyyy" I drag out the y and smile "Sparkly Cat Guy!" I call out again laughing, then fall forwards onto a wall when the door opens, I giggle when the wall grows arms again "Why does walls keep growing arms?" I ask as I look up at a boy, who's so obviously strong, and he has black hair, and bright blue eyes. I smile up at him, running my small fingers lightly around his eyes, then shake my head, standing back up, my hands on my hips looking bigger than I usually do. I giggle as I try to look intimidating "Is Sparkly Cat Guy, or Jace here?" I ask smirking, then when I see cat guy in the back ground, I push my way past the mean boy at the door and run towards him. I'm giggling by the time I get there. "Hey Cat Guy" I say smiling, having fallen into him in my haste.
He gently picks me up and helps me walk over to the couch, a few other people walking into the room. I look at him smiling wide and he isn't doing the same, I lean forwards and make him smile at me, which turns into a genuine one "What are you doing here Ms. Clary?" He asks me and I furrow my eyebrows together, trying to remember why I came here. I finally shrug and he smiles at me again "Great, I'm welcome to have you here, even when Goldilocks doesn't want me to have my door open to you." I cock my head to the side, and lean against Magnus, then cry out when the mean guy who opened the door pushes me away from him. I quickly scramble off the couch, landing on my hands and knees, backing up as he looks at me mad.
I keep scrambling back and shake my head "Y'all are just like daddy, y'all are mean, I don't want to be here anymore" I try and get up, ignoring the shocked stares I get after my announcement and walk over to the door trying to get it open, why won't it open? I ignore it and just open a window trying to stumble out of it, when I feel large hands clamp against my bruised and abused hips. They pull me back into the house and I look up at the man holding me, he looks like daddy, so I put on my neutral and default mode "Hit me and hurt me as much as you want, I don't care anymore." I say in my voice that I usually get when he wants to hit me.
Magnus POV:
Woah, I wonder what the hell happened to her? I ask myself silently when she tells us we're just like her father, then I curse myself silently when Simon grabs her hips. I gently come over to her bringing her into my arms, and whisper into her ear, ignoring the shocked yet still jealous look Alec gives her "It's alright little Clary, we won't let anything else happen to you" I wave my hands at the others, Maia and Jordan immediately leaving, Jace, Alec, Isabelle, and Simon taking a little longer to leave then the other two. I can see the obvious pain in Jace's eyes as he looks at her, then stomps off. I make her gently look at me "Now, Clary, tell me everything, I want to help you." I gently lead her to the couch, and sit her down with me, the no expression face kind of creeping me out.
I listen as she slowly recounts everything that's happened since she was six, at some point I wrapped my arms around her, letting her rest her head on my shoulder. You would think the way she looked and was acting was like she was telling you the weather. She had a blank expression and her eyes were a lifeless green. I even have tears in my eyes when she gets to what happened yesterday when she came home late. I look at the time near the stove and notice that she's been gone from her house for six hours already, it being two o'clock in the afternoon. She tells me what happened when Jace came to the crack house looking for her. I nod and quickly mentally compare it with what he told us, and I feel bad for both of them. I am even more shocked when she gets up and pulls off her clothes in front of me. I barely stifle a gasp as I see all the bruises and cuts on her back, I gently put my hands on her hips, turning her so I can read the branding on her ass. "Property of Valentine Morgenstern?" I ask looking up at her "Is that your father Clary?"
I watch as she slowly gets dressed again, then sits back next to me, her obviously ignoring the hurt that every movement entices "Well, I don't call him father, when I'm not with him, but yes. Valentine Morgenstern is considered my father, really he's just my step father, so I don't know. I do know that I never want to go back. Could I stay here?" She asks me looking a little more life filled in her eyes and I don't think that I could ever deny this little biscuit what she wants, I slowly nod my head and she hugs me tight. She kisses my cheek and I hold her gently, then pick her up, her wrapping her legs around my waist, and I carry her up to my room, not noticing that two people were watching us jealously as I carried her to my room, locking my door behind us.
Ok so I have no clue how long that chapter is but I felt as if it was a good place to end it, and I'm going to talk to my best friend about what I should add after this, because I have a general idea of where I want this to go, but it's gonna be difficult to see how quickly I should move this etc. As always, tell me what you want to see, and you'll see it ;) give me ideas y'all! 3 love y'all!