I hadn't seen Will in almost three days. Since his visit to Mr.D I had had sex with Percy twice and some shower fun with Jason. It wasn't the same, sure it was fun and I enjoyed it. It wasn't the same. It wasn't Will. Things with Will were different. Even since we instituted the free reign on our sex lives I still really needed Will. I loved Will. The new poly thing had brought us a lot closer, I didn't think it would. I was very skeptical about it at first, but somehow it only built our trust with eachother and relieved all the guilt of sexually wanting other people. It's also really made our friendships with our sex partners stronger as well. I couldn't believe it.
As it turned out that while we were physically promiscuous with others we stayed 100% monogamous mentally. Will was my future. He was everything to me, and him being gone just left this awful hole inside me. Like not being able to get quite warm enough, or always feeling like you forgot to put something on and you are not quite dressed. I won't lie I was worried. I know Will wanted this but I wasn't sure I did. I'm afraid I won't like the change. Sure I'm gay and I love men, but to me Will is a man reguardless of what's between his legs or on his chest. Plus we had something special with the sex that only we can have together.
Most gay men would be grossed out by a vagina but something about how it's the only way we have sex with eachother made it special. Plus we had only just started doing that, it wasn't long enough. I wanted more time having that with him. Of course I couldn't tell him that, he wanted this his whole life I couldn't tell him not to get the change he wanted so badly. I laid their in our bed... our bed. It was my bed until we started dating and now I can't think of it as anything but ours. Everything of mine was his and his of mine. I smelled the pillows, trying to recapture his scent. A waft is his shampoo and cologne scented the pillow. I slowly unbuckled my jeans.
Taking my shirt off I shimmied out of my pants and boxers. I laid there naked, touching myself while smelling the pillow. Closing my eyes and pumping my length in my hand I thought of him. The feel of his tanned freckled skin under my hands and the texture across my tongue. The warmth of his mouth around my tip. The way the sound of the buckles on his strap on would cause me to breathe faster. The stretch of his fingers and knuckles as he worked me open to fist me. Will introduced me to everything sexual. Made me feel again. Made love to me in dirty and filthy ways that made my toes curl.
I lubed my fingers up and breached myself, trying to imagine that they were his. Finding my prostate I began to whimper his name. Tears pricked my eyes and rolled down the sides of my face the more I touched myself to his memory. Gods Di Angelo he wasn't fucking dead get ahold of yourself! I pulled my fingers from myself unable to continue. I just played with my tip teasingly. The door swung open unexpectedly to reveal a surprised looking Will.
"Wow baby did you miss me?"
I shot up off the bed and threw my arms around his neck. Taking his mouth into mine in a feverish kiss that made me dizzy. Picking me up he carried me over to the bed and dropped us both on it unceremoniously.
"You did it? Can I see it?"
"Just wait a second I want to talk to you first."
Looking up at him I started to see the changes. Jawline more square and defined, facial hair much more natural and scruffy. Like it's been two days since he shaved. The shape of his face changed to more of a masculine look. A prominent Adam's apple bobbed in the middle of his neck, the broadness of his chest had widened and his breasts were completely gone. Pecs had replaced them. I looked down to see if I could make out a bulge... there was none. His voice was an Octave deeper too.
"Nico, it's not what you think. Mr. D and I had a long talk. We both agreed on a half way point for now. He said if I wanted the full transition in a few years to come back to talk to him but for now... we just did some other stuff. I still have a vagina, but he took my top and gave me my real voice and my real body. Just without the penis."
"Why? I thought you wanted it so badly?"
"I did, I do. But something that wasn't there before happened and it changed my mind for now. I don't think I'm going to go through the whole thing until I'm maybe 30 years old."
"Why?"
"Because... because one day I want us to have kids. This way... they will be our kids. I want to have our kids one day. So until we are sure we are done having kids I don't want to change my bottom yet. Plus it had taken me so long to except my body for what it was while still feeling male that I don't want to undo all that work yet. With the small changes it should really help my dysphoria. I love you and your Love has really helped me feel like who I should be. I don't want to give that up just yet." He said while playing with my overlong hair. Hands wandering my body as he expressed his reasoning.
Feeling the new shape of his chest I sighed with relief "Thank gods, I am sorry baby but I was just thinking the same thing. Not the kids part but how I myself wasn't quite ready to give your body up yet. Not that I would ever stop you or stop loving you! I just... I just want what we have for a little while longer. It's just so good! I do like these small changes though. They arnt super extreme and only make you look more handsome. I never thought about the kids thing, but now that you said it I like the idea of our kids being our kids. Together. I want that for us. One day we will make great dads. Until then..." I drawled our the last word as I bit along his collarbone. I needed him, now!
Stripping clothes away from his skin we were all over eachother in moments. Flipping me over roughly he shoved his tongue in my puckered rim. Gods his tongue. Fucking it in and out of my hole I felt his fingers join in, that's what I needed, what I was missing earlier. A hand brought itself down hard on my ass cheek changing the color from alabaster white to bright pink. I loved it when he got rough. Teeth grazed my backside as he bit into my all to willing flesh. The only sounds in the air were the growl from his chest and the pleas of "harder" and "more."
"Nico, get it out. Put it on me!"
Knowing what he meant I scrambled for the box of toys under the bed and found my favorite strap on. I buckled it around his waist and applied the water based lube. All the while I explored his new chest with my mouth, leaving the most obscene hickeys I could manage. Licking both nipples into hardness. The jolt of his body at the action made my cock drip. That was one thing he wanted to keep, his nipple sensitivity. Now he had these beautiful new pecs and they had full feeling. Once he was buckled in completely he shoved me down with my face in the pillow and my ass in the air, ready to be taken.
Will didn't even give me time to adjust to the large silicone object. The ribbed flesh of the toy penetrated me deep and hard. Painfully hard, I loved it.
"Oh fuck, oh Will!" I screamed into the pillow as he pulled my hair and smacked my ass.
"Don't cum! I don't want you to cum like this. I want you to cum our way." He said each word with a thrust to my prostate. Fuck If he wanted me to cum inside him he better be quick. I don't know how much more abuse I can take to my prostate. I staved it off for him, he needed this. Needed to feel like a man as he took me, and God's was he my man.
I heard the buckles undo as he pulled out of me. Throwing the toy in the box he retrieved a thin purple virbrator. Lubing it up he ordered me to my back and to raise my legs for him. I did so pulling my knees up with my hands opening my legs. Turning the toy on full blast he slid it inside me with ease. The vibration coursing inside me made my eyes roll, but nothing like Will climbing on top of me and sliding his wetness over me. Sheathing me inside him. I grabbed his hips as he rode my cock like a mechanical bull. The warmth and tightness of him undid me. I came hard and hot in strong pulses inside him. Of course I Knew he hadn't cum yet. Reaching down I pulled the toy out of me.
"Get up against the wall!" I yelled almost to loudly.
Getting up from the bed he braced his back against the wall as I got to my knees infront of him. Strong fingers weaved into my hair as went down on him. I noticed that his clit had grown a bit larger and elongated into a beautiful swollen "peen." I sucked and licked at the folds and around the engorged pleasure center. Two fingers reached up inside him like Piper had taught me and I hooked my fingers in a downward pulling motion. Gasps of my name and out of character screams emitted from above as I played my boyfriend the way only I could. A large wave of squirt shot out of him as he came. Still clutching my hair his knees went weak at the all consuming orgasm.
Sliding down the wall he reached the floor, climbing onto his lap I made him taste his own wetness and my cum mixed together on my face.
"I love you so much Nico."
"Not as much as I love you William."
Rolling together on the floor in a lyrical stream of "I love you's" we made a start to what would be a marathon of love making for the next day or so.