OMG, 50 REVIEWS! THABK YOU GUYS! So here's chapter 10! Hope you enjoy it! ((=
One word that could describe my relationship with Kendall right now? Hmm… That'd be awkward.Why? Well, let's have a little flashback moment.
Flashback:
Kendall and I were hanging out at Central Park after we had lunch, just the two of us. We were walking by some tree when he pulled me behind it along with him, pressing me against its bole and pressed his lips to mine in a sweet kiss.
"Jo…" He said when we pulled away.
"Mm?" I answered, looking into his beautiful eyes.
"I want to ask you something." I could see through his eyes that he was kind of nervous.
"Shoot."
"Will you be my girlfriend?" My eyes popped out and my mouth hung slightly open. I sure as hell wasn't expecting that.
"I-I can't, Kendall." The nervousness in his eyes was replaced by sadness. Shit, I wanted to die right there. "I-I'm sorry."
"Why?" His voice was soft and I was almost running away from him so I wouldn't have to go through that. I couldn't tell him the reason why. He'd think I'm such a whimp or other worse thing. So I had to lie. And the first thing that came to my head wasn't good, but I couldn't think of any other excuse; so I had to say that.
"Because I d-don't like you." My voice cracked a little. It happened when I lied, only people who were really close to me knew it. Kendall moved away, not touching me anymore.
"Okay, then. I-I'll leave you alone." He turned to walk away, but looked back. "Bye, Jo." Then he left me there, wishing nothing of that happened.
End Of Flashback
It happened a little past a week ago. Now the guys had only three more days left in New York, and whenever we met up Kendall wouldn't talk to me that much, and when the others got smooch we'd look down, look up, accidently meeting up the other's eyes, and look down again. Yeah, that's pretty miserable.
That night we were going to a karaoke place (A.N.: Picture it as the karaoke place from Victorious which I can't remember the name =PP) the guys loved and –in my case, try to- have a good time. Camille, Cassie and Stephanie were kinda dressed up and made me be too. (A.N.: Their outfits will be on my profile as soon as I can. I was kinda stuck with their clothes and didn't post this chapter before just because of it. So I decided to update the sotry and add the outfits later)They think Kendall wants me back. Pfft, as if.
We got to the place and sat down on a table in front of the stage. And guess who sat right in front of me? YES! Kendall! Joy! –sarcasm- Luckily there was this girl singing that REALLY sucked, but I don't think she noticed it. When she –finally- ended up the song some awkward claps were heard and she thanked everybody with a 10,000 watts smile on her face.
"Okay people, this was Tiffany Jones performing Teenage Dream by Katy Perry. Thank you Tiffany." Said the announcer guy. "Who's up the stage now?"
"You could go up, Jo." Said Camille, smirking.
"No, I could not."
"Oh, but you will." Said Cassie. "Jo! Jo! Jo! Jo! Jo!" She began to shout like the crazy bitch she is. I tried to shut her up, but after the third "Jo" the entire table was shouting my name. Even Kendall. It took the announcer's attention. Figure.
"So, Jo's up!" I slammed my face on the table.
"What song, Camille?" I asked her. I had absolutely no idea what song I'd perform.
"Hmm… Ooohh! The Story Of Us! I love when you sing it!" I got up and went onstage.
"Please, say your name and the song you'll perform." Said the guy, handing me a mike.
"Hmm… I'm Jo Taylor and I'll sing The Story Of Us, by Taylor Swift." Some seconds after I said it the intro to the song began playing and I moved my bodynervously waited for the time to sing. Yeah, a little stupid be nervous in this situation, right? No. Not when there are tons of people watching you and four of them is Big Time Rush. And one of the four BTBoys is youR ex… friend with benefits? Finally I began singing and focused on it, not my thoughts about Kendall.
I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us
How we met and the sparks flew instantly
And people would say they're the lucky ones
I used to know my place was the spot next to you
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat
Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on
Oh, a simple complication, miscommunications lead to fall out
So many things that I wish you knew
So many walls up I can't break through
FUCK!
I'm killing Camille. I'm sure that bitch knew the song fits my situation with Kendall perfectly. Shity shit.
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like its killing me?
I don't know what to say since the twist of fate when it all broke down
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now
Next chapter
OK, now I felt like running out of this place and never coming back. I looked at the blonde and saw him watching me mindfully. He had a serious expression on his face and I almost stopped singing when I laid my eyes on him.
How'd we end up this way
See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy
And you're doing your best to avoid me
I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here
But you held your pride like you should've held me
Oh, I'm scared to see the ending, why are we pretending this is nothing
I'd tell you I miss you, but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud
By this point I was dancing to the beat of the song. Maybe this would make me less tense and the lyrics less awkward for me. I heard people cheering. Oh well, at least I'm not doing bad. I guess.
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like its killing me?
I don't know what to say since the twist of fate when it all broke down
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now
This is looking like a contest of who can act like they care less
But I liked it better when you were on my side
The battles in your hands now
But I would lay my armor down if you said you'd rather love than fight
Ok, that part was kind of a lie. Because I was the one making things harder. Sure, he was avoiding me. But I don't think I'd go back with him if he asked me to just continue what we were doing. Even more now that they only had three more days left here. Then they'd be on tour with millions of girls and yeah.
So many things that you wish I knew
But the story of us might be ending soon
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like its killing me?
I don't know what to say since the twist of fate when it all broke down
The story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now
Now, now
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like its killing me?
I don't know what to say since the twist of fate cause we're goin' down
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now
The end
When the song ended everyone was clapping and cheering. I smiled kind of out of breath from dancing, my face flushed from all the attention.
"Wow! This was Jo Taylor performing The Story Of Us by Taylor Swift! Congrats, girl! You rocked it!" Said the announcer. I smiled again and gave the mike back to him, going back to the table.
"You did great!" Said Stephanie, hugging me.
"As always." Said Camille, rolling her eyes, but with a big smile on her face.
"You could be called Jo Taylor Swift!" Said Carlos, playfully. I face palmed and chuckled a little.
"There will be pay back." I told them after they complimented me a little more. I glanced at Kendall and saw him smiling softly at me. 'Your voice's amazing.' I heard his voice echo through my brain, remembering that day. I smiled back, feeling my face get hotter. I think he understood I took the message.
"I'd like to call Big Time Rush onstage to perform one of their songs for us!" Said the announcer that I soon found out was called David. The guys went up the stage and a lot of girls screamed.
"HiI'mCarlos."
"I'mJames."
"I'mKendall."
"I'mLogan."
"And we're Big Time Rush." Said the four of them together, getting more screams.
"We'll perform Till I Forget About You." Said Kendall. I wasn't sure if he glanced at me as he said it, but whatever.
Get a call on a random afternoon
I pick it up and I see that it's you
Like my heart,
You were breaking the news
You say that it's over, it's over, it's over
God! Why did he have to be so hot? It doesn't help me at all. If he looked like a –insert a really ugly thing here, because I can't think straight at the moment with all this yummyness that I was used to sleep with dancing right in front of me- it'd be A LOT easier.
Heading out 'cause I'm outta my mind
All my friends are gonna see me tonight
Staying here 'til the sun starts to rise
And I'm, I'm gonna, I'm gonna, I'm gonna
Dance hard, laugh more
Turn the music up now
Party like a rock star
Can I get a what now
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Till I forget about you
Jump up, fall down
Gonna play it loud now
Don't care,
My head it's spinning all around now
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Till I forget about you
Till I forget about you
There were some girls screaming so much I wanted to go up to them and slap their faces. Gosh, what was their problem? They were just boys with talent and that got famous, they didn't need to make about 60 people deaf because of them! And I was guessing Camille, Cassie and Stephanie were thinking pretty much the same as me. I'm sure that if they weren't do friendlywith the guys they'd be worse than that.
I bet you thought I'd be here on my own
Waiting for you to knock on my door
Since you left I don't wait by the phone
I'm moving, I'm moving, I'm moving
I found a place where I can lose myself
And I just leave your memory on a shelf
See I'm fine, no I don't need no one else
'Cause I'm going, I'm going, I'm going
I sang along to the rest of the song. I couldn't help, it was too catchy. And sometimes Kendall would eye me and when he saw me singing his face twitched a little, almost unnoticeably, but he made it straight again.
Dance hard, laugh more
Turn the music up now
Party like a rock star
Can I get a what now
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Till I forget about you
Jump up, fall down
Gonna play it loud now
Don't care,
My head it's spinning all around now
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Till I forget about you
Spending money like I don't mean a thing
I'm going crazy now don't even think
I'm losing my mind, it's all I can do
Till I forget about you
Dance hard, laugh more
Turn the music up now
Party like a rock star
Can I get a what now
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Till I forget about you
One of those girls tried to go up the stage, but a security man pulled her away from it. We laughed at it and focused back on the guys.
Jump up, fall down
Gonna play it loud now
Don't care,
My head spinning all around now
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Till I forget about you
Till I forget about you
The people exploded in cheers and camera flashes, some "I love you"s were heard and the guys smiled at the girls screaming. When the guys came back to their seats Stephanie and Cassie pecked Carlos and James' cheeks and Camille gave Logan a quick kiss. I looked shyly at Kendall and smiled "Yours isn't that bad either." I heard my own voice in my head. He smiled back at me and winked. HELL, NO! STOP IT, SCHMIDT! I looked away from him and bit on my lower lip.
"Come to the restroom with me." Camille whispered to me. I nodded to her and got up. "Hey guys, we'll be right back." She said to the others and we walked away.
"What?" I asked her when we reached the restroom.
"Why aren't you and Kendall making out?" She asked me.
"I told you already, we aren't in any kind of relationship anymore. Not even friends, I guess!" I frantically ran my fingers through my hair. Camille watched me for five seconds and slapped my hands away, saying that I was making her nervous.
"I can touch the sexual tension between the two of you! Just get back together already!"
"Are you nuts? We are NOT making up!"
"And why not?" She had her hands up in exasperation. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes shut, but remained silent. "You won't tell me, right?" I opened my eyes shook my head no. "Will I know why someday?" I smiled at her. That's why she was my best friend.
OK, DON'T KILL ME! The story was kinda boring with that same work-hotel-make-out session routine. So I decided to make things interesting ;)) Leave a review and make me smile! =DD xxBahCo