Chapter 10

When Lily got back to the common room in Gryffindor tower, she was hit with a sudden sadness. She had been talking to James about family, she didn't have any. Lily sat down. She didn't want to think it was possible to have no family, but that's what she had, nothing. James walked over to her.

"Lily? Are you ok?" He asked her. Lily suddenly collapsed to the floor in shock. How is it possible to lose an entire family in one day? Lily had never thought about it before now. It seemed too unreal to her, like noting had happened. Lily's eyes dilated and unfocused, but were wide open.

"Lily?" She heard a familiar voice but couldn't seem to register it. It felt like her eyes were closed and she couldn't feel anything. She heard another voice.

"She was fine a second ago, I don't know what's wrong with her, she won't talk to me. Gemini go get a Professor, someone, just hurry."

"Lily if you can hear me squeeze my hand." Lily barley heard the voice. She understood what it had said, but she couldn't seem to respond to it. She felt herself being lifted, but it felt like she was floating. She heard another voice.

"She's in shock; we need to take her to Gumble, tell Gemini to go to the Hospital wing when she gets back." Lily didn't know who was talking, she couldn't move or talk. She started to shake a little. This floating sensation was strange to her. Lily had no idea what was going on. She felt something go down her throat. It was cold and almost solid. She was lying down too. She heard yet another strange voice.

"Please. Everyone needs to leave. Miss Evans will be fine, I will inform you all when she comes to." It sounded distant and choppy. Lily couldn't breathe. She felt her face crinkle as something else was shoved, forcefully, down her throat. It was warm this time and it sent a sensational feeling through her body. The room started to spin; at least she thought it was spinning. She felt something wet roll down her cheek. She was crying. Lily could tell she was crying. The room started to come into focus; she could see blurry white figures in the room. She saw someone standing anxiously over her. She felt herself sobbing uncontrollably. She was crying, and crying hard. But she didn't fully understand why. Lily didn't know what was going on, she didn't know where she was…it was so confusing.

"Honey, if you can hear me move your right hand." Lily was still crying but moved her arm as directed, showing she could understand now. She heard a sigh of relief.

"You need to calm down. Now, you need to answer questions for me so I can know if you are ok, calm down now." Lily tried to stop crying but found she couldn't. She also tried to sit up but was unable to move.

"I'm going to put a charm on you so you can stop crying ok?" Lily nodded dolefully and suddenly felt peace. She stopped crying instantly, but continued to snivel a bit. Her eyes cleared and she could tell she was in the Hospital Wing. Madam Gumble was standing next to her.

"Now, I need you to answer some questions for me, questions that may sound silly, but I want to make sure you don't have a head injury." Lily nodded and wiped her face with her hand.

"What is your name in full?"

"Lilith Francine Evans." Lily whimpered.

"What are your parents' names?"

"Samantha and Fredrick Evans."

"Do you have any siblings?"

"One sister."

"What is her name?"

"Petunia Evans."

"Where are you?"

"I…I think I'm in the Hospital Wing."

Madam Gumble smiled sweetly.

"I think you will be ok to go in a few minutes, but I want to watch you first. Do you remember what happened?"

Lily looked at her strangely.

"I remember a little, I was coming back from Hogsmeade, I was with my friends when I felt sad all of a sudden, I sort of went blank, I couldn't feel or move or talk, I heard people talking but it sounded very distant and garbled. I don't really remember much after that." Lily wiped the remaining of her tears and slowly sat up.

"You had a breakdown; you went into a state of shock, that's what you remember I'm guessing. You haven't been coming in. You should have come before it got this bad."

"It just hit me suddenly; I haven't really been depressed at all."

"Well, to keep from having another breakdown, I suggest not getting yourself too over excited. I recommend not going to Hogsmeade next time around also, that seems like excitement in itself."

Lily nodded.

"Ok, do you feel alright?"

Lily nodded again.

"I suppose you can go now, but you will have to check in with me every two weeks, do you understand me?" Lily nodded yet again. Madame Gumble looked and acted like a mother hen.

Lily, annoyed but relieved, looked around.

"Where's James?" She had meant to ask where everyone was, but James seemed to come out instead.

"I sent them all away. It was Mr. Potter who rushed you down here. He's a smart lad. They are all probably hovering outside the door as we speak, as usual." Lily smiled. She slowly got up and walked carefully down the hall towards the door. She was still dizzy.

When she got out into the hallway she saw James.

"Where is everybody?" She asked wearily.

"I made them go eat, it's dinner time, are you hungry?" James looked at her cautiously, she seemed to be dazed. She wobbled a little. James walked to her quickly and picked her up.

"James that isn't necessary." Lily said in a sleepy voice.

"I think it is." He replied sternly. He carried her all the way up to the Gryffindor common room. There was hardly anyone in there and Lily remembered that James had said it was dinner. She felt a wave of sleep come over her and she quickly passed completely out, still in James' arms. He smiled and brought her up to her room and placed her in her bed, fully dressed. James kissed her forehead and turned off the light. He shut the door silently and walked quickly down to the Great Hall.

"How is she?" Gemini immediately asked. James sighed.

"She's fine. She was so tired I had to carry her up to her room. She passed out the second I walked through the common room. I don't think she will remember a lot tomorrow."

"What happened to her, did she say anything?"

James shook his head. Sirius smiled however.

"Why are you so happy?" James shot.

"Our little prongsie is in lloovvee." He snickered. James threw a biscuit at him. Gemini glared at Sirius.

"This is obviously not the time to be pestering your best friend Sirius, we've all been through a lot today, can we please just have one decent meal where we can talk civilly and not throw food at each other?" Gemini said, thoroughly flustered. Gemini reached for another chicken wing and furiously placed it onto her plate.

"You know, you're only eating for two, not an army." Peter said laughing. Gemini gave him a piercing glare. Sirius just threw a biscuit at him. It bounced off his head in the wrong angle, landed in Remus' soup, which in turn splattered everywhere. Gemini furiously got up and walked up to Gryffindor tower.

"Look what you did now Peter!" Sirius yelled, getting up to follow Gemini. Remus hit Peter over the head and James put his head in his hands. How could this night get any worse?

Gemini ran up to her room to lay down when she noticed it was freezing as she walked through the door. The window was wide opened and the cold breeze was making the drapes flutter.

"Lily, how can you stand this it's so cold in here!" Gemini said disbelieving as she closed the window. It was an unusually cold night for early October.

"Lily?" Gemini walked over to Lily's bed and pulled back the hangings, Lily wasn't there. Gemini ran down the stairs right into Sirius.

"Sirius. Lily's gone, have you seen her?" She asked frantically.

Sirius shook his head. "I thought she was passed out up stairs." Gemini looked desperately around the room.

"I went up stairs to lay down, but the window was opened, Oh Sirius you don't think she jumped do you?"

"Gem, don't jump to conclusions, she might be in the loo or something." Sirius said, trying not to think of the worst.

Gemini looked hopefully up at him and then darted back upstairs. She hurriedly came back down a few minutes later.

"She's not there, oh Sirius! Where could she be!?"

The two quickly went back down to the Great Hall to tell James.

"James, she isn't there." Sirius said to him quickly.

"What?"

"Lily, we don't know where she is, I went upstairs to lie down and she wasn't there." Gemini said tearfully. James got up.

"I know where she is." Without a word, James left, leaving Sirius and Gemini to stand there stupidly.