Fire that lit the room made a cracking sound. The sound of coal burning. Ciel hadn't heard that in a while. It had been a year since the butler's passing, and Ciel was sprawled on the couch in front of the fire. He gazed into the fireplace and remembered the butler dearly. All those thoughts entered his mind and he continued gazing into the fire.

Ever since that day...the day we signed a contract...all we've been was a Master and his butler. I never thought of him more than I should. I ordered him around. I even called him a bastard when he teased me. People asked me from the past if I felt something for him. Anything at all. And my reply was simple: No. Never. They were bloody bastards for even considering that. But those words were lies. Lies that I've kept inside my mind ever since.

It was all the dare… That one dare made me kiss my butler. The feelings I've felt was something I never imagined that be for him. I never felt that way towards Elizabeth either… How shocking it was to kiss my butler and…enjoy it. Those days were when I realized how I truly felt about him. But…why…?

He was there for me. That butler I cared for. He was there for me when my nightmares became reality… Oh how I wish I never had those nightmares. I wish I could have done something. Anything. But it's hard to control your dreams… And it's hard to control what's real, and what's not. But Sebastian…he could do anything. Except learn not to love me back…

It didn't take long for me to find out what I really wanted. And what I wanted was stuck inside my mind. I didn't know how to tell him. But I soon figured out how to let him know what I wanted. I had been honest with myself, and with him. I told him straight out. If only I were able to do that…always. One mistake could take away something precious. I learned that the hard way.

I've never felt this way about someone before. It's hard to believe I actually had feelings for him at first. But now…I feel empty. I never thought about anything. Just Sebastian. Why did I feel this way to my butler? Who knew. It was wrong to love a man. It was wrong to love someone who was going to take my soul. To think I just wanted him by my side to help me get revenge.

I always cared. About almost everything. I care about my status, about my work and especially about everyone's impression of me. But there was a few things I didn't care about: my butler's feelings. I should have but I didn't. Why should I have cared? The answer to that question is a secret.

Is it true that the only way to prove your love for someone is by making a sacrifice that could kill you? It looks that way, sometimes… If you think about it. But I never imagined myself dying for the one I loved. Elizabeth, of course I would, but why not Sebastian? I did love him…but not enough to sacrifice my own life, right? I mean…I have no reason, until now.

Sebastian. My butler, whom I never thought would leave me, had disappeared from my eyes. I never wanted to see a day when that happened. Was it because I would die without him? Or was it because I would be in pain without him? My love for him had grown so strong. I regretted every single thing I said to him. I never meant a word I said to him. My heart spoke differently, though my stupid mind didn't want to admit it. A Demon could develop feelings over time, yet I never realized it.

I never really told him I loved him. I wish I did. Maybe that would've changed everything. Maybe it would have been different. Sadly, I didn't realize such a small mistake could create such a fate. I remember, long ago, I said if I were to die…I'd want to die without regrets… But even then, I lied to myself. Because I'm going to die with many regrets stuck with me. I just don't understand…anything…anymore…

Everything happened before my eyes. I couldn't believe anything at first. And I didn't know why the reaper called me out into the forest either. Everything confused me. But this could have been stopped… Or…I could have said something to change the fate. Who knew that one thing not said could be the biggest mistake of my life?

I-I never thought I could feel so empty… He's dead… Gone. It hurts to lose someone you love so dearly. And to think the biggest mistake I regret making was not telling him how I really felt. I loved him. I always did, and always will. Memories of the past echo through my mind still and I remember his last words to me. I remember the only night we made love. And I realized what the reaper meant in the letter. The most important thing was my butler. And I lost him. My one and only true love.

There was a knock at the door and Ciel sat up; looking at the servant who entered the room. It was a tall man by the age of twenty dressed in a tailcoat. He bowed at the door; his black hair pulled back like Ciel ordered.

"Master, it is time we take our leave," murmured the butler.

"I understand. Now go, James," ordered Ciel.

The butler nodded and left the room; leaving Ciel alone. Ciel stood up and walked over to the door opening it. His new butler was Oliver James, as his previous butler was Sebastian Michaelis. But he called the butler by his last name, as any Earl would. And James was never allowed to call Ciel by his name, or even young Master. Because only Sebastian was allowed to call him that. The butler who saved him and the butler who would want Ciel to live a long life as a Human. The butler who showed him love, and the one who taught him how to love. He took one last glance at the room before leaving and shutting the door; never to open it again.

"Once you've lost something…you never get it back," came Ciel's whisper that echoed throughout the hall.

The end

Okay, I've been getting some questions if this story is going to be continued. As in, a sequel of course. So here is my question for you:

Should I write a sequel to Forbidden love?