Dear Diary

Chapter 10

Feelings unleashed?

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The two burst out laughing at inuyashas brother kagome was holding her stomach tears running down her face from laughing so hard "well kagome you don't seem like you just got fucked" inuyasha continued laughing but soon realized kagome had stopped dead her face held no expression as she hid her eyes underneath her bangs.

"Kagome I'm sorry" inuyasha laced there hands together not taking his eyes off her "you don't have to be sorry it was my fault I didn't fight back I let him do that to me I ran away" kagome replied weakly she couldn't looking him in the eye it was to much for her she felt as all the pressure in the world was being laid on her shoulders.

"No kagome your wrong I shouldn't have left you here alone knowing that something could happen to you I wasn't here to protect you" inuyasha lifted kagome up and placed her in his lap wrapping his arms around her waist embracing her taking in her sent love, fear, and sadness mixed together inuyasha couldn't help but feel sorry for her.

"Inuyasha you don't need to protect me you could end up getting yourself hurt or even worse killed I'm nothing worth protecting anyways I'm just a human" inuyasha couldn't believe his ears here was this girl that was completely different than any other girl he knew saying terrible things about herself the girl he had come care for deeply.

"No kagome your not worthless I am not going to sit here and listen to this your more than worth protecting you might be human but I love you" his words raced through her mind as it soaked in she spun around to look at him starring into his eyes those eyes that she got lost in so many times belonged to the man/boy that just said he loved her.

"Do you really love me" kagome asked barley in a whisper afraid that she heard him wrong fearing that he might say no or something else anything as about a thousands rejections raced through her mind within the second waiting for his reply.

"Yes kagome I really do love you" he whispered in her ear chills went through her entire body by his hot breath against her cold lifeless skin tears formed in her eyes she cried in his chest while he held her close "kagome I'm sorry" he said rubbing her back to help calm her down soon the tears stopped flowing.

"You don't have to be sorry for anything inuyasha I love you to" kagome looked at her knees afraid still of what might happen inuyasha lifted her chin up till there eyes met "then there's no reason for all these tears" he lightly kissed her soft pail lips he bit her lower lip asking for entrance she gladly gave it to his there tongs battled for a while till they parted for air.

Inuyasha stared into her soft brown eyes soon the gap between them was closing their lips just barley touching "are we interrupting something" they both turned to the door way to see sango and mirkou standing there eyeing the two "sesshomaru called us" sango said walking over to kagome "how long have you two been standing there" inuyasha was pissed that his friends would just stand there and watch.

"Long enough now boys out I need to talk to kagome and no ease dropping" sango yelled while pushing them out the door and locking it "okay I lied we just walked up now I want details all of them" sango sat on the bed looking at kagome "okay well where to begin"

Flash Back

Someone rang the door bell wonder who it could be kagome thought to her self as she headed towards the door her eyes grew in shock there standing in the door way to inuyashas dad mansion was Hojo kagome had not seen him since he tried to rape her and left with naraku "What do you want" her voice was shaky as the demon before her walked in the house

"Me I want to remind you what your past was like princess" a smirk spread across his face his tail twitching kagome broke out into a run she ran through the mansion she looked behind her hojo was not following she suddenly crashed into a chest hojo grabbed her hands and pinned them above her head kagome went to scream but he crashed there mouths together and moved closer pinning her legs as well she struggled to get away but he was to strong soon he tore off her shirt and pajama bottoms leaving her in her under wear and bra.

Again kagome tried to scream but his tail wrapped around her mouth as hojo trailed kisses down her neck kagome couldn't break free she hated and was filled with disgust every time he touched her and she didn't deepen the kisses either he soon came to her breast still using one hand to pin kagomes hands to the wall he used his other one to un button her bra soon it was off and he was sucking on her nipple while playing with the other one using his free hand.

Kagome was sure she was going to puke in disgust of hojo and was surprised when she didn't hojo moved from one breast to the other kagome was praying inuyasha would show up and save her but the universe must of hated her because he didn't soon hojo was pulling her thong down and throwing it to he side kagome was in tears and wanted to kill herself for them he moved down her body and reached her womanhood he poked one finger inside of her then adding another.

He quickly undressed himself without letting kagome go then he grabbed her legs and wrapped them around his waist and smashed them against the wall so kagome couldn't move then he again pinned her hands with one hand and thrust into her each one becoming harder and faster "Stop fucking me" kagome yelled at the top of her lungs" but hojo just went faster as he released himself inside her he moaned as they parted.

END Flash Back

Sango hugged her friend " go on"

Back 2 a Flash Back (how she reacted)

"You fucked me" kagome yelled at the demon "don't tell me o didn't enjoy that" hojo said taking deep breaths "No I didn't enjoy it" kagome punched hojo in the face he quickly recovered and threw kagome against the wall and started kicking her in the stomach "you piece of shit no one ever talk to me like that? he kicked kagome one last time before turning to leave she quickly threw her clothes on while she could.

"Hojo just because you cant find love don't mean you have to screw other people" "well kagome you know what's coming and hell I don't got to remind you but your dad even said before I helped kill him you where only put on this planet for fucking nothing more and nothing less you where never anything you where no one worthless a mistake your dad didn't even mean to get your mom pregnant she was just his little sex bag but she believed him and brought you into this would so you can live in hell"

"No you're wrong he loved me and my mom my brother and sister to he died believing what was right for the world and us" kagome screamed tears flowing down her face but the sadness was masked with anger kagome reached her hands down hojos pants and grabbed his manhood with both hands he smirked "you want more don't you" and with a little miko power kagome snapped it into making him scream out in pain ass he fell to the floor screaming "you almost blew up my balls bitch ".

"Serves you right next time think before you fuck a miko" kagome grabbed a vase and threw it at his head hojo fell to the ground knocked out kagome leaded up against the wall and slid down hiding her face in her knees crying her eyes kagome was hurt not in the outside but on the inside thoughts drifted into her mind about her past and why naraku might be back but all she knew was hojo was wrong before her dad died he told her he loved her and that was all she needed to live on.

End Second Flash Back

"Kagome I am so sorry" sango again hugged her friend crying "its okay sango" they both wiped away their tears "So what happened between inuyasha and you" sango smiled her best smile "well I was saying stuff about how I let hojo do that to me and then inuyasha started saying how he wasn't there to protect me and I said inuyasha I am nothing worth protection and he got mad but didn't yell anyways he told me he love me then I told him I loved him we kissed and you and mirkou showed up"

Kagome explained sango started jumping up and down "I knew it" she was acting like a 5 year old little girl in a candy shop kagome unlocked the door inuyasha and mirkou entered the room and watched there overly hyper friend jump up and down soon mirkou joined in making kagome and inuyasha keep asking themselves why they where friends with those two in the first place "This calls for shopping" sango yelled and raced out of the room.