A/N: Happy valentines day! For this vday, I have a very romantic chapter for you!
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My Life's Changer
Chapter 9: True Feelings part 3- Taking Chances
Kira's POV
"Um . . . what?" He still loves me? Well crap. Now I'll have to break his heart by telling him to back off. And damn sure confuse him because of what happened this morning. Shouldn't I want to just embrace him happily because we feel the same way? No. I know something's about to happen. Something big. Zuko usually gets mushy and emotional when he's planning a romantic surprise.
"Kira, I want to start over. I want to be with you." As he says this, I see him take a small box out of his robe sleeve. Oh spirits, here it comes. . . . Hehands the box to me and I immediately open it, wondering what all this means. Inside I find a diamond ring. I take it out of the box to inspect the familiar jewelry. Ha! Just as I suspected. The name 'Liliana' is carved into the golden ring. This is my old promise ring! Wait. This isn't right.
"Zuko! Where'd you get this? I threw it in the ocean!" This happened over a freaking year ago! I tried my hardest not to yell and trigger Zuko's anger issues . . . but as usual, I fail and Zuko's face turns red.
"So you don't care. Why did I even get it back in the first place? You don't even want it."
"I don't KNOW if I want it! In case you don't remember, it's a promise ring! You gave that to me as a reminder that you would get me after the war! Fire Lord or not, you promised! And what did you do? Break my heart and forget about me! You're an unbelievable excuse for a brother!" I scream. "Ihate you!" I run from the room, nearly tripping over Katara and Toph on the way out. Those 'matchmakers' had their ears pressed up on the door. I run into my room, shut the door, jump onto my bed, and cry into my pillow.
My aching head turns onto another one of my tear soaked pillows. I hear a knock on my door and my immediate response is. "Go away . . ." My congested voice is ignored and the door slowly creaks open.
"Kira?" Sokka? "Zuko wants you to join us for dinner." Psh. Yeah right. "He says his uncle is gonna be there." Uncle Iroh? Even if he is going to be there, I don't want to be seen crying my eyes out. I stumble out of bed and end up on the floor. "Come on, I'll help you." Aw, thanks Sokka . . . He's so sweet . . . Wow. Sokka is so brotherly . . . Well I guess he had practice with Katara, as opposed to Zuko, who hated his little sister . . . Sokka takes my hand and pulls me up without a sweat. His hand feels so warm, so reassuring in mine and, in the brief contact, I can only wish he'd been my big brother instead of Zuko. We walk towards the dining room where we see Team Avatar and Uncle Iroh.
"Ah, Liliana! Good to see you!" I hear Iroh call.
I look around me to see if he was talking to someone else. And then I remember . . .
Flashback
"Avatar Roku?" I call to the figure standing a few feet away from me. I recognize him from the books at the Fire Nation Palace library.
"Yes, Liliana. I am here to prepare you for the future." I shake my head confusedly."In the future, you will have several amnesia encounters. The only thing you will remember when it overcomes you are your past lives. If you remember anything else before you meet the avatar and his friends, it will be much, much harder to fulfill your destiny. If you have the same name as you do now, you will remember everything. But after you meet the avatar, it won't matter if you have your old name or not. Hmm . . . I think this name will suit you. It will symbolize the kind, wise girl that you have become, but also the darkness inside you that is yet to be unleashed . . . Kira shall be your name. After both my helper and your mother, Akira. Now go Kira. And don't remember . . ."
End flashback
I quickly shake off the flashback replaying in my mind. I see Zuko nudge his uncle with his elbow and whisper something in his ear as I sit down next to Sokka. Thankfully, it was the farthest seat from where Zuko was.
Dinner was silent. No one talked to me and I didn't want to talk to them. Katara and Toph kept exchanging glances, Sokka was eating his food like an animal, Zuko and Iroh kept whispering, and I just wanted to get out of there as fast as I could.
Later, I hear Zuko and Iroh arguing as I walk by his bedroom door. Curious at this uncharacteristic side of Iroh, I pause to listen. "Zuko, how could you forget your promise to Kira? She went through a year of waiting for you. Did you know that she went to your birthday party at the palace dour months ago? She ran out crying because you danced with her all night without noticing who she was!" I close my eyes, blocking the rising anger. First off, I distinctly remember forbidding Uncle Iroh from telling him about that night. Second, how does he even know how I feel? I haven't talked to him in so long . . . I press my ear to the door.
"I know, Uncle. I'm going to apologize tonight. I just have to go to my meeting first. Now if you'll excuse me . . ." I sprint to my room and shut the door before Zuko can see me, sit on my bed for about five minutes, then open my door. I see Iroh across the hallway and sigh in relief, glad I don't have to search the palace for him.
"Hello Kira! What can I do for you?" he says cheerfully. What a weird tone for someone who was just scolding . . .
"Well . . . I need some advice." He nods slowly. I sigh before continuing. "You probably heard about how Zuko broke his promise . . . and earlier this afternoon he tried asking me if I could be his girlfriend again. I don't know whether to refuse and break his heart, or accept and spend the rest of my life wondering if he would break my heart again . . ." I take a deep breath as Iroh strokes his beard in thought.
"Well Kira, if I know my nephew, he will not make a big mistake like that again. He will just keep trying to make it up to you because he feels so bad. But other than that, I don't know what to say. Love is a difficult subject. Just listen to your heart and I know you will make the right choice." I bow respectfully and hug Iroh quickly.
"Thanks Uncle!" I walk back into my room and lie on my bed. Ok heart. I'm listening . . .
"Hey Kira. I have to tell you something," Zuko says through the door. I open the door and let him in.
"Me first. I accept your offer. I want to be with you." Zuko's face suddenly expresses happiness. "On one condition. You never break your promises ever again," I finish with an evil look. He chuckles lightly and I quickly put my hands on his face. He wraps his arms around my waist, and I embrace him.
-Don't know much about your life
don't know much about your world-
"How could you trust me so easily? You don't know me that much anymore. You have no idea how much I've changed since we split up. And wehaven't spoken in years . . ." I smile at his rambling. True . . .
-don't wanna be alone tonight on this planet they call Earth-
"Well you know I still love you, and based on everything that's happened . . . Well, I just can't survive on my own. Especially not with Ozai and Azula still out there." I don't know why, but a tear falls down my face. Curse my over-emotional state!
-You don't know about my past and
I don't have a future figured out-
"Hey, don't cry," he says, wiping my tears with the back of his hand. "No matter what happens, I'm never going to leave you. We are going to go through what the future holds, together. Even if it's a matter of life or death."
Aww . . . Zuko— so sweet.
-maybe this is going too fast.
Maybe it's not meant to last
But what do you say to taking chances?-
See? This is why I decided to risk having my heart destroyed. Because Zuko's so caring and nice and kind and . . . Zuko...
-What do you say to jumping off the edge? Never knowing if there's solid ground below, or a hand to hold, or hell to pay-
And knowing him, he'll be by my side, anytime possible. But I guess he still has Fire Lord duties . . . and those annoying advisors that keep telling him to produce an heir already . . . and the several meetings that I got in the way of . . . and the blah-blah-blah-I-could-care-less crap. But hey, that's what I get for taking chances and being the girlfriend of the Fire Lord . . . But there are perks . . . Yeah, that ought to make up for ruining my life.
-I had my heart beaten down but
I always come back for more yeah-
Even though he broke my heart, I'm going to give him a second chance. I finally forgive him, even though I thought I never would.
-there's nothing like your love to pull me up, when I'm lying down on the floor yeah...So talk to me, talk to me, like lovers do-
"So when do I get to hear about your adventures without me?" I ask hopefully. I wonder how he's changed . . .
"Sorry, Kira. I think we should save that talk for our first date," he says smirking. Date, huh? Oh wait! I have to wait now?
"Really Zuko? I see you finally after two years, and you make me wait? Don't you know me enough? You, of all people, should know not to make me wait! Why don't we have a nice brother-sister talk?" I try negotiating. Zuko shakes his head and I pull away, pouting, crossing my arms over my chest. Zuko rolls his eyes, chuckling.
"Well . . . I guess I could tell you . . ." I raise my eyebrows, waiting for the catch. "After your training tomorrow." Aw, come on!
-So walk with me walk with me, like lovers do-
"Oh fine." I take Zuko's hand and he guides me towards my bed. "Good night Zuko."
"Good night." Before I climb into bed, Zuko wraps his arms around my waist. I stare into his golden eyes and think, What are you waiting for? Just kiss me already! He rolls his eyes, which tells me he got the message. He leans in slowly . . . Damn . . . he's too tall! This is going to take forever. Istand on the tips of my toes, keeping my hands on Zuko's chest for balance. Our lips finally meet. After about a minute, pain from my toes alerts me it's time to stop. I stand normally, breaking the kiss for a slight second, but then Zuko's lips find mine again.
"Zuko . . . someone's coming . . ." I say, pausing for breath. We stop kissing and we see Toph pretending to mind her own business as she walks passed the open door. No doubt she was spying on us. I yawn tiredly and Zuko lets go of me. He helps my injured body into bed, carefully avoiding contact with any of my bandages. I didn't bother changing; the sleeping wear that Zuko gave me awhile ago would trigger pain in my center. I pull mysheets up to my chest and Zuko leans down to kiss my forehead.
Now I can be with Zuko without feeling hate, or anger, or sadness about what happened in our past. I can live without feeling a hole in my heart. And Ican love him, knowing that he loves me back. Taking chances; the best choice I've made in a long time . . .
SO THERE!
Kira's not single for vday...but...I..am.. -_-
The song lyrics, in italics and -these things-, are from the song Taking Chances by Celine Dion. Also from glee.
Thank you once again, WritingSchizo101, for betaing this chapter!
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