GPOV

I had a chill attack at the presence of Ulquiorra as he reached in front of me to pet my beloved pet Pantera.

His arm slightly grazed my chest as he reached with pale fingers.

" Pantera seize." I panicked when I realized what I have done.

Pantera had Ulquiorra's arm tackling it on to the firm bed taking Ulquiorra with it.

The next thing I saw was Ulquiorra writhing in pain from Pantera's sharp teeth clenching at his fragile skin.

"Stop!"

The big cat immediately stopped at my command and came forth to me licking at my face.

Ulquiorra grabbed his arm and stared at me in disbelief backing up into the bed's headboards.

"What was that for?!" his voice trembled.

I didn't know how to reply, it was the touch of him that made me panic within , I didn't like what I was feeling nor the heat on my face that he left me with when he just barely touched me.

"I'm sorry.." I trailed off bewildered and struck by shock. I lifted my head to look at him and grab at his injured arm and inspected it.

There was nothing but little dents where Pantera had only nibbled. I sigh in relief.

" You're lucky, I think she likes ya or yer arm would be off."

Pantera came over to us and licked at Ulquiorra's arm and face.

She even purred a little and rested her big head on his folded legs.

" I panicked , I'm sorry and Pantera couldn't help it she's very."

I apologized not hoping to be forgiven. In fact Ulquiorra had the right to be mad and not forgive me I almost had him killed!

" She didn't bite down hard I was just surprised that she attacked me." he said staring down at his arm , the dents were now gone but red marks resided in its place.

"why did you panic?" he asked.

" cuz of you I dunno…." my face turned red again.

"Me?"

I look away and cover my mouth with my hand too embarrassed to say anything.

The bed sinks in and Pantera lifts her head from the comfort of Ulquiorra's legs and rolls over on her side while Ulquiorra leaned over me.

"Why are you hiding your face from me?" he tries to take a glimpse at me , looming over me.

" Do ya mind?" my eyes still diverting his , I was redder than ever.

What the hell was wrong with me?!

I glance at him a second staring at his pale lips, it was the palest of pink so inviting…..

Inviting?!

I jump off the bed and back away as images suddenly flooded my mind.

I kissed him. It dawned on me.

I kissed him!

"Shit…"

I kissed a male! A man! A guy!…

The room started to sway or maybe I was the one swaying.

Who cares! I kissed a man…..

More images and feelings rushed.

I kissed him and I liked it. I liked it!

Something must be wrong with me I don't like guys I -I like girls.

This isn't right.

"Grimmjow are you alright?"

"I kissed you….."

" You did." he nodded.

"No, no-no it was a mistake I don't like guys!" I said outraged shaking my head in denial.

It must have been the junk they gave me at the hospital that made me kiss him, I tried to rationalize.

Please let that be it! I wasn't in the right state of mind.

"You told me you were bi." His face held no emotion.

"NO! I lied so you'd spill about being gay!" I was losing it.

"But….. You- you kissed me." his pale feature almost lost its composure, his lips twitched downwards then stopped.

"I DID AND I LIKED IT! OK!?" I raised my voice.

I shocked both of us, we both blinked a lot and stared at each other for a long time.

" I liked it ok." I say again, this time softer and I take a few steps towards the bed.

"I'm so confused." The bed creaked as Ulquiorra got up. Without looking at me he headed towards the door, but I grabbed his arm and pulled him back into an embrace.

"Don't runaway.."

He gasped when my hot breath teased his ear as I spoke, "I'm so confused please don't leave me alone." I hugged tighter.

He turned in my arms and looked up at me with soft eyes.

" You are now truly gay or bi."

I wanted to smack him right then for even saying that to me, but I glared at him instead.

He was not the person to go to for comfort.

"But-"

"But what?" he asked, "You said you liked it when we kissed ,yet deny being what you are?"

But I don't want to be gay, bi, or whatever.'

"When did you realize you were gay?" my voice was full of dread and dispassion as I asked this, but I needed some closure.

" In an unpleasant way Grimmjow, which I do not wish to recall." he stared at me and I sigh, "But if I must…."

I release my hands from him and broke our embrace, he walked over to the bed and I followed behind like a lost puppy.

It was story time and I wasn't sure I was ready to hear how he came out of the closet.

"Sit." he gestured to the bed.

"I'll stand."

"Do as you wish." he climbed the bed and sat cross egged staring straight at me.

There was a long pause that went on forever and one day.

"Well?!" my patients were leaving me.

"Well what?" he asked.

"Oi, go on with your freakin' story!"

"Of course," he paused again and drew in some air.

" I was raped."

Finished this chapter! Yay , it's a bit short though but it's fine.

I just faced my biggest fear and watched my most feared movie and conquered it! So I was left with nothing to do but write in my victory! Yay!

*I was a little scare to sleep, and also wired up!*

i think i'll just stick to writing in grimmjow's POV