AN: hey again. Thx sooo much for the reviews and views last chapter. I really appreciated them! So I have some news...

Ill be going away for about a month and I may not be able to update in that but I promise when I get back I will have a whole heap of updates and stories coming, you'll just have to be patient. Thx

Dear Diary,

OMG! I just had the most scariest night of my life! I nearly died! Again. Eddie nearly died, Sydney and Adrian nearly died, and all because of my self obsessed ex-strigoi serial killer! It was so scary, I didn't know what happened, it all went so fast. One minute I was huddled behind the wall the next I was spraying water at the strigoi.

Well, before I get carried away, I think I should start from the beginning. I was at the modelling runway show and Sydney had just left off in a huff over a fight between her Adrian. I was upset at first because they were bickering over nothing but when Lee sent me some re-assuring words I felt good to go back and continue modelling on stage.

I haven't told anyone this, and hardly anyone speaks of this because I asked them not to. It was too embarrassing. But I was walking down the stage and when I got to the end, I noticed that lee and Adrian had gone. When my shift was over and I had changed into the outfit - which might I say was gorgeous - I went out to talk to Eddie.

I asked him where Adrian and lee had gone and he said that Lee had gone back to Clarence's and Adrian had caught the bus back there. I was pretty certain though that Adrian had gone to Keith's to talk to Sydney but I didn't want to jump to conclusions.

Anyway I had a 15 minute break between ball gown wear and casual wear and while I was chatting with Eddie I got a nauseous feeling spread over me through the bond. It was the same feeling that Rose described to me when strigoi were around. But, before I could tell Eddie anything I was whisked away to do my casual wear modelling. I was half way down the runway when immense shock and fear cursed through me, causing me to fall to my knees in pain. It was embarrassing because everyone saw and what was worse was that they all started laughing at me. I had just ruined Lia's chance to win.

Not that it mattered at that moment because all I could feel was fear, anxiety and nausea over Adrian and Sydney. I knew something had gone horribly wrong over at Keith's and I needed to get help, only I couldn't stand, I couldn't even talk. So I just allowed Eddie to hurl me away and take me to the car where he calmed me down - I may have been hyperventilating - and coaxed me into coming back into my own thoughts.

I only needed to say strigoi and Eddie was in the drivers seat and headed for Keith's. It was a 15 min drive there but it felt like forever, especially when my family was in danger. I explained to Eddie how Lee had arrived shortly after Sydney had and when Adrian showed up Sydney was slashed across the neck with a knife and was being held captive. Adrian was then handcuffed and after a waging battle of emotions sent through the bond, I was able to receive Adrian's message. 'Help us. We r going to die. We r at Keith's with Lee and two other strigoi. They r going to drain us. Hurry!' I relayed that message onto Eddie and he pushed down harder of the gas and we revved up and made our way to Keith's in record time.

Eddie burst in first already taking on the two strigoi by the time I scrambled into the house, after I was told to stay in the car. He took them on like a true God. A mini Dimitri as Adrian might say. I wanted to jump in, take action but I knew if I took one step closer to those beasts I was done for. So I settled for crawling over to Sydney and Adrian and help them out. I reached them just as Sydney was attempting to stand. She stumbled and me and Adrian tried to reach out to her, awkwardly since I wasn't very strong and Adrian's hand were bound. But Sydney stubbornly staggered to the kitchen and turned on the tap, water spraying everywhere. She yelled for me to come and that's when I knew. We didn't need a special bond to figure out what we wanted each other to do, we just knew.

I summoned all of my magic I had inside of me and created a levitation spell. It felt like I was raising things from the dead the way I levitated the water. Magic pulsing through me, radiating off of every part of my body I managed to weave my way through the fighting going on with Eddie and change the shape to form a long cylindrical club like object and swing it to bit Jacqueline squarely on the back. I knew she would lunge for me so before she had a chance I ducked to the ground like I had been taught by Eddie and scurried my way back to Sydney and Adrian, just being able to glance out of the corner of my eye, Eddie staking the monster.

I really shouldn't be speaking so harshly towards the Strigoi considering Dimitri and Sonya, close friends, used to be them. But I can't help it. It's like every time I see one I want to kill it, make it suffer the same way it made all of its victims suffer. Torture it, perhaps slice it with a stake so I gets a taste of what it really feels like to hurt. Tie it to a pole and have me drink from my feeders, letting the blood drip down my mouth and watch them stare at the warm, slightly sweet dessert that they cannot have. Have them...holy Jesus! Adrian! Far out! He must have used his magic, the darkness is consuming me every second. Oh my god! Give me a second...

Sorry. Well you are a diary so, anyway. I texted adrian telling him to drink some alcohol to numb the spirit. It drives me insane. I would have told him love conquers all but I would rather stay in my own head for today and experience my thoughts, not his fantasies. I love him and all, he's like by brother and as siblings we really need to fix up and make the bond stronger. I get really frustrated cause ill be have a test and ill get pulled into his head cause he had inspiration for a painting or he decided what clothes he wants to wear today or hairstyle or Sydney. He really passionate about those things. Especially his hair. I spent 2 hours having him talk to me through the bond asking me how his hair was, and when I didn't respond he pulled me into his head! Like he has control over the darn thing and I don't. It's like the complete opposite of what Lissa and Rose had. Rose could come in and out whenever she pleased.

Oh well, I'm not Rose. I'm definitely not Lissa either. She treats me like I'm not even important. Like I'm there just to keep her on the throne. It sucks. I'm her damn sister! Real life sister. Not some wanna be family who acts all chummy just to keep off the attackers radar. Not quite. We are a family just not by blood. But she's by blood. I want to be all sisterly with her. I used to like her. She was like my idol when I first met her. That and also I may have liked Christian back then. I sure hope no one reads this or ill be reliving this for my 21st.

Anyway, why can't she see that this is who I am and that I want to be her friend, scratch that, sister. Lets just hopes becomes around. I want a sister like her.

Jill

AN: I thx for reading and I hope you enjoyed it! Feel free to leave suggestions I will do them if you ask for ones. -bloodlines addict