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Chapter 10- The Ocean
Edward's P.O.V.
As I step onto our property I hear my family's thoughts running through my heard.
Jasper: I don't know what is wrong with Bella, but early I could feel buckets and buckets loads of guilt and hurt coming off her.
Alice: where is Edward? Bella needs him!
Emmett: I wonder how many milk duds I can eat without spiting them up. 1...2…3… uh oh, here they come.
After that I tried to tune them out. I don't have any idea what I am going to tell my family. I can't tell them the real reason I left. It would cause them all hurt. They love Bella just as much as me, if not more. I jumped over the creek and walked through the front door. My entire family was sitting in the dinning room minus Emmett who's probably in the bathroom. I look over I Carlisle and I read his mind.
Carlisle: Bella arrived today, looking for you, she was pretty upset, she was with Quil, and she's probably there now. Go find her.
I nod my head. I will go find my Bella. I will tell her why I wasn't home when she just surprisingly showed up, in tears. When I am finished talking to her, she probably will be in tears, and my heart will be breaking even more, than it is now. My heart may not be beating, but when I see Bella in tears, it might as well be beating 200 times a minute. Carlisle's thoughts interrupt my own thinking.
Carlisle: do not cause trouble, my dear son. We must not start a war. No matter what is said. If they want to fight, Alice will see it, we will run to help you. But try not to start a war. Bella would be crushed. Go!
I nodded to my family before I stepped out the door into the 5 car garage. I walked towards my Volvo, but decided against it, I needed speed.
"Carlisle I am taking the Aston Martin V12 Vanquish." I whispered as I grabbed the keys from their hook by the door. I poked the garage door opener and saw the door open slowly. I didn't even listen to carlisle's response. I gently tugged open the driver's door. I stepped into the car. I placed the keys in the ignitioni turned the key and slammed the car into reverse. I slammed on the gas. There was no good music on the radio anymore. I shoved the very first c.d that I could find into the 5 disc c.d player. It was The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Don't You Fake It.
In Fate's Hands filled the car. I turned the volume up as I peeled out of our driveway, heading to speak to Bella. I realised that bella will be crushed when she hears what I have to say. I screamed along with the lyrics.
I remember a year ago I was standing in the
crowd
waiting for my chance to break through, my chance to live
again.
Now it seems I've found some friends who finally
understand
what it takes to make this dream come true, we'll be
here till the end.
Shake it, break it, get off your feet,
come
dance with me and don't you fake it.
Shake it, break it, get off
your feet,
get close to me and don't you fake it.
Shout and
scream my friends, connect with me and we'll pretend
this night
will never end (whao oh) this night will never end.
Just let go
you'll see together we'll do anything
this night will never end
(whao oh) this night will never end.
Shake it, break it, get
off your feet,
come dance with me and don't you fake it.
Shake
it, break it, get off your feet,
get close to me and don't you
fake it.
Oh, wish I could thank you all for what you have
done
and all of the things that you have shared with me.
Oh,
wish I could take you all too where I must go
wish I could take
you all, I'll take you in my arms.
Dance, get on the floor,
shake, get on the floor, break, get on the floor
[repeat]
Shake
it, break it, get off your feet,
come dance with me and don't you
fake it.
Shake it, break it, get off your feet,
get close to me
and don't you fake it.
I'm reaching out here to show you what
we've been through
I think there's something we can share, that's
completely new
or maybe I'm just insane, whao oh
Shake it,
break it, get off your feet
I speed down the roads to La Push. I was about 50 feet from the territory line. I considered stopping but I decided against it.i turned down the radio as the song faded. I made it here quick. I must have been speeding. A LOT! As I turned a corner I say first beach, I saw my bella walking towards that smelly mut. I turned my headlights off so they wouldn't see me. I park about 80 yards away, so I can walk towards them, not drivee. If I drove they would hear me. They probably already know I am hear. I quickly read their mines. They all seem oblivious to the fact that I am here. I walk towards them. I suddenly bump into something. I look up to see this beautiful girl gawking at Jacob.
"I'm so sorry miss. I'm not myself today." I reply in my velvety voice. She must be human, because she doesn't smell anything like a mut, in fact she smells better than my Bella.
"Is fine." She replies without taking her eyes away from Jacob. I follow her gaze. I hiss and the sight before. The girl besides me gasps. I don't know if it is due to the fact that Bella and Jacob just kissed,and confessed their love for each other, like me. Or due to the fact that I just hissed.
The entire group turned their gazes towards us. I could hear their jumbled whispers and thoughts. I chuckled to myself.
"What are you doing here leech, you don't belong on this side of the line? You know that we can attack and start a war, right now?" Quil growled at me.
"Quil let him be." I heard Jake state to Quil. Quil turned toward Jake in surprise.
"But I thought you hated this guy?" Quil asked confused.
"I do, but he has to hate me even more, right now." Jake replied as He glanced down at his arms, wrapped around Bella's waist. Quil turned his gaze back to me.
"What do you want?" Quil growled.
"I need to speak with Bella." I stated. I saw Jake's arms tighten around Bella's waist.
"Why?" Jacob asked.
"That is none of your business; she can tell you when I leave if she wants to." I reply.
"Please Jake? I'll be right back." Bella looked up at Jake. He nodded and released Bella. She met up with me and we headed towards the ocean. I say tears gather in her eyes. The silence was awkward so I decided to break it.
"Bella the reason I was not there when you came over today was because I left to go think."
"But Alice said you went to hunt."
"I did, but I mainly went to think."
"Think about what?"
"To think about you, me, and the whole wedding thing." I confess.
"Ha! That's funny. That's why I came to talk to you." Bella said while tears fell over her eyes and covered her cheeks.
"Bella what's wrong?" I asked my voice filled with concern.
"I hate to do this now. You tell me why you came here first."
"Ok. I came here to say that I can't marry you. I can't damn you to this life. The life I was stuck with, without a soul. I know you wanted so bad, but I can't do that to you." I reply, guilt filling my words. Bella started sobbing. "I am so sorry Bella. I just want you to remember that I will love you for eternity. And when you die, I will, and I don't know how yet, but I will kill myself, so I can be with you." I whispered as I hugged Bella close. I heard her sniffle and take a deep breath.
"W-what brought this on? And Edward if you love me than do not kill yourself."
"I don't know Bella, I guess I had a feeling that you didn't want the life that you would have had if we would have been married, like planned." I replied. Bella broke down into more sobs. "Shh. Bella it will be ok. How bout you tell me why you came to my house?" I said trying to calm her. Bella looked up at me.
"I calm to call off the wedding. Well at least for a little while." She replied in between sobs. I only had one word that popped into my head.
"Why?"
"I guess I love Jacob so much. And I know that if I choose the life I choose with you than I wouldn't be able to see him much." She said, she took another breath. "I love you Edward, no matter what. It would still kill me to know that you tried suicide, no matter what the reason is. Promise me that you will stay alive, and try to find your soul mate." Bella said while sobbing.
"Bella I don't think I can." I replied, my dead heart dying even more at the thought. Bella pulled out of my loose grip.
"No Edward! You have to promise me, you will move on and stay alive. For me!" Bella shouted at me as she hit my chest with her fist, while sobbing. She knew that I would do anything for her.
"Bella, you know that I'll do anything for you, but I can't promise that I'll do that." I whispered, wishing with everything I own, that I could cry.
"DAMN IT EDWARD! YOU HAVE TO PROMISE ME!" she screamed in my face. I hugged her close again, and I felt her start sobbing into my chest again. She looked up at me. "Promise me Edward." She said in a broken whisper.
"I promise." I whisper to her as I kiss her temple. "I love you my Bella. And that is the only reason I am letting you go with that mutt so easily."
"I love you too Edward." Bella said as she pulled away. She turned around and started to walk towards the fire.
"Bella?" I ask. She turns around, and I see that the tears continue to fall. I quickly close the distance between us. I gently place my lips on hers. I kiss her with all the passion that I had saved up until she was one of my kind. I didn't care if I lost control. Well not yet anyway. Bella finally pulled away.
"I love you Edward. Tell the family that I am sorry, for everything. The danger I caused you, I was never worth it." She says.
"Bella you were and still are worth it. And if I tell Emmett that you said that it was danger, he would crack up laughing, with Jasper next to him shouting 'it was not danger, it was just…. Fun.' And everyone else would agree with me, that you are worth it." I reply truthfully.
"Tell them I'll be over tomorrow probably, to say goodbye. Good Bye Edward."
"What is with the good byes?"
"I'll be with the pack."
"So?"
"So you guys will probably not want to speak."
"Ha! That's funny Bella; you can't get rid of us that easy." I manage a laugh.
"True."
"Goodbye my lovely Bella."
"Good bye my Edward." Bella replies as she walks towards the fire, her face getting soaked with more tears. I pick up a rock and throw it into the ocean. I head towards my car. When I get in I pull back onto the road. I dry sob all the way home. I park the car in the garage, and I run up to my room, while hearing my family's worried thoughts in my head. When I reach my room I take one look at the bed and I can feel my heart ripping even more.
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Poor Edward and Bella. Was it what you expected?
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