Hey people! Sorry that I left you with that cliffhanger at the end of the last chapter, but, you know, I wanted to update but I didn't have much time and I love being evil like that ;) Sorry! Anywho, I'm feeling evil so this chapter definitely may be sad, so sorry about that :) Thanks to VAlover21 who read my story on Wattpad (the link's on my profile if you want to read it) and commented! You're awesome! Also, thanks for always reviewing every chapter of this story! I think you're the only one! (If anyone thinks I should have mentioned them, then PM me.) I'm warning you in advance, some readers who cry when they read a sad story may need tissues (that would be me) for this chapter! Thanks to everyone for reading and reviewing and please review this chapter and PM me with any ideas you have! Now, on with the story...
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She falters for a moment and I get in another hit, but then she recovers and before I even know what's happening, she kicks me in the stomach and I fall to my knees, clutching my stomach.
I let out a small gasp and work hard to catch my breath. Out of the corner of my eye I see Dimitri stop fighting and rush over to me. He scoops me up in his arms and without a word starts running. I feel something cool running down my leg. Dimitri gasps and calls out to me, "Roza, Roza, stay with me. You're going to be okay. I promise." I can feel him picking up his pace and before I know it we burst through the infirmary doors. "Help! Help! Somebody, help!" He shouts and I hear someone rushing to my side.
"Oh my! Rose, can you hear me?" Dr Olendzki asks me.
I moan and try to nod my head.
"Can you do something?!" Dimitri asks frantically. "She needs help! Now!"
"Bring her in here," Dr Olendzki replies calmly. Dimitri lays me down on an exam table and I open my eyes slightly, squinting up at him.
"Oh Roza, please be okay," he whispers and something wet hits my cheek, and I realise it's a tear.
"D- don't cry," I tell him weakly, then a searing pain hits my stomach and I cry out. "Ow!"
I hear shouting and something sharp pricks my arm. The last thing I remember before blacking out is Dimitri whispering in my ear, "I love you, my Roza."
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I wake up to a bright light shining in my eyes. I blink and try to shield my eyes with my hand, but fail miserably. There's something in my hand that's not letting me move it.
"Wha- What...?" I trail off, unable to finish my sentence.
"Roza?" I hear Dimitri move to my side and he holds my hand in his.
"Dimitri," I manage.
He lets out a relieved sigh. "You're okay. You have no idea how worried I was. I almost lost you." His voice cracks on the last word.
Then all of the events of the past twenty-four hours come rushing back to me. "The babies! Are they okay?" I ask frantically.
He doesn't say anything but walks out of the room. I hear whispering in the hallway and then he comes back in, Dr Olendzki following. "Hello, Rose. How are you feeling?"
"Um, okay, I guess." I move a little bit and feel a sharp pain in my abdomen. "My stomach hurts. A lot."
She gives me a reassuring smile that doesn't quite reach her eyes. "Yes. It will for a few more weeks, until you're completely healed."
"Wait, the twins. Are they okay? Please tell me they're okay," I whisper. I reach out to Dimitri and he holds my hand again. "Dimitri?"
He looks desperately at Dr Olendzki.
"Rose, I'm sorry, you miscarried," she tells me, and Dimitri clutches my hand tighter.
A tear slides down my cheek and I whisper, "But- How?"
"The babies were still very young when you were kicked in the stomach. The force of the blow- well, they weren't strong enough to survive it."
A sob escapes me and Dimitri lies down on the bed next to me, pulling me into his arms. "Shhh, Roza, it's okay."
"They- they never even had a chance to live," I whisper in between sobs.
"I know, Roza, I know," he says quietly, smoothing his hands over my hair.
"I'm so sorry," I say.
"Roza, why are you sorry?"
"B- because it's all my fault. I was so stupid to endanger them like that, and I know how much you wanted a family, and now-" I break off, unable to say any more.
"Roza, listen to me. It is not your fault. And I don't care about us having a family together as long as I have you. I love you, and I don't know how else to say it, nothing can change that. Our babies, they died too young, but later on, if you want to, we can try again," he says.
"But- but-What if there's something wrong with me and I miscarry again? I can't let that happen."
"We don't have to try again, only if you want to," he whispers into my hair, and another sob escapes me.
He doesn't say anything, but murmurs soothing sentences in Russian to me until I eventually fall into a restless sleep, his arms wrapped tightly around me.
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When I wake up, I find silent tears falling down my cheeks, and I realise that I was crying in my sleep.
"Roza, are you okay?" Dimitri asks from beside me, a worried expression on his face.
"Y- yeah," I stutter, snivelling to stop my tears.
"Oh, Roza," he whispers, pulling me into his arms.
We sit like that for a really long time, what feels like hours, until we're interrupted by someone clearing their throat. I look up and see Krova standing in the doorway, Alberta not far behind her.
"Miss Hathaway, Guardian Belikov," she addresses us, and as much as I know that I should probably let go of Dimitri, and he should probably let go of me, neither of us move. "I'm sorry to hear about your loss."
I stare at her, stunned at her words. She's sorry? But how does she know in the first place?
"Thanks you," Dimitri says quietly. "If you don't mind me asking, how did you find out?"
"Dr Olendzki informed me last night. She told me all of it, too," she says.
"Shit," I mutter under my breath.
"Listen, we were planning on telling you. Just a little bit later, when Rose was further along, but now..." he trails off.
"That's okay, I understand."
She understands? What? Am I hearing things?
"You understand?" I question, joining the conversation.
"Yes. And I have also decided that although your relationship is not ideal, I give you my permission to keep seeing each other," she tells us, and I stare at her, shocked.
"Thank you, Headmistress," Dimitri says, ever formal. "We'll make sure to stay under the radar until graduation."
"Oh, no, don't worry about that. I'm giving you my permission, which means you can be public about it, you don't have to wait until graduation. You two obviously love each other, and after what you've been through, who am I to keep you apart?"
This whole conversation is totally making me see kirova in a whole new light. "Thank you," I tell her, and she gives me a small smile.
"Yes, thank you. We really appreciate it," Dimitri says.
"Well, that's my job done, then, so I better get off, this war is keeping me very busy," she says, walking out of the room, leaving Alberta in her place.
"I'm so sorry," she says quietly, looking at the ground. I've never seen Alberta like this before.
Dimitri doesn't say anything, he looks at me, knowing that it's my call on what we do here.
"It wasn't your fault," I say quietly. "You didn't know, and accidents happen."
She looks up at me, a grateful look in her eyes. "Thank you. And I'm very sorry for your loss. If there's anything I can do for you, anything at all, you know where to find me," she says, turning and exiting the room.
Dimitri stares at me, a shocked expression on his face.
"What?"
"I wasn't expecting you to say that," he tells me.
"You think I should have gotten angry at her?" I ask, confused.
"No, no, I would have said the same thing, I just didn't think you would say that."
I shrug. "I surprise myself sometimes, too."
He laughs, kissing me on the forehead. "I love you, Roza."
"I love you too," I whisper, pressing my lips to his.
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Sorry that I did something so awful to Rose and Dimitri, sorry I might not update for a while now, sorry this chapter is so short. There must be something wrong with me, maybe I have short-chapter syndrome or some other weird disease that makes me write short as chapters. I doubt I'll find a cure for a while, because in order to write long chapters I need lots of ideas and time, so if anyone wants to help me with that, be my guest (not sure you can help me with time, but you can try). Thanks a billion for reading and please review, I'll try my hardest to update sometime in the next week or two, but I can't promise anything. Happy reading, Fanfictioners :)