Compulsive Notes

It's over! I'm done! I finished the final chapter! I feel kinda bad though, because I usually warn you guys when the story is coming to a close, but did you feel it too? Like if I tried to push it any farther it'd be unnecessarily long? And as much as I love this story, it's time for me to let it go. Hell, I might write a squeal. Yeah, a little time skip. Haha that'd be nice. I'll put that into my though box dearies. Until then, take care of yourselves friends. I'll be back soon. :3

BTW Read this chapter slowly.

Naruto flipped open his phone, as he sat in the car. Rain had begun to fall, making a soft pitter patter against his window. He scrolled through his contacts finding the name he was looking for his pressed the call button. The phone rung two times before it picked up.

"Hello?" Kiba said.

"Come outside?" Naruto asked, fiddling with his keys.

"Wh...are you out there?"

"Just come outside, Kiba." Naruto insisted, flipping the phone shut. He looked out the window. The rain was falling really hard now. Like someone was just pouring water out over the town. Naruto slipped into his jacket and put his hood over his head. He opened the door, and walked around the car. The rain was soaking his jacket, but he took a few slow steps forward. Kiba stood there, continuously looking from the ground up to Naruto, and back to the ground. Kiba had yet to step off his porch and down the steps, using the small covered area to protect himself from the rain. He held his hoodie between his crossed arms.

Naruto kept walking forward, knowing full well what he had to do. Kiba sniffed and put one arm into the thin hoodie. And Naruto stopped inching forward and taking full steps to Kiba, who dropped his jacket. Naruto looked eye to eye with the young man, and took a deep breath.

"I...I need to ask you a favor."

"What is it?" Kiba's voice quivered.

"I want to...I..." Naruto carefully leaned in, and pressed his lips to Kiba's, waiting for the sparks...waiting for the fire...waiting for something that wouldn't come. He broke the kiss and looked at Kiba again. "I'm sorry..."

"No...I mean...it's fine." Kiba's face was turning red.

"That's not what I meant...I'm sorry...because...I can never love you. I...I've already fallen for someone else..." Kiba pursed his lips and tears bawled up in his eyes.

"So you came here to taunt me?" Kiba asked, have to speak a little loud then he wanted because the rain was getting very heavy.

"I came here to apologize but...I needed to kiss you. I needed to see if there was anything here."

"There...there wasn't?" Kiba's face was now very red, and he was on the verge of sobbing as the tears burned his cheeks. "You mean...you didn't feel what I feel? What I felt?" Naruto turned away and walked down the steps, and back to his car.

"I'm sorry..." Naruto yelled, through the pouring rain, but Kiba had already gone back inside.

Naruto raced back to Sasuke's, this time he really needed consoling. He needed something to prove he hadn't just broken someone's heart for nothing. He burst into Sasuke's house, not even bothering to knock, and yelled.

"Sasuke! Sasuke!" This time, it was Naruto who was sobbing. He broke down like a Raggedy Anne Doll, the front door still opened behind him. Sasuke ran down the steps.

"Naruto what's wrong?" Sasuke pulled soaking wet Naruto from the opening, and shut the door, coming back to pull him into an embrace.

"What's wrong?" Naruto got out, in between weeps, "I'll tell you what's wrong, I may have just lost him."

"Lost who? Did you have a puppy or something?" Naruto tried to pull away to hit Sasuke, unsucessfully.

"No! Your fucking stupid! I might've just lost Kiba..." Sasuke held Naruto tighter.

"You did what I told you to, didn't you..." Sasuke's voice sounded more understanding this time. Naruto sniffed and wiped his nose.

"Yeah...and when I felt nothing I told him straight up and he cried...I broke him...why...?"

"The older man...in the picture taught me that. Just...unlike you, he didn't tell me it was over. He just stopped talking to me. Had me transferred out of his class." Sasuke pulled Naruto from his shoulder and looked at him.

"But like I said, Kiba will move on. He knows you choose me, he just needs to accept it. And in time, he will, and in turn will love again. Time heals all wounds, even the big gashes." Naruto leaned back in.

"Tell me it's gonna be okay...tell me everything is fine...that all will be well."

"Everything is okay...it's okay..."

;-;

After twenty minutes of crying, five minutes of consoling, one glass of water, a bowl of ice cream, a small bucket of pop corn, two funny movies, and a long evening of cuddling Naruto was three fourths of the way back to normal.

"Sasuke?" Naruto asked, looking up from his lap.

"Yes."

"Do you really care about me or are you just being nice?"

"Depends, what do you mean by 'care'." Naruto sat up and looked at him

"What do I mean by 'care'? Is there more than one definition?"

"Yes! There's care like I lcare about my brother, which isn't really caring at all...anyways, there's care like I love my best friend. And there's care like..." He paused, and smirked. "Then there's caring about a person like I care about you." Naruto sighed and smiled too. Sasuke leaned in for a kiss, and Naruto did so as well before laying his head back down on Sasuke's lap.

"You know..."

"What?"

"I'm glad I choose you. I couldn't see myself doing this with Kiba. What we would've had...it couldn't have been good. It just wouldn't be as good as what we will have. What we have now."

"There's always room to grow." Sasuke interjected.

"Then we'll always be doing better. I guess...what I'm trying to say is..." Naruto rolled on his back and Sasuke looked down, "I never wanted to be with him. And from the moment I saw you, I knew what I wanted." Sasuke smiled.

"Well, I'm glad you feel that way because from the moment I saw you, I knew I wanted you too." Naruto sat up again and took Sasuke's hand. He stood up and pulled Sasuke up the stairs. He threw Sasuke on his bed and climbed atop him.

"I wanna do it." Naruto said.

"What? Right now?"

"Yes. Right now."

"But-"

"That statement wasn't up for debate." Naruto said, quickly unbuttoning Sasuke's shirt. And leaning in to kiss him.

"Wait! Wait, wait, wait. Naruto-"

"Sasuke!" Naruto whined.

"Naruto! Listen to me, I don't care if you wanna do this, I'm ready when you are, but I don't want it to be like last time." Naruto stopped, still straddling Sasuke, who was looking at a wall, sort of blushing. It's not like he could have gotten away even if he wanted to.

"What? Well it won't be, one I'm topping, two-"

"Since when did we agree on that?"

"Since I was sitting on your crotch. Now we're doing this my way or the highway." Naruto gave him a look, and twisted his hand facing the ceiling.

"Fine." He spat begrudgingly. "But please, this time, let's take this slow. I want to savor every moment...I...I've..."

"Well!"

"I've never been topped by someone I loved."

"Not even that old-wait a second...'by someone you loved'?"

"Look! I had to make ends meet some kinda way! You just don't worry about my past, and I'll give you a future you won't soon forget. Alright?"

"No, Sasuke. I want to know it all. Tell me every detail from the day you were born, to right now."

"It's a long story..."

"I've got time." Sasuke took a deep breath. "But Sasuke I want to tell you my story first. So you understand something. My life is not spectacular. I'm just a simple boy, raised in a house of Christians, and Saints, and always the golden child. My dad raised me to be his little football star. You know, the boy on the 'right side of the tracks' the 'spoiled son'. I had it all from jump street. And you know what, I wasn't happy. Everyone had goals...plans...everyone was making my life but me. And now...I'm not what anyone wants. And when I come out, I'm gonna lose 80% of my friends, I'm gonna be alone...and it's just gonna be you and me. But...I don't care anymore." He said, beginning to laugh, obviously distressed by the thought. "My dad's gonna hate me, and my mom's gonna do everything she can to show me she still cares, but when the oil and the water separate she's going to feel like she's done something wrong as a mother for me not to be straight, and cry herself to sleep some nights. But...for once, I'll have someone there...when everything falls apart." Sasuke slid his hand over Naruto's cheek, and pulled himself from under his body to look him in the eye. He moved his hand into Naruto's.

"Naruto...to put my life in a nutshell, I was born alone. My mother gave me to a nanny and continued on with her carefree lifestyle. The nanny quit at ten, and she said that was old enough for me to take care of myself. My mom moved with me for five years, every six months, and now for the past year I've been trying to hold myself together...I mean I was going to the other high school, but got expelled."

"Could you tell me what happened there?"

"Yeah, you see, I...um...was knocked unconscious by one of the bullies who found out I was gay. He stripped me naked and wrote all over me with lipstick 'fag'. While he didn't get in trouble because he was a 'star student', I had been trouble from the start. So they booted me."

"Oh..." Sasuke nodded. He sighed,

"I don't make friends easily..."

"Is that what you meant by 'I don't play nice with other little boys.'?"

"Yeah."

"Well...anyways. What about the...top thing...well...how long have you been gay? How many partners have you had?"

"Since Kakashi? More then I can count."

"What?"

"When I met Kakashi I didn't know you could feel things like I did for another man. From then on, I was...gay...I guess...and...when I turned fifteen my mom stopped sending me money regularly...I had to get creative."

"What about child services?"

"They don't care about a kid like me down where I'm from. When you sell your body..." He took a deep breath, watching Naruto for any sign of rejection, but he just held tight to Sasuke's hand. "...You don't feel the same as you do when you have sex with someone. I can't even compare a one night stand with it...you feel so dirty, like...like that man's sweat can crawl under your skin and no matter how many showers you take...even as you scrub blood...it's still there. Like he's still rocking over your fragile frame."

"It sounds like a nightmare."

"It is. I hated every second of it. No matter what the man looked like, or what he was doing, even if I started to enjoy it in the least bit, the moment that money hit my hand, I would remember what I'd done. And how 'terrible I was for doing it."

"Sasuke..." Naruto said pulling him into a hug, and the young man began to let out years of suppressed sadness.

"I couldn't stop...and one time...a man even said he saw me cringe as he paid me...he said he saw the scabs on my arms from the scrubbing...saw the pain of the innocence taken away so early...and then..." Sasuke backed up and showed Naruto a face of disgust, "Then...he said...he said he enjoyed it! That...twisted...sick...fuck...enjoyed watching me in pain! That was one of the reasons he came back!" Sasuke ran his hands over his own face.

"Thats...not a problem anymore, Sasuke. It's just you and me now." Naruto insisted taking Sasuke's hands back into his own. "From now on...we'll be okay. And you want to know why?" Sasuke nodded.

"Yes..."

"Because we have each other." Naruto leaned in for the first real kiss. The first kiss filled with something more then lust, or passion, something more then infatuation, or fondness. The first kiss filled from corner to corner with love.

-End-

Omg that took forever! But it turned out great. I'm very happy with the results of my first story of the new year! You wanna hear the worst part about Sasuke's sad, sick twisted, poor story?

I made it all up. Most people write from experience, but me? No. I wrote all of that from my fucked up mind. Wow.

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