Ok 3 chapter in 1 day. now i'm going to bed, but i dont want to because i want to know what happens with Rachel! My inital plan went out the window :-S

Quinn sat at home watching the clock, it read 6:45. She really needed to leave now or she was not going to make the show. She thought of so many reasons why she couldn't make it. She finally picked up her bag and hurried out the door "time to face you fears Quinn!" she mumbled to herself.

Of course this was the day that there were severe delays on all London Underground lines. After a very stressful journey Quinn left the station checking her phone to see that it was now 7.27, and she had 3 messages from Helena.

'Where are you? H X' sent 7.10

'Hope you're ok, please let me know what's going on H X' sent 7.17

'Ok it's getting really late now. I'm going in but I've left your ticket at the box office H' sent 7.26

Quinn didn't bother replying she just ran across the road, straight into the theatre. Collecting her ticket, she rushed into the theatre mouthing "Sorry" to Helena before quickly taking her seat as the music began to play.

Quinn took a few deep breaths, kissed Helena's cheek and settled into her seat. What Quinn failed to notice was, from the other side of Helena, 4 sets of eyes all staring at her in a state of shock.

Quinn was enjoying the show. She forgot how much she actually loved the show. She couldn't help but sing along in her head to 'Dear Old Shiz' and couldn't deny that she was secretly excited to hear her favourite song 'The Wizard and I' she actually couldn't believe that she'd let this fear take over for so long. She actually loved the show and was going to enjoy every minute of it. That was, until she heard the opening lines of the song.

That voice was undeniable it made the hairs on her arms stand to attention. She gulped in shock and grabbed the arms of her chair. Her heart race increased and her forehead began to sweat. It couldn't possibly be. There was no way this could be Rachel on the stage before her. She was sat quite far back and when Elphaba had made her first appearance on stage, Quinn had thought it could be Rachel. In all honesty she secretly imagined it to be her, the moment she opened her mouth to sing though there was no denying that it was Rachel Berry on that stage.

Helena took Quinn's hand in her own and whispered "Are you ok? She's incredible isn't she?"

Quinn looked up at Helena only to nod a "yes" and that's when she looked beside the brunette to see the blonde haired girl sitting next to Helena looking at her. Not just any blonde haired girl. She knew straight away who those eyes belonged to, it may have been many years since she last saw them but she'd never forget those eyes. She looked past the girl to see Shelby stare at her gobsmacked, and then past Shelby she saw an equally shocked and slightly angry Hiram and Leroy.

She let her eyes settle back on Beth and as her mind swam with memories and dreams her tears flowed freely. She smiled at the girl one last time before returning her attention to the stage. This was Rachel's opening show, there was no way she was going to steal her spot light. Helena took her hand again and looked at her in sheer confusion. "Just enjoy the show and take some deep breaths." She reassured warmly.

The rest of the first act was spent watching Rachel bring her dream role to life. As the final notes of 'Defying gravity' rang out Quinn began to pray that the how would never end or at least not until she could figure out how to deal with everything. So many emotions filled her mind. Love, fear, hurt, sorrow, regret and secretly hope. Hope for the future. The future that suddenly became so unknown and confused.

As the house lights came on she knew her time was up. She needed to think and think fast, should she run, was that an option.

5 pairs of eyes landed on her Helena spoke first "Quinn this is Beth and Shelby and Hiram and Leroy Rachel's fathers" Quinn opened her mouth to speak but no words came out. She just looked at Beth with a bitter sweet smile as her tears fell once more.

"Quinn..." Beth questioned

Quinn smiled at the child and tried to hold her emotions inside as she spoke to the child.

"It's so good to meet you Beth!" Quinn sobbed taking the child's hand.

Beth took the hand before throwing herself into Quinn's arm. Quinn was taken back but returned the child's hug.

"I'm so happy to meet you too. Please don't be sad. I'm so happy you're here. No one told me I'd get to meet you today. Even when I asked Rachel about you yesterday she didn't tell me."

"I didn't know I was going to see you either but it's an amazing surprise." Beth broke away and returned to Shelby's side.

"Quinn are you ok, what are you doing here?" Shelby enquired.

"I'm fine thank you Shelby just overwhelmed. I didn't know Rachel was in London. I didn't know I swear" Quinn began to panic. She didn't know what to say what to do. She pulled Shelby into a hug and whispered into her ear. "Thank you, thank you, thank you, she's perfect, from the bottom of my heart I thank you!" not knowing what else to say.

Quinn broke away before greeting Hiram and Leroy. They both smiled at her before embracing her in a three way hug. "Quinine bear me missed you! Where have you been? Why didn't you tell us you were coming, why didn't Rachel tell us?"

"I missed you both too so so much. Rachel doesn't know I'm here. I didn't know Rachel was here. I'm, well you see, I'm…"

"She's here with me!" Helena added. Quinn looked at Helena and nodded silently not knowing what to say

"Oh well. We didn't know you were, well…"

Luckily for Quinn, Selby took the silence as an opportunity to excuse herself and Beth to go and see Rachel backstage.

"Shelby… don't tell her I'm here… please, I don't want to ruin this for her. She doesn't deserve this."

"Ok I won't but not for your sake Quinn, for Rachel's."

"Thank you."

Helena looked completely confused but wasn't stupid. Everything began to make sense. Quinn, HER girlfriend, was Rachel's best friend who disappeared, Beth's birth mother and without a doubt the woman that Rachel Berry was in love with. From the way Quinn was acting, it seemed like Rachel wasn't the only one harbouring those feelings.

Quinn took Helena's hand in her own.

"I'm sorry, you must be so confused. I promise I'll explain everything later" she said with a smile trying to reassure her.

Helena pulled her hand away from Quinn's. "Don't worry, no need to explain! I'm pretty sure I know exactly what's going on here, just sit down and watch the rest of the show!"

Quinn did as she was told. How could Helena know? Or more importantly WHAT did Helena know? Surely Rachel wouldn't have mentioned her. Did Helena know about Beth too?

Just as the lights went down Beth and Shelby took their seats. The small blonde flashed a big smile Quinn's way just as the music began to play.

The second act went by so quickly. Quinn silently sobbed for the whole hour. Not really sure if it was because of the breath taking performance Rachel was giving, the thought of coming face to face with the tiny diva and her daughter on the same day. What did this mean for her and Helena?

As 'For Good' rang through her ears. Quinn began to feel sick. She then realised that she was going to come face to face with Rachel. Whether that be today or in the future she was going to have to face the consequences of her actions. Rachel was going to hate her. Rachel must already hate her. How many chances can one person be given. How would she deal with the person who means so much to her hating her so much?

She sat there lost in thoughts, tears streaming down her face. She then realised that everyone around her was standing. She'd zoned out and it was the encore.

Helena grabbed her arm and dragged her to her feet more forcefully then need be. She joined the others around her in giving a round of applause.

As Rachel and her co-star walked out hand in hand and took a bow, Quinn stopped clapping and just starred at the girl before her. It was then that Rachel looked out into the crowd. Her eyes landing on her dads as they cheered and smiled brightly, then on Shelby who shed tears of joy. To Beth who cheered Rachel's name loudly, then to Helena who forced a smile. Then finally Rachel's eyes landed on Quinn and the smile the brunette once wore now turned into a frown. A look of discontent and confusion washed over her features. Quinn couldn't bear to see the hurt on Rachel's face. She looked away and to the floor. As the curtain rose she looked back at the place Rachel once occupied.

"I think I should leave." Quinn said hesitantly.

"You think you should leave!" Helena repeated! "Are you actually kidding me here Quinn! You are not the women I thought you were. How could you do that to her? To me?"

"Helena please I can explain…just not here."

"I think she needs you to explain to her more than I do! How could you do that to her? Just leave her with no reason! Just abandon her. You were her best friend!"

Shelby took it upon herself to intervene as a curious Beth listened in eagerly.

"Ladies, I really don't think this is the time or place for this discussion." she said indicating to Beth.

"We will head backstage to see Rachel with Bethie" Hiram added. Taking the girl by the hand as the couple led her away from the enraged women.

"I'm sorry Shelby; I didn't mean to do that." Helena said sincerely

"It wasn't your fault Helena I deserved it. Shelby, I'm sorry I'm just going to leave. I'll give you my number and if you'd like we could arrange to meet up?"

"Quinn you can't just leave. You'll break her heart all over again! Please don't do that to her again, I beg of you please don't leave. She will want to see you,"

Quinn was taken back. She'd broken Rachel's heart. She'd hurt Rachel so much that she mentioned it to her new friend. So much that Shelby is standing before her asking her not to do it again.

"I'll stay, I didn't know. I thought she'd not want to see me. I thought it would make things worse. If you think it's for the best I'll see her."

"You can speak to her at the after show party. She's going to be running on adrenalin for the moment. Give her some time to cool down or she'll tear you apart!" Helena said "…although I think you deserve it!"

"I'm going to go and see Rachel, I'll see you both at the after show party." Shelby added before leaving quickly.

"Helena please just let me explain?"

"Not now Quinn please, I just, you were you, I was falling for you, we were meant to be good together, but you hurt Rachel so bad. The Quinn I thought I knew wouldn't do that." Helena run her fingers through her hair.

"What am I thinking, of course you are! Quinn one night Fabray. That was the real you wasn't it. This person I've been falling for isn't you. That's the same facade you put on when you made Rachel think she was your best friend before you just left her behind and moved on!"

"No that's not true, you know nothing about my relationship with Rachel! You know nothing about my life!"

"That wasn't an issue when you were holding me in your arms and telling me how much I meant to you was it? You never even mentioned that you had a child!"

"Please don't talk about Beth. I'm not ready. I can't"

"You're not ready, you can't! You're a coward Quinn Fabray you're nothing but a coward! If you cared about them it wouldn't matter about YOU being ready or that YOU don't want to. What about what they need? What about what they want?"

Quinn felt the air rush out of her lungs. Helena was right she was a coward. She was a selfish bitch and didn't deserve to have any of these people in her life. Her breathing started to increase. She felt herself fighting for air. Before she knew it, She was being shaken awake by Helena.

"Quinn, Quinn breathe, please just breathe. I'm sorry I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it. I'm just confused and hurt. Please breathe, please just breathe" she begged the blonde and pulled her into her arms.

The whole theatre had emptied except for Quinn, Helena and a front of house manager who stood in the far corner trying to give the pair space.

"I'm sorry Helena, I care about you honestly I do, I want to make us work I don't know what to do."

Helena brought her lips down harshly onto Quinn's and Quinn returned the kiss desperately. For what seemed like an eternity the two women clung to one another, afraid of reality taking over.

Helena pulled away and looked into Quinn's tear filled eyes. Mirroring her own

"We are going to head backstage and freshen up. I am going to take you to my office, and then I will bring Rachel to you. You can't put it off any longer you need to speak to her. She needs answers and its time she got them."

Quinn nodded her response attempting to contain the tears she felt building behind her eyes.

The pair went to freshen up and Helena led Quinn to her office. On her desk there was a picture of the two of them sat on a park bench pulling funny faces at the camera. On noticing it, Helena lay the frame face down.

"I'll go and get Rachel."

"I'll just drop her here then leave, give you two some time."

"Thank you Helena! You are an incredible human being you truly are."

Helena smiled a bitter sweet smile before leaving Quinn alone.

Quinn took a moment to get the day's events straight in her mind.

Rachel was the star of Wicked in London, Rachel was also her girlfriends best friend, her daughter was in town, she apparently broke Rachel's heart, clearly hurt Helena and any minute now she was going to be reunited with Rachel Berry.