Hey Sakura-chan Master of the Clow here. Thanks to all who reviewed and who gave me song ideas. Sorry that the songs didn't get in though. My friend showed me the song I chose. At first I was skeptical but the lyrics really told Sakura's feelings really well. So for you all I looked at the lyrics not the singer. Also readers are asking about what Syaoran thought of the encounter. So for you all here it again only through Syaoran's P.O.V. Well anyway here is chapter 10. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own CardCaptor Sakura all original characters belong to CLAMP. I only own the OC characters. And the story plot. Thank you!
Last Time:
. . . "I'm sorry. I hope you're happy with Kurasaki-san. I know it makes her mad when I just talk to you."
"Yes. It would be better if you stopped."
"I thought at least we could still be friends. C-can we?"
"No. I'm sorry. I wish we could. But I don't even feel that kind of love for you anymore. It's better if you never speak to me again Kinomoto." I swear my heart completely broke right then and there. I knew I wasn't allowed to call him by his first name anymore. And I knew the truth. He didn't love me. And that hurt most of all. But I managed to keep a composed face. But the tears kept falling.
"I just want you to be happy. So I will let you be." I want to run away but I can't. I'm rooted in my spot staring and Syaoran-kun's beautiful eyes. He's the one who breaks our contact.
"Goodnight Kinomoto." He says while walking away from me.
"G-goodnight Sy- Li-san." I say in a quiet tone.
I don't remember what happened after that. I just woke up in the morning in my bed. I guessed Kazune-kun brought me home. I saw my calendar and it read in my handwriting: TALENT SHOW TODAY! As I was getting dressed and doing my normal morning routines Kero-chan told me what happened. Kazune-kun had brought me home. He even cooked dinner for me but left before Otou-san got back. Throughout the school day I avoided Syaoran-kun as much as I could. He and Kurasaki-san no longer sat with us. We all had to stay after school to prepare the auditorium for the talent show. I know knew what song I wanted to sing. And I would dedicate it to Syaoran-kun. As my last gift of love to him.
Syaoran P.O.V.
"Syao-syao where are you going?" I should have known it wouldn't be easy getting away from her. But Sakura-chan's rehearsal is about to end I have to get away some how.
"Mother has asked me to pick up some stuff at the store." Her face drops and gives me an I-don't-believe-you look.
"I'll come back soon I promise" I say as I kiss her head. I quickly snake through the door before she can say anything else. Gosh I hope she doesn't suspect anything. I can only imagine what measures Sae would take if she found out I lied to her and went to meet Sakura.
I got there early so leaning against the biggest cherry blossom tree in the park. This tree has always been our favorite. I see two figures coming from the horizon. I can tell one of them is Sakura right away. I can't even see the person next to her. All I can see is Sakura's beauty radiating from her.
"So you came." I say. I can't help but smile as I see her staring at me.
"Yes. I do pass by here on my way home." I now notice the person next to her. It's Kyuuketsuki.
"Why is he here?" I said inflicting my anger at every word.
"I'm here to walk my girlfriend home." A low roar escaped from my chest.
"She's not your girlfriend."
"I'm afraid so Li."
"You shut-up. I'm here to talk to her not you."
"Well by all means go ahead. I'm not stopping you."
"Alone." I said making every letter clear to him.
"If you want to talk to me, you're going to have to say what ever you want in front of Kazune-kun too." It was Sakura-chan who said it. Which took me by surprise.
"But-"
"If you can say it to me then you can say it to him. Or else I'm going home." I ponder for a bit. The determination on Sakura-chan's face tells me that she's serious.
"Fine."
"So what do you want?"
"I want to know why you're dating him."
"Is it bad that I date someone Syaoran-kun? Do you not like it?"
"No I don't." I say while clenching my hands into fists to keep my anger from coming out.
"And why's that?"
"Because I just don't!"
"And how does that make you feel?" She says while mimicking a psyciatrist voice. She's toying with me. I couldn't take it anymore my anger just came out and I found myself screaming
"Don't talk to be like that Sakura! You wanna know how it makes me feel? It makes me feel mad! Confused! Heck hurt even! I hate the idea of you dating some guy! He could break your heart. He could be using you!" Something changed in Sakura-chan because she also started blurting out her feelings.
"And why should you care who I date! You know all those feelings you're feeling! Multiply them by ten cuz that's how I felt when I saw you and Kurasaki together back at the airport! I thought my heart would shatter into a billion pieces! And when you went to kiss her in front of me I thought my heart would stop beating all together! So what? You're the only one allowed to break our promises? The most important one we had? I waited for you Syaoran-kun! I never stopped loving you! I felt horrible hurting every guy who asked me out. I thought we would be so happy together once you got back. I stayed loyal to you Syaoran-kun! And how do you repay me? By engaging to someone else! You're the one who broke my heart first! Kazune-kun would never do that. I know he cares about me. And he will help me put my heart back together. He's the one who will try hard to make me happy." Tears were falling from her face. I'm the one who make her cry. I felt horrible. I wanted to go up to her and just take her in my arms and comfort her. But I was not the one she needed that from.
"Sakura-chan please, you can't possibly imagine what I've been through for you. Please Sakura-chan, I don't want you to get hurt"!" I say almost sheepishly yet desprate.
"You're the one who hurt me the second you introduced me to her. I-I wanted to leave and run away. It's taken all my strength to smile and talk to you as if nothing happened between us. Before I was dating Kazune-kun, my heart would sink every time you smiled at Sae. It was a beautiful genuine smile. And from then on I knew I couldn't make you happy. D-does she really make you happy Syaoran-kun? C-can she really give you something I can't?"
I stare to the right to think about her question. A wind blows and I feel something change within me. Suddenly Sae is all I think about. Almost as if I was put under the spell of a love potion or something. I can't stop thinking of her. I do love her. "Yes. Yes Sakura-chan. She's the one who makes me the most happiest in the world."
I see Sakura-chan walking towards me with Kyuuketsuki following. And for some reason I'm not as angry with him as I was a minute ago. She stares at me as if looking for something in my eyes.
"I understand." I hear her say after a while. It's almost a whisper. "I'm sorry. I hope you're happy with Kurasaki-san. I know it makes her mad when I just talk to you." And that made me think of Sae again. And the look on Sae's face angered me because Sakura-chan was the one who was aggravating her.
"Yes. It would be better if you stopped."
"I thought at least we could still be friends. C-can we?" I don't want to see my Sae angry any more. I want to see her happy. When she's happy so am I. I would have thought I could love Sakura-chan as a friend but when I look in my heart I realize I don't anymore. But there's still something there.
"No. I'm sorry. I wish we could. But I don't even feel that kind of love for you anymore. It's better if you never speak to me again Kinomoto"
"I just want you to be happy. So I will let you be." Sakura-chan and I stare into each other's eyes. But Sae is still in my head. Suddenly I realize I had to get back to Sae. She's waiting for me back at the house. I start walking back.
"Goodnight Kinomoto."
"G-goodnight Sy- Li-san." I hear her say in a quiet voice. If I didn't have good hearing I wouldn't have heard her. Hearing her call me by my last name again suddenly makes my chest tight. But I ignore it and head back to my house. I look back behind me and see Kyuuketsuki help Sakura-chan walk her back to her house. Well at least I know she'll get home safely.
"Why hello there Syao-syao." I hear a sweet but kind of deadly voice whisper in my ear. I jerk back in shock.
"Oh. Uh. . . Hi Sae."
"So you didn't go to the grocery store. You went out to see her."
"I know. I'm sorry for lying to you." I apologize as I pull her close to me.
"I saw everything. So I'll forgive you." She says as she leans over the kiss me. Sae forgives me so everything is all right.
The next day at school, Sakura-chan was avoiding me. Also it was the last day to purchase tickets for the talent show. Sae really wanted to go. So we both stood in line, which took most of the lunch period. I thought it would be fun. I had no problem with Sakura-chan avoiding me. It meant I could spend more tome with Sae. But every now and then Sakura-chan's voice rang in my head. Always saying the same thing. 'Li-san'. And every time it would make my chest go tight.
Sakura P.O.V.
30 minutes until the talent show started and about 20 of them Tomoyo spent trying to pick out my outfit. I was the only one in our group who would be performing in the talent show. During the time they were auditioning, Tomoyo-chan was out with her mom on a trip, Eriol-kun was out sick, Meiling-chan wasn't here, and Kazune-kun decided to work light and sound for the show since they were short. Tomoyo-chan was the only one I told about my song other than Kazune-kun.
"Aww Sakura-chan. Don't worry, I'll make sure he sees you perform. I don't care if I have to tie him to the chair he's sitting on to watch it live, or kidnap him and make him watch it in my house in HD."
"Thanks Tomoyo-chan. But we have less then 10 minute to make it to the school. I'm already late from the call time."
"Don't worry we'll make it."
I don't know how Tomoyo-chan does it. We got to the school in 5 minutes flat. I was one of the last ones to perform. There would be an award to the best act. I didn't care if I won. I just wanted to let Syaoran-kun know how I felt. Although, there was one person who was exceptionally good. He played Bratja from Full Metal Alchemist on the piano. He even sang it. Ironically his name was Edward. But his last name wasn't Elric. That would be a little weird. But he did cosplay as Edward Elric. I really hope he would win.
It was almost time for me to go on. I started doing warm ups quietly backstage to relax my muscles, mind, and voice so I wouldn't freeze up on stage. The assistant stage manager signaled me to go on. I took a deep breath and went downstage center where a mike and a stool was already set. Good old techies. You gotta love them. If I wasn't a drama kid, then I would've froze up right then and there. Luckily my teacher taught me how to overcome it. I quickly searched the audience for Syaoran-kun. I found him in the third row center. Next to him were Kurasaki-san, Meiling-chan, Tomoyo-chan (with her camera), and Eriol-kun. But all I could see was Syaoran-kun. I never took my eyes of him.
"Good evening everyone! I'm Sakura Kinomoto and I will be singing 'The Way I Loved You' by Selena Gomez. Before I start I'd like to dedicate this to a very special person. My first true love." I think I heard awws form the audience but I wasn't paying attention. All I could notice was Syaoran-kun. The music started to play.
Everything's cool, yeah
It's all gonna be okay, yeah
And I know,
Maybe I'll leave and
laugh about it someday
But not today, no
Cause I don't feel so good
I'm tangled up inside
My heart is on my sleeve
Tomorrow is a mystery to me
And it might be wonderful
It might be magical
It might be everything I've waited for,
A miracle
Oh, but even if I fall in love again
with someone new
It could never be the way I loved you
Letting you go is
making me feel so cold, yeah
And I've been trying to make
believe it doesn't hurt
But that makes it worse, yeah
See, I'm a wreck inside
My tongue is tied and my
whole body feels so weak
The future may be all I really need
And it might be wonderful, yeah
It might be magical, uh oh
It might be everything I've waited for,
A miracle
Oh, but even if I fall in love again
with someone new
It could never be the way I loved you
Like a first love,
the one and only true love
wasn't it written all over my face, yeah
I loved you like you loved me (oh)
Like something pure and holy
Like something that can never be replaced
And it was be wonderful,
It was magical,
It was everything I've waited for,
A miracle
And if I should ever fall in love again
with someone new
Oh, It could never be the way
No, It will never be the way
I loved you
Syaoran P.O.V.
I knew Sakura-chan meant me. She never took her eyes off of me. And the way she was looking at me, the way she sang the song, I could tell she poured all her heart and soul into it. She truly loved me. And I betrayed her. After her song ended I remembered I loved her. With all of my heart. But something was stopping me. I don't know what. But something inside me kept telling me that I wasn't allowed to love her. But what could it be?
YAY! Chapter 10 is done! MERRY CHRISTMAS! I'm sorry I promised it on Christmas Eve. But I ended up posting on Christmas day. Or night or whatever. Thanks to all who gave me suggestions for Sakura's song. And like I said in the beginning of the chapter my friend showed me the song I chose. At first I was skeptical but the lyrics really told Sakura's feelings. So for you all I looked at the lyrics not the singer. Also you can decide if Sakura won or not. And thank you to all who reviewed. I look so forward to your feedback. Please review I really want to know what you think about my fanfic, and especially this chapter. If not I don't know whether you all like it or not. And your reviews drive me to update faster. Again PLEASE REVIEW! And MERRY CHRISTMAS! *hugs*
Sakura-chan Master of the Clow