Some days it just feels like everything is completely right, like nothing can go wrong and today was a day just like that. I wandered around the house, not able to find the peace to sit down and actually do something, well, how could I? Mori was coming over today and he was going to spend the night with me without Honey or Kaoru trying to ruin it for us. I bet that the little blonde monster that was on the line to becoming fat, little by little convinced Kaoru to do everything for him. It was really cute, they looked like any straight couple on the street. That was just great.

Well, I couldn't keep my expectations too high. Mori was probably very tired from all the work he had been through lately, I couldn't expect him to actually have sex with me. But, I could at least steal a kiss or two from him. It was fine with me to not do it as long as the gorgeous man was here with me. I felt like I couldn't stop smiling as I walked around, trying to find something easy to do. As I walked around the house I realized that I was like a little schoolgirl having her first crush on someone.

How embarrassing, even though I'm dressed as a girl it doesn't mean that I could automatically let my pride go. Honey would notice for sure and it wouldn't surprise me if he tried to use it against me. That little bastard, ruining my mood. Well, not actually, but he could and that annoyed me a lot. Maybe I should try to calm down a bit and find out what that little blonde was doing anyway. I knew he was around here somewhere, but I didn't know exactly where, because I had just wandered about the place with no particular goal and this house was big. It would take forever to find my way back.

Well, now I got something to do. If I could find the stairway I would be fine, I guess. I walked for a bit while I wondered why they needed so much space. I mean, we had a lot of rooms in our house, but most of them are used every now and then by relatives or friends of my parents that had traveled a long way and didn't want to pay for a hotel. But, their rooms were never used, and even though I had been here for about two months now I still haven't been able to meet Honey's parents. And I wouldn't meet them in another three months according to Honey himself.

Another thought that had crossed my mind was that the servants seemed to be nowhere at one moment and there in the next. They were like a small force, most of them where girls, that cleaned the house and obviously didn't clean the unused rooms as often as they cleaned mine or Honey's. But, the servants that had redressed me at the first morning when I woke up here seemed to take less notice of me than the others. I had understood that they were supposed to only take care of Honey in the first place so I didn't bother with them.

I was happy to not being constantly interrupted by servants who told me to do this and that, and who informed me that my father had ordered me to do this and that and whatever. I felt more relaxed at Honey's house to be honest. But it was different with Honey, he seemed to be yearning for someone to care about him. It was an odd and strange feeling to think that Honey was struggling to get attention. He never seemed to be like that in school, probably it was because of the lack of attention at home. I almost felt sorry for him.

Anyway, it was harder to find my way back than I originally thought, because it seemed to me that there wasn't just one staircase, but four different ones that looked exactly the same. How could anybody possibly find their way around this house? Well, if I walk around a bit more I should be able to recognizing something that can put me on the right track. That's when I heard footsteps behind me and I turned around to see a servant just behind me. He almost freaked me out because he was staring at me like a ghost. A chill ran down my spine when the servant opened his mouth.

"Master Haninozuka needs you." Hadn't they stopped using the term 'master' when he now was dressed as a girl and pregnant? It confused me somewhat that Honey allowed them to do that. I gave him a smile and a nod.

"And where might he be?" The servant lifted an eyebrow when I said 'he' and I wondered if he was just too slow to not notice his own mistake, or if he frowned at me for being stupid enough to get lost in here. His face transformed into stone once again.

"Miss Haninozuka is right at the end of the corridor and to the left, then down the stairs, to the left again and then two doors to the right in the corridor. She was there last time I heard anything from her." He talked in a quite rude tone and I didn't know if it was me or if he actually felt that much dislike for Honey. But, he had corrected himself about the mix up with 'miss' and 'master' and it was a good thing, maybe he'll not do the same mistake next time.

"Thank you." I said as I thought about his directions, they weren't very detailed, I could get lost again. But, at least I've got a clue to follow and that was a good thing. I left the servant and wandered off to where he had directed me. Thinking about nothing but Mori again I found the stairs and went down, did he say left after that? I wasn't too sure, but it was the only corridor there and now the question was which door I should open.

I had never been here before and I couldn't remember if the servant said the second to the left or the second to the right. Well, I could always take a shot and guess which door it was, so I decided to open the one to the right. Inside the room I felt that something was very wrong and somewhat depressing, it was a rather small room and as my eyes got used to the darkness inside I saw that Honey sat in the furthest corner, crying like I've never seen anyone cry before. I sighed inside my head and decided to find out what had happened. The blonde monster looked a little startled when I closed the door behind me but then he continued to let his tears fall down the cheek. After a little while he seemed to calm down.

"I want… Kaoru or Hikaru… I can't tell them… I don't want… the baby… babies…" As his random statements rolled down his tongue I sat down next to him, the blonde slid down the wall and rested his head in my lap. I could understand the blonde monster, if I was the one pregnant I wouldn't want to keep it either. It wasn't normal and Honey must be facing the worst conflicts at the moment. I decided to give him some space to think. It was silent for a while. "I thought that I wanted the baby… babies… that's why I didn't remove them in the first place…but, lately…"

"It's okay…" Where did that come from? It's not okay to just end a life like that, but at the same time it was Honey's life and his body, it should be his decision even if it results in abortion. All I can do is to support whatever decision the blonde comes down to, but I must convince him to talk to the twins about his feelings first. It wasn't good that they didn't know anything and I knew everything. "You're just scared… right? I would've been scared if it was me…"

"NO! It's not okay! I-I… seriously think that it will be better if they just died… if they hadn't been made in the first place… I just wish to end all of this and go on like I used to do… but, I can't… because I'm trapped with these two…" The little blonde pulled up his knees and tried to cover up his swollen belly. "I don't want them to grow inside of me… I don't want them to live… I don't want them to exist!" My hand reacted before my mind did and I found myself holding Honey's arm as he had tried to hit himself in the stomach.

"Stop this, Honey…" I began to worry for his mental state. Doing this kind of thing to himself, it was pretty disturbing and I wondered what could happen next. It wouldn't surprise me if he tried to kill himself some time soon. "If you're going to let them go, then at least let the doctor do it for you…" I listened to Honey's heavy breathing as he calmed down, my dress was getting wet but I couldn't tell him to stop because at some point this little monster had managed to capture my sympathy and he held it in a strong grip.

"It's funny…" The blonde quietly giggled. I felt my mind go blank as the monster made no sense. "I've come to trust you more than them…" He pulled gently in his arm, I released my grip as his arm slid out and he took my hand and guided it to his chest. "It's sad that I rather talk about my emotions to my rival than my lovers… but, at the same time I will never be able to call you a friend… or something close to that… You've stolen the love of my life… I'll never forgive you…" This relationship confused me a lot, if somebody asked me what happened in here I wouldn't be able to describe it. It was too absurd in my ears that the two of us could even stay in the same room and yet, here I was with this crying monster in my lap. Stop thinking about it, this is what it is and I wouldn't dare to change a thing, to be honest.

"It's time to talk to Kaoru and Hikaru… I know that it must be frightening to talk to the both of them at the same time, but if you tell them that you want to talk to them one and one they'll understand… I promise you that they won't do anything bad to you… they'll understand." Maybe I understood that monster in some weird kind of way because he seemed to agree with me.

"…I never thought about splitting them up…" Honey let go of my hand and sat up, his face showed a small smile but his makeup was in a bad state, the tears had spread the black color all over his cheeks and he looked like a drowned raccoon. But, I couldn't laugh at him at the moment because he still looked a little vulnerable.

"Well, they're two human beings after all that just happens to look exactly the same, but as their toy, I mean lover, you should learn to treat them after their individual needs and not assume that they're one person with two bodies… it'll be the best for the three of you if you just learned about both of them as individuals and not try to figure out how they work together…" Did that make sense? I don't know, but the little blonde seemed to be happy enough with it.

"It seems hard… they're so alike…" Honey laughed a little and when he calmed down he touched his own cheek and looked at his fingers. "I should take a shower, I can't look like this when I'm taking care of Mori's business." He got up. "Thank you, you're the best listener ever… no wonder Mori chose you…" The last comment was very unnecessary but nevertheless it made me wonder what the blonde meant. Mori didn't talk very much when we were together. Not even when we were all alone. Why would it be a good thing if I could listen if he never talked?

"What do you mean?" The blonde was already heading out the door, he turned around and smiled with his ruined makeup all over his face.

"Don't you know? You should know, you're his boyfriend."

"What?" I was getting annoyed.

"I guess you're not that talkative either… you know, Mori hates to listen… that's why he always seems to be so far out in space, it's because he doesn't like the sound and he blocks it out… the only thing he really responds to is his own name and if somebody tells him what to do, that's how he manages to do his business. He's told what to do and he does it, it's not that difficult to figure out how he works, or is it?" Honey winked, I realized that this must be some part of the truth. I know that I've told Mori to do a lot of things and he has done it without any complaints, just like the last time we did it. It was my suggestion that we'd do it in such a way and he had followed me like a loyal dog.

I felt embarrassed that I hadn't realized this earlier. It wasn't that hard to tell that Mori was obviously raised to do whatever he was told, as his cousin was in the head family and he was lower in rank and therefore much more like a servant than a son of a rich family. It disturbed me a bit that he just followed my lead, I began to wonder if he ever had done something of his own will. Then, I remembered the very first time we did it. Mori had pushed me over the edge and convinced me to do it with him, well I had to drag him down in a kiss before he actually did it, but that was my fault, if I hadn't started to argue against him he would've done me without taking my lead.

But, that wasn't convincing either, he had stopped when I told him to and that was the part that annoyed me quite a bit, he was just like a well-trained dog that lived his life with different owners. Me, Honey, the teachers in school and his father, we were all telling him what to do next or what he could've done better and stuff like that. And when we weren't telling him what to do, he seemed to take off in a dream world of his, it was a shame, really. But, it would be hard to get rid of that behavior. Everyone did it and he seemed to enjoy that others steered his life, maybe it was better to just let him be. After all, I liked to have a person that took care of everything I told him to, that was the way I was raised.

"I've never looked at Mori in that way." I saw the blonde raise his eyebrows.

"Well, now that I think of it. He has actually talked about you a couple times. Heh, who knows, maybe you're different?" With a laugh the blonde decided to leave the room. I got up in a matter of seconds, if I was ever going to find my way to my room it was with Honey's guidance. He only looked at me and decided to let me be as he went up the stairs and to the right. He went to the part of the house that I would've gone to if the servant hadn't interrupted my exploring. But, I wasn't mad, now that I think of it the servant must've noticed Honey crying and instead of trying to comfort him himself he searched for me and hoped that I would take care of it instead.

I must admit that it was a pretty clever way of taking care of the master, even if the master never seemed to notice that they cared for him, they must've done many things like this with both Mori and the twins. That's something to think about, should I tell Honey? Probably, but not now. He should be able to feel appreciated when the twins are coming to pick him up. I decided to let everything drop as I stepped into the large bathroom, it was time to relax and not to think about stressful things, this evening would turn out a lot better than the afternoon had. That I knew for sure.

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I'm quite unsure about this chapter, because I never planned this to happen at all... maybe I'll change it eventually... Mori is not present most of the time, is it a bad thing? I mean, it's about the love between Kyouya and him and they never get to meet each other? I don't know what to say... I've failed...