A/N: Short update, and no spell check so beware. This includes much of my coughspeculationscough that I have about the series so, read and hopefully enjoy. AND REVIEW!

Kyo sat up straight in bed, breathing heavily. He heard Shishou stir beside him, but the man was simply turning over. It was just a nightmare. It was just a nightmare.

But the nightmare really happened, didn't it? This wasn't somethingmymind made up. This really happened, and I'm guilty for it. She even said so. She said she wouldn't forgive me. It's my fault she's dead. I could've saved her, but I was only concerned with myself. I'm always concerned with myself. Even now when I'm little again and have the chance to change things. I'm keeping Shishou here, aren't I? He should be at the dojo. I can take care of myself. Everyone would be better off if I wasn't here. I'm responsible fortwo people'sdeaths. Isn't death punishably by death?

The child looked over at Shishou. Bye-Bye, Shishou. You'll see me again when you die. Kyo untangled himself from the covers and stood up. He carefully stepped over his surrogate father and was almost at the door when he stubbed his toe on the corner of his dresser. Pain exploded down his foot as he cried out in pain. Shishou woke abruptly as the child yelled, flipping on a lamp. "Kyo, what are you doing out of bed? Were you going to the bathroom?" Kyo sat down heavily on the ground, crying from the pain in his foot and his foiled escape. If he could've made it to the kitchen he could've killed himself and saved everyone from the pain. He could hear Shishou get up and walk over to him. Great, now I've woke him up. Why am I so worthless and pathetic?

Shishou sat down beside him on the floor before pulling the sobbing five-year-old onto his lap. "Your toe's bledding. Did you hit it on the dresser?" Shishou looked down at the top of his orange head, concerned. He hoped the child was only crying from the pain in his foot. He was stiff in his arms. Kazuma rubbed his back hoping the relax the child, but Kyo only pushed against him trying to get out of his embrace. "Calm down, it's okay, it's not bledding that bad."

"I wish it was," Kyo said before he could stop himself. "If it bled enough I could die and everyone would be happier."

Kazuma blinked and stared at the child. Hatori had said that having suicidal thoughts, especially in Kyo's case, would be existent but only for the first few hours not days later. "What makes you think everyone would be happier if you were dead? I wouldn't be happier. I would be heart broken, and I might kill myself. You don't want that to happen, do you?" Kazuma waited for the child's sobs to slow down so he could speak, hoping he had gotten through to him.

"If I was already dead why would it matter if you killed yourself? We would both be together then, and I could apologize to her for not being able to save her!" Kyo was still sitting stiffly on Shishou's lap firmly held in the man's embrace. Shishou hugged him tightly as he realized what the child meant. He should've known that being little again would bring back all those feelings. Maybe he would just have to take another four months off to "train" in the mountains.

"Shigure, how good to see you. It's been a long time, hasn't it?"

"Yes, Ren-san, it has been a long time." Shigure surveyed the woman befoe him. She was almost old enough to be his mother. If he had been a few years younger she could have easily been his mother. He was glad for the age difference. It would've felt weird to sleep with someone who was old enough to be his mother. It had been a good act of revenge at Akito.

"Have you been to see Akito today? I'm afraid I've gotten on her nerves again, bringing up Akira-san. I don't know how the child can think that she has the right to everything. Everyone knows that I am the one who deserves all this! She only lives here because I allow her to live here. If it wasn't for me she would be out on the street." She paced across the room angrily before sitting down. "I am right. Don't you agree Shigure?"

Shigure calmly shook his head, smiling inwardly at the furious look on her face as he did this. "Akira-san did say that Akito was the special one, the chosen one, and it makes sense that she would get everything. In reality, my dear, I believe you are the one being allowed to live here. Akito could easily kick you out if she wanted to."

She stood up from her spot on the floor, shaking. "How dare you say that? I gave birth to her, and she betrayed me! I thought you were on my side! Am I going to be betrayed by you also?"

"I don't know. Are you? How do you know I am doing this of my own free will? Akito could've have told me to come and say this to you, and you know that I can not disobey Akito." Shigure could almost hear the wheels in her head turning.

"Did she? Did she put you up to this? Is that why you're saying this?" Her eyes were pleading with him to say yes, to say that he wasn't betraying her. He didn't know when she had become so vulnerable.

"You have to decide that for youself. If you think that I'm doing this of my own free will, and I tell you that Akito put me up to you'll call me a liar. So, you tell me, did Akito tell me to do this?" She looked at him, and nodded yes.

Akito was trying desperately to hear what Shigure and Ren were saying, but Hatori had ordered her not be move from bed and the walls were to thick to hear through. She hated being sick all the time. The only good thing was that Kureno would stay be her side.

Her eyes squeezed shut as she felt another member of the zodiac slip away.

Author's Note: Hi people! This doesn't been I'll be updating regulary, but I've read a lot of Fruits Basket in the past week and felt like writing this. If you're tired of waiting for the manga to come out in the US go to and that has it up to ch. 105 and then go to shadow. and that as good chapter summaries up to ch. 122. It's current with what as come out in Hana to Yume. The next update will be somewhere around the 4th of March on that website because that's when the next issue comes out. If anyone's read that far and wants to talk to me email me please! I'm dying to talk to someone about it. Anyway, I know it's short, but I wanted to write something, here it is, and thanks for the reviews! AND PLEASE REVIEW!