My next chapter! I've decided based on the reviews that there will be no guy added. Sadly though, this means the story will end very soon (possibly). Enough of my chit chat, though. I know that you are probably anxious to see the letter and some by now have skipped this part to read it…. I don't blame you. Anyway, the next chapter is here! Enjoy!

Chapter 9: Hurting Never Hurt So Much

He sat down in one of the chairs and read the letter.

My Dearest Luke,

I sit here in my home with uncontrollable tears. By the time you read this Letter, I will be gone from Stars Hollow. I'm not sure when I will come back, but I'm positive that I won't be able to make your wedding. I hope you and Leslie have a wonderful life together and I wish you all the happiness, I really do. She's lucky to have you.

As I look back there are things I would have changed. If I knew the pain it would cause me I would never had left stars hollow in the first place. It's what caused me to lose you. When I was driving back here I was worried of only one thing. I was afraid that you would have moved on, and much to my dismay you did. Honestly I don't blame you for moving on, but you never came after me either when I left. I waited for you to come as well. I waited everyday hoping that this would be the day you would find me.

Sometimes I would cry at how stupid I was to leave and hurt you by sleeping with Chris. Then other nights I was angry with you for not coming after me, and breaking the engagement. Why did things have to turn out this way? We don't even seem to be friends anymore. I don't know why but I just can't stay here anymore. I just have to get away.

That day you introduced Leslie I ran because hearing this news from you cut my heart in two. After some thinking I planned to show you that my feelings were unchanged, that despite all that we have been through, I love you, and to this day I still do. When I left I cried every night.

My heart swells up thinking of your engagement party that I abruptly left. I honestly thought that you stayed with Leslie because you thought I was over you, but now I feel that you really love her. She's lucky, you know. I know I felt like the luckiest woman on earth when we got engaged, and even when we started dating. It felt so right being with you and it was almost like we were meant for each other. I guess now you don't feel the same, and I don't blame you. Leslie's wonderful.

Trust me when I say that I'll be fine…in time. Only time can heal this pain in my heart but I guess if you moved on, I'm capable of the same thing. Nothing will ever change my love for you Luke, nothing. I love you and I always will. It's the last thing I want to leave you with. Don't expect me back soon. Understand I need time to recover, but like I said I really hope that your life with Leslie is everything you imagined it to be.

With Love,

Lorelai Gilmore

Luke let the letter down. He had to think. So much information to process and so many emotions ran through him as he finished the letter. He felt awful. He felt like he had treated Lorelai horribly. What could he do though? He was bound by his commitment yet he just couldn't go through with this. It hurt him too much to think that he would lose Lorelai. He couldn't go through with the marriage. Thinking of losing Lorelai just hurt too much and this letter was the breaking point. He couldn't pretend that he didn't love Lorelai, he couldn't. He really did. Just then, He heard someone come in the diner. He looked up to find Leslie.

Seeing his expression she quickly came to his side.

"You ok?" she asked in a worried tone.

Luke sighed, "I, I can't do this." He replied sadly as he looked at Leslie.

"Do what?"

"This engagement."

Leslie nodded. "Is the note from Lorelai?" she asked upon seeing a paper in his hand.

"Yes."

"I understand. Luke, you're an amazing guy. Really, you are. These past two years were wonderful and I wouldn't change it for anything. I don't know how to explain this but when Lorelai arrived that first day, your face just seemed lit up. I was honestly surprised, and still am to find out that she was just merely a friend."

"She wasn't just a friend. We were engaged once." Luke confessed.

Leslie nodded. "I figured so, seeing the way that you two interacted. I tried to ignore it, but I guess you're proof enough." She sighed.

With that she gently set the ring on the table and smiled. "I'm glad that we met. I wouldn't have changed the last two years for anything."

"Yeah, me too." Luke replied.

"Go and talk to her. Get the woman you were made to be with." She replied.

Luke looked up to Leslie and smiled. Without a word he got up and left the diner. He needed to find out where Lorelai was. There was really only one person that he could really trust to know where she went: Sookie. It was from here that he found out that Lorelai left the first time. There was one difference though between them: this time he wouldn't let Lorelai go.

Lorelai had been crying all night long and all that crying made her feel so tired. She didn't even have a bite to eat since the engagement party the past night and it was now nearing Lunch. Her stomach growled, but she didn't have the strength or the will to get something to eat. She was a hopeless wreck, but she felt sure that she could go on. She knew that she could, at least that what she told herself. She told herself, she would meet a nice and wonderful guy, who would treat her right, but she knew it would take years for her to recover from this and finally date again. By that time it might be too late. She pulled the covers over her and laid down closing her eyes, and silently crying. For some time she laid like that. Her crying was eventually interrupted by a knock on the door. Upon hearing it Lorelai sat up and was overjoyed to find Rory standing in the doorway.

"Mom, are you ok?" she asked running to her mother's side.

"I don't know." Lorelai replied.

Rory reached over to hug her mother. "I'm so sorry."

"I love him, Rory. I don't know how that could ever change." Lorelai replied.

"I don't know either. You'll always love him, I suppose." Rory answered after releasing her hug.

Lorelai nodded. "I'm glad you're here. You would have probably found me dead if you came minutes later. I would have died from a broken heart."

Rory scoffed, "Don't say that."

"How did you find me?" Lorelai asked a moment later.

"Sookie. She called me, and said I should come over. She's really worried about you, you know"

Lorelai nodded.

"Well, have you eaten anything?"

Lorelai shook her head.

"Let's get you something to eat than."

Lorelai nodded and sat up following Rory out the door, not forgetting to take her coat. It was fretfully cold these days.

Yeah, the 9th chapter is done! It's really up to you guys if you want a sequel or continue their lives after Luke and Lorelai get together in this story. I'm here to please the readers and so as an obligation I ask your opinion on the matter. Tell me what you prefer to happen. If you chose a sequel you would have two more chapters to anxiously wait for, Including an epilogue. I'm not sure how long it would be if you want to continue. I hope you are enjoying this story, though and thanks to all my faithful reviewers. Your reviews make this story happen. Anyway, tell me what you think of this chapter and review, review, review and review and review some more!