Please don't be mad at me for this chapter but let the flaming begin. I guess.
Thanks to scouse for being my beta even if I drive her nuts sometimes with the cliffhangers.
PG-13
Chapter 9
Ashley's POV
Spencer has disappeared. I have looked all over for her, after I finished my chores. I even looked in a couple of trees. The pond was even a loss. The last time I saw her she was in the kitchen with her parents. I hope she's okay. Wherever she is. Aiden, Madison, and Kyla had asked me if I wanted to hang out with them for a while. I declined. All I wanted to do was find my girl.
Huffing and cussing to myself after my last failed attempt to locate the allusive blonde, I sat on the front porch to relax until lunch.
"Hey Ashley can I talk to you?" I look over to the voice only to be met with the blonde I wasn't looking for.
"Sure Glen. What's up?" Looking at him up close, I see pain in his eyes. Something must be wrong. Spencer!
"Come with me." I get up and follow the boy.
We make our way down a small path through the woods for what seems like hours. That's probably because neither one of us is talking.
"Glen! Where are you taking me?" My anger getting the better of me.
"Just come on. We're almost there." I'm such an idiot for coming with him. I could be looking for Spencer but no, I'm follow wonder boy through the woods.
"How much further?"
"Where here." Where is here? "Look" he points over to an open field with Spencer sitting in it. He brought me to her. I could hug him but right now, I'm more worried as to why Spence is here.
"Why is she here?"
"She must be real upset to be here. I don't know what happened but she only comes here when she doesn't want to be found."
"Then how did you..."
"I'm her brother." With that, he turned and left me alone with Spencer.
Even from here, I can tell she's crying. It's not a loud shrilling cry just a quiet sob. What happened? Quietly, I make my way to her. Her body is visibly shaking. Her face is pressed into her legs with her arms wrapped around her. I'm going to kill whoever caused this. If it's Aiden, the calf is so coming out to play with him.
Standing behind her "Spence. Sweetheart. What happened?" Her eyes are glassy and red when she finally looks up a me. As soon as she looks at me, though she looks back down. Sighing I take a seat beside her. "Will you please talk to me. Spence I care about you but if you don't talk I can't help."
Next thing I know, Spencer has wrapped her arms around me with her head on my chest. Her tears are in full force soaking my shirt. I do the only thing I can think of, I wrap my arms around her and stroke her hair whispering words of encouragement to her.
We sat like that for at least thirty minutes. Somehow, during that time she managed to move herself so she was sitting on my lap. She did finally stop crying which was replaced with hiccups and sniffles. "Spence baby. Please tell me what is wrong?"
"My dad he... he... he hates me." What? How could he possible hate her?
"Spence. Why?"
"I… (sniffle) told him I was gay. (sniffle)" She breathes into my chest.
"What did he say to you?"
Spencer's POV
What am I going to do? He's was fuming when I said that small sentence to him. I thought he would be the one to understand and help me but no; he turned on me in an instant. Ashley wants to know what he said but I don't even want to think about it much less repeat it. I owe it to her though.
"He told me I wasn't allowed to be that way and that no daughter of his will be gay." I feel so safe in her arms. "He also said that if I wanted to be gay that I will never be his daughter again. He is my father Ashley" squeezing her tighter a few more tears escape "isn't he supposed to love me no matter what?" What am I going to do? I will not give up Ashley but in doing so I run the risk of losing my family. However, if he finds out about us I might lose Ash too.
"Look at me sweetie." She brushes some blonde locks away from my face. "He is wrong for what he said. He should love you no matter what." Small butterfly kisses are place on my forehead. "I'm here for you with whatever you decide to do. I care a lot about you." How did I ever get so lucky? I hate to do this to her but it's the only way I can keep her here with me and keep my family.
"I'm so sorry Ash, but I think we should take a break until my father cools down some." She looks really hurt. O god what have I done. "Ash..." I didn't even have a chance to finish. She bolted from her spot leaving me to cry again. I just gave up the best thing in my life.
Ashley's POV
I will not cry. I will not cry over her. She just threw me away as if I was nothing at the very first snag in our relationship. Damn it! I wish I wasn't in the middle of nowhere right now. A smoke and a bottle Jack would do the trick right now. All I wanna do is scream at the top of my lungs at how much this sucks. I could have spent the rest of my life with her. She was it for me. I never thought I would find someone that completes me the way she does or did. "Damn you Spencer." I whisper under my breath. She broke my heart. The first time I open myself up to love and it backfires. Wiping away more tears that I tried to keep from falling, I fall to the ground behind the stable. I cry. Ashley Davies does not cry, so why am I crying over a girl who I've only know for several weeks. Its really a simple answer she was the yin and I was the yang. We where made for each other.
"What's wrong with you?" I look up to be meet with green eyes.
"She broke my heart Mads." Crying into my hands, I don't even see her sit beside me.
"She's just scared is all. She'll come around. I've seen the way you to look at each other." Where we that transparent to everyone? I hope she right but I'm not sure I would take her back now anyway.
"I don't care anymore. She can go off, marry some guy, and squeeze out some pups for all I care. She doesn't want me or she wouldn't have thrown me away so easily." I spit back nastily at her. I know it's not her fault but she's the only one here I can take it out on. "Sorry" is muttered out and take off away from the only person who was willing to listen to me.