Sex
/-+-+-/Chapter Ten\+-+-+\
The car ride home is quiet, scarily quiet. Gale and Elphaba are both in the front, their hands intertwined in a most sickening manner. At this moment I would love to go back to them walking on eggshells around me.
"So you guys missed the show," says Gale, probably tired of the quiet. Elphaba and I share a look before he continues, "Peeta and Dell broke up, she was not a happy camper, and Finnick called Annie and they have a date tomorrow night." Peeta and Dell broke up and he's fully single? His words play though my mind. He broke up with her for me. I turned him away and he still made himself available for me. He's not real. He has to be an illusion.
Peeta runs through my mind from the car ride and into my day at work the next day. Even seeing Annie with a huge smile on her face from the date she has with Finnick or watching Sae lecture Gale and Elphaba about appropriate behavior at work didn't pull Peeta from my mind. I'm not sure if this is a sign of, but I know it has to be one. Elphaba eventually manages to get my mind off of Peeta when I find her hunched over her toilet, throwing up and crying.
"I'm over a week late, my stomach has been churning, and I felt like throwing up," she says, when she sees me in the threshold, "I can't have kids. What if what happened to Nessa happens to… I just… I… I can't do this!"
"You could…"
"No I couldn't to Gale's child. Any child with Gale's DNA is someone I'll love," she says, "I'm just terrified that what happened to my parents and Nessa will happen to Gale, our child, and me. I'd never forgive myself no matter what happened." I take a seat next to her on the ground, pulling her into a hug, letting her cry her worries away. An hour later we're sitting on the couch sipping decaf coffee quietly.
"Have you told him?" I ask. Elphaba shakes her head. "When do you plan to?"
"When I'm sure," she replies, "When I know what is going on, I'll tell him." I nod in understanding. "But for now, I'm going to go to bed."
I'm in a kitchen. I don't know if I should be in here, this isn't really my expertise. Hell I can barely boil water to make mac and cheese. So why am I in here? I faintly hear a door open and close. I turn my head just in time for a pair of lips crash into mine. I know these lips, they're Peeta's. Peeta is kissing me in a kitchen I don't know.
"How was your day?" he asks, a smile on his lips.
"Uneventful. Yours?" I ask, like this is normal for us.
"I baked and couldn't stop thinking of you," he whispers, before gently kissing my neck.
"Peeta," I moan, feeling his smile on my neck, "What are you doing?"
"Well I was going make love to my wife, if that's okay with her." He's my husband? We're married and this is our house.
"Just making sure that's what's going on," I say, before pulling him back to me. He lifts me up on the counter, settling in between my legs while we strip ourselves of our clothes. Our love making is quick but amazing, followed by sweet and loving words. I love how happy I feel, how happy he looks. I love him.
"Wake up!" calls Elphaba, shaking me awake with a smile on her face. "I'm not pregnant!"
"Monthly friend came?" I asked, wanting to go back to my dream. Elphaba nodded a smile huge on her face. "Awesome, now go away."
"Okay, but you know you could be living that dream, he's just down the hallway." And with that she heads out of my room and back to hers. Her words sink into me, and my dream dances around my head. She's right. I pull on my slippers and a jacket to throw over my tank top and sweats. I find myself in front of his door only a minute later. I take a deep breath before knocking. I hear shuffling, so I assume Peeta is at his door.
"Peeta, it's me, I'm saying the word. I'm done being scared; I want to be with you. I want to love you for the rest of my life. Please open the door, so we can talk face to face. Please?" I reach for the door, but it's still locked. I feel the hot tears sliding down my cheeks. "Peeta please!" Did I wait too long? "Open the door!" It's still locked. He lied to me. I said the word and he isn't mine. He's doesn't even care that I'm here, that I'm standing here. He just has to open the door and I'd be his. I knock one last time, still nothing. I retreat back to my apartment and my room. I crawl into my bed and just lie there. I feel like I'm in a weird state. I'm not asleep but I'm not awake either.
"Katniss? Katniss. Katniss! You can't lie there all day. We have work!" calls Elphaba, outside my door. I don't move. The weight of everything seems to be crushing into me and I don't know what I can do to relieve it. I'm an idiot. I can hear the door open, but I don't look to see who it is. "Enough!" Elphaba moves to stand in front of me, forcing me to sit up. "You are getting up, NOW! I don't care if you go to work, but you aren't staying in bed all day! If you don't want to go get the guy, that is your business, but you cannot sleep all of your life away!" I see her point, but I can't will myself to move. Elphaba lets out an annoyed sigh, before retreating out of the room. I slump back into my bed for I don't know how long, but eventually Elphaba comes back, a coy smile on her face.
"I ran into someone in the hallway, and I invited them in to see you," she says, "Either you will be saying thank you to me later, or you will be super angry with me. I don't really care which one it is, by the way." With that she leaves the room and a moment later, Peeta walks in. I don't want to see him, not after he lied and rejected me.
"Elphaba told me what you think happened," says Peeta, sitting down on the bed. "I didn't hear anything you said, I swear. I would have opened the door and let you in, because I'm in love with you." I feel his lips brush some of my skin. Electricity shoots though my body, but I don't know if it's his words or his lips on my skin. I ignore it either way; he doesn't mean anything he says. "Please, Katniss. I just want you to be happy, tell me what to do and I'll do it!"
"Leave me alone."
"Is that what you really want, me to leave you alone." I nod. "I'll try to respect that, but when," I give him a slight glare, because I won't be changing my mind, "if you change your mind, you can find me at my bakery." I wait until I hear him shut my door to break down in sobs.
The next morning there is a note by my ignored alarm clock;
You are an idiot. He is the sweetest guy I've ever met, if I didn't have Gale, I would be fighting you for him. Go get him! His bakery is on the corner of Tenth and Rosewood.
- Elphaba
P.S. Sae says you will be out a job if you don't shape up soon.
Elphaba's right, I am an idiot and he's too sweet for me. I don't deserve him, and I never could. I do need to start at least going to work soon, I need the money.
\+-+-+\Author Note/-+-+-/
This chapter does have another part that's in another perspective, which I might be willing to post as a mini chapter after this one if you guys would like. It basically fills in the spaces that I left up there.
So I know that you guys want longer chapters, but it's not really my style. Even my original stuff is pretty short; my longest original piece that is complete comes to five or seven pages. If you don't believe me you can check out my original stuff at my tumblr; my URL is thegirlwithmanyfandoms. The URL makes sense if you look at the list of things I am a fan of, but I wouldn't necessarily go look at it unless you want to. Anyways, back to my writing, my works in progress with chapters have short chapters that are only four pages at most.
Things will get better next chapter, the conflict has reached the climax and now it has to get to the resolution.
I'd love to hear feedback positive or negative, but if you're going to be pissed at me for having an OC then why did you even bother reading in the 1st place, but please, for the love of whatever you find holy, REVIEW! I do believe that most stories are victims of bystander syndrome. You assume that someone else will, never thinking that maybe no one will. So always REVIEW and I'll love you unconditionally if you do so!
I feel the need to respond to an anonymous review I got:
hungergaemsfan; What of Peeta's speech about being there for her when she wants him made you think he's in love with Dell? Also I don't think you finished some of you sentences and Katniss is an emotional cripple and she'd react that way. One final note; to make a story exciting there has to be problems, that way when the characters overcome them you feel a sense of accomplishment for them, and you want to see what other problems they face and how they'll overcome them.