Disclaimer: I do not own fairy tail. Wish I could come up with something that cool but I cannot.

Sorry about the shit last chapter but I haven't even been on my laptop in the last 9 months let alone write anything. Hopefully this one is better. Literally took me all day to write this one as I want to make up to you guys for my absence so I'm posting it today (day after the last chapter was put up) to try and do that. Do you think that this one was a better chapter?

Warning: self-harm, suicide attempts and depression. If you do not like, do not read.

Chapter 10hopefully a better chapter. X

When he left the room Wendy closed the door behind him. Truth was he was in agony. The only reason that he had refused to take the pain killers was because he found that painkillers made him sleepy whiles pain kept him alert, and he wanted to be alert around Levy just in case she needed him. He walked to the rail that overlook the bottom floor of the guild. He watch people move around aimlessly. Some went up to Mira to get food and drinks, which Mira would tearfully provide them with, and then they would retreat back to their tables to do nothing but stare at it. Others would walk up to the job board as if to look for a job but weren't actually looking at them and eventually they too would go back to sitting down. Some went as if to talk to the person sat next to them but looked away before they said anything. A few like Jet, Droy, Lucy, Pantherlily, Juvia and another couple looked as if they had been sleeping here. There was the occasional whisper or mummer around the guild but other than that it was quiet and very disturbing considering how loud the guild normally is.

If only Levy could see how much the guild cares for her. Especially to affect them this much. 'Cos they certainly aren't acting this way for me… Geez their acting like there are in grieving. Well she aint dead and I won't let her die… I can't… well I can't avoid the firing line forever and Wendy probably won't let me near Levy unless I've eaten something so I might as well get it over and done with.

He pushed off the railings and headed for the stairs. He's body was stiff and he ached all over. His chest hurt and he was finding it difficult to move and breathe. As he approached the stairs he felt like he was moving too slowly so he speed up so nobody would be able to tell how injured he actually was. As he moved towards an empty table, he felt the wholes guilds eyes bore into the back of his head and a hush settled over the place as he sat down. He was out of breath and his chest felt tight, as everyone continued to look at him he started to get annoyed.

"What the hell are all of you looking at!" he said gruffly as he tried to catch his breath without anyone noticing.

Quickly they all turned away but the whispering and muttering were noticeably louder than before. Gajeel sighed as he rested his head on the table. He didn't even look up when someone place a bowl in front of him.

"Wendy said that you would be needing something to eat but not something solid as you haven't eaten all week so I made some chicken soup for you. Is that okay?" someone managed through tears. It was Mira.

Gajeel tried to grunt his appreciation as he didn't have the breath to say it. Mira seemed to understand his thanks as she place her hand on his slumped shoulders before heading back over to the bar.

Why does everyone seem to think that chicken soup seems to solve everything when you're sick or injured? 'Have some chicken soup, it will make you feel better' Puft such bullshit.

He lifted his head up off the table and picked up the spoon.

Might as well get this over with.

If he was honest he didn't really feel like eating nor did he feel he had the energy for it. As he slowly ate, he started to day dream about nothing in particular. From across the room Jet and Droy got up and made their way over to the table. They sat down directly in front of Gajeel. He didn't seem to notice until Jet cleared his throat which broke him out of his day dream. He looked at them and rolled his eyes.

"And what do you two idiots want?" he asked as he went back to eating and not looking at them.

"We uhhh we…" Droy started uncomfortably.

Gajeel raised an eyebrow but continued to eat and stared at the table.

"We want to know how Levy is. Wendy, Lucy and Porlyusica won't tell us anything." Jet finished.

Gajeel ground his teeth together and swallowed. Too late he realise that he'd eaten the end of the spoon, again.

Well so much for not eating anything solid…

The guild went deathly quiet. Gajeel glared at the remaining shadow gear team and then smile sarcastically.

"Well then. Why don't you go ask Levy yourselves? Oh wait. That's right. You can't. Why's that? Because THEY don't even know IF SHE WILL EVEN WAKE UP AGAIN!"

The entire guiled breathed in and swallowed. Gajeel had stood up by the end of his small rant. He was fuming.

How DARE they ask how she is!

"She would have been fine if you hadn't pushed her that far! Worse still, you know that! And yet you still have the nerve to ask me HOW SHE IS!"

By this point Jet and Droy had shrunk back in their seats cowering away from him. Suddenly Gajeel feel dizzy, his head started pounding and a ringing started up in his ears, he slumped back down in his seat with his head on the table. The guild relaxed as they realised that a fight wasn't going to break out but were confused as to Gajeels sudden defeat. Gajeel felt his chest constrict, his breathing became uneven and in short breaths, he started to panic.

I can't breathe! Why can't I breathe!

He stood up and stumbled backwards into someone.

"Oi, punk, watch-!"

Their sentence was cut short as Gajeel collapsed to the ground. One arm out stretched stopped him falling completely on the floor, whilst the other one clutched at his chest. His head was bowed to the floor and his hair had fallen across his face hiding it from onlookers. He snarled and his eyes scrunched shut as the pounding in his head got worse and started to hurt painfully. His mouth was open as he tried desperately to breathe.

"Shit! Oi punk, you okay?"

Someone grabbed him by the arm and hulled him to his feet. Unable to stand, he leaned heavily backward onto the person behind him.

"Hey! What do I look like to you? A bloody pillow? HEY?"

Someone clicked their fingers and waved their hand in front of his face. Weakly he turned his face towards them. It was Laxus and he didn't look too impressed but as soon as Gajeel tried to get his unfocused eyes to look at him properly, he went serious.

"Someone get Porlyusica. NOW! Don't you dare go to sleep on me punk, stay awake! You hear me?"

Gajeel shook his head as he tried to stay focused and not fall asleep. Laxus slapped his face.

"Hey! Punk!"

The whispering in the guild grew to loud chatter as they watched Laxus holding Gajeel up. Many expressed concern, others shock. Jet and Droy stood there dumb folded. Blood had started to run down his face from his nosy.

"Juvia has brought Porlyusica like Laxus asked of Juvia."

"You, boy. Bring him up to the infirmary." Porlyusica turned and walked toward the stairs.

"What am I? His babysitter?"

"Do you suggest I carry him?" she turn round to glare at him.

"Fine." He supported Gajeel as he followed Porlyusica. The muttering grew once again.

"Will he be okay?"

"He was fine a minutes ago."

"What happened?"

"Did you see the blood?"

Laxus put Gajeel on the bed like he was told to by Wendy but as he went to leave Porlyusica asked him to stay in case they needed his help, which he reluctantly agree to. Wendy then used her magic to check over Gajeel. She ran a hand through her hair when she was done.

"It's okay. He's going to be fine. He must have gotten really angry though. He's blood pressure is through the roof. Which would have caused the nose bleed and the headache also the ringing in his ears. His dizziness would be down to high blood pressure and exhaustion, which would also be the reason why he collapsed. His damages lungs would also have played a large factor in this, hence why he felt he couldn't breathe, but he should be okay."

"Juvia is glad that Gajeel is going to be okay."

"How come she's here?" Porlyusica asked annoyed.

"Juvia insisted on coming as Gajeel has been Juvia's longest friend." Juvia said.

"Good. He may need a friend that he's close to if she doesn't pull through…" Porlyusica said.

Just as if Levy had heard her, she started to convulse. Gajeel scrambled to get to his feet. He tried to get to Levy but Laxus and Juvia held him back.

"What's going on? WHAT'S HAPPENING?" Gajeel shouted.

The bleeping of the machines speed up then changed to a single constant hum. As suddenly as the fit had started, it stopped but so did Levy's heart…

"What? No… NO! SHE CAN'T BE-"

"I'm s-sorry G-Gajeel… Levy's g-gone…" Wendy said through a sea of tears.

Okay. So if you didn't hate me before you're going to hate me now. Sorry guys. HOWEVER THERE IS ANOTHER CHAPTER TO COME SO IT'S NOT OVER YET. Tell me what you think.

Also thank you to:

Levy (guest)

Who was the first one to review chapter 9. Your feedback was very positive and I loved your enthusiasm. Don't hate me just yet as I may have a card or two up my sleeve. Don't worry, I haven't given up on the story just yet ;) although I am surprised you didn't give up on me as it took so long for me to write a new chapter.

As I said, this is NOT the last chapter and this story is still on going.

How's Gajeel going to cope with the loss of Levy?

Can he except that Levy is really gone?

Is she really gone?

FIND OUT IN THE NEXT CHAPTER WHICH WILL HOPEFULLY BE UP SOON.

GaLe4ever XXX