Today is Yesterday's Memory

And one of the elders of the city said, "Speak to us of Good and Evil."

And he answered: Of the good in you I can speak, but not of the evil.

For what is evil but good tortured by its own hunger and thirst?

From The Prophet by Gibran

Summary: Edward is an ancient vampire searching for the love of his life that was ripped from him over 3 thousand years ago. Reincarnation. Canon pairing.

Stephanie Meyers owns all things Twilight. This story line is mine.

Warning: Very adult material. "M" for supernatural subject matter, may not be appropriate for those under 18 years of age.

My undying thanks for editing and their endless patience: John-Mark and Susan

To Issy: Thanks so much for your patience.

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Today is Yesterday's Memory

Chapter 10

Good and Evil

Previously:

'"No, I was wondering if you could share with me what you got from the vampire that attacked and changed you."

"I don't know how I'd go about doing that sir. I was being drained of Life at the time, and I will not attempt that with you. It's been over a hundred years since I drank human blood."

What if you try just touch. When you handed me the cup of water I felt something.'

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"The first thing you must get over is your fear, Pamiu. Fear allows the darkness within. Know that I trust you because you were and are a good man. Your not having taken a human life, nor drank of human blood for over 100 years says this to me." The master held out his hands to Pamiu. "Here, take my hands, and let us see if we can travel into the past together."

Pamiu/Edward sat in front of the Master and gave him his hands. The Master dropped immediately into a very deep meditative state for a few moments. Pamiu/Edward had to really concentrate and not breath this close to the Master. It would be so easy just pull him close and close his mouth around...no that way lays danger and would be counter productive.

Within a very few minutes The Master opened his eyes and smiled hugely, "That was very interesting. I felt the level of Love that you had for your Love. I am almost envious of that depth you felt."

Pamiu/Edward ask, "Will it be possible to find my Love again Master?"

The Master dropped his hands back into his lap loosely, and closed his eyes briefly. Then he spoke. "I believe that the level of Karma engendered between your Love and yourself is something that will draw you two back together again."

"So, how will I find her again Master?"

"That is where you'll have to be very patient, and you'll have to enlist the assistance of many other people so that you'll have eyes and ears around the World. She should be incarnating again soon, but where to tell you to look, I can not say. You need to locate a teacher who's more highly evolved than I...one that is capable of tapping into the Akasha records to have a better chance of locating her."

"Excuse me Master, the Akasha records? What and where are those?"

"Akasha means the basis and essence of all things in the material world."

"Forgive me Master, I do not understand. I'm seeing a picture in your mind, but I still need clarification. I am a simple man who's first remembered incarnation was along the banks of the Nile river. We had simple gods and ways of looking at the World. Can you explain better for me. Please?"

The Master smiled that serene little smile that Pamiu was beginning to recognize as the one that proceeded deep metaphysical teaching. "For example the first material element created from the astral world (Air, Fire, Water, Earth are the other four in sequence). It is one of the Panchamahabhuta,or 'five elements'; its main characteristic is Shabda (sound). I don't know how to explain it better, my son, other than every action on the face of Earth is recorded upon these records. There are Teachers more evolved than myself who can actually tap into these records and would be able to help you locate the center of this strong Karmic pull to your Love."

Pamiu stood and began to pace back and forth, when he stopped he turned to face his Teacher once more. "Then I am lost and doomed to roam this Earth doing nothing but feeling more and more doomed."

The Master felt a very strong Love for this soul and offered him this, "If you have not found one of high enough evolution to perform this task for you, come back to me in say, 20 years and if I have not myself attained this state, I'll surely know another by then."

At least Pamiu/Edward felt this was at least a crumb. "Yes Master. I shall do that. 20 years to me is nothing."

And he was gone.

During the next 20 years, Pamiu/Edward explored the Himalayas and all of the Indian Subcontinent. Over the years he heard stories of various Holy Men who knew all and could see all. He visited them all, and found none that was capable of reading the Akasha Records. Even though he learned a great deal about religion and spirituality, it was not what he wanted. He wanted results, and he wanted to know, now.

Finally, 20 years was up and he went in search of his Master who'd become known by this time as Gautama Buddha. Much to Pamiu/Edward's surprise, The Buddha was still sitting under the same Bodhi Tree.

As Pamiu/Edward approached Buddha, The Buddha serene smile widen and he spoke, "Pamiu, my son. How good it is to see you once more. Is it 20 years already?"

Pamiu/Edward smiled back at his Master. "Yes, Master, it's been 20 years. Have you reached that state in your personal evolution where you are able to read the records.

"Come sit by me my son. Tell me of your travels and what you have learned on your travels. Tell me of the World away from my Bodhi Tree."

So Pamiu/Edward launched into his tale of his travels. When he'd finished he again ask the Buddha his question. "Have you learned to read the Akasha Records Master?"

The Buddha looked down into his lap then back into the now golden eyes of Pamiu/Edward, "Yes, and no my son."

Frustration was the first thing that Pamiu/Edward experienced. He then, with very great effort, calmed himself. "Could you explain your answer Master, please."

"The yes is I have reached that stage in my personal evolution to read the records, and the no is I can not do it for you. You have a very long way to travel in your own evolution my son. To give you that knowledge would be to deny your soul the experiences you need to reach that level of evolution."

It was obvious that Pamiu/Edward was about to loose his calm, so the Master held up his hand. "I can tell you, however, that in the distant future you will find your Love. Her name will be Isabella and together you shall walk the Earth doing good works for those less fortunate than yourselves."

Pamiu/Edward rose abruptly. "I could just take from your mind what I need to know then and be done with this cat and mouse game." Try as he may, all he was able to hear was the calming tones of the Buddha's voice repeating over and over, "All in Gods good time my son."

"The I will bid you farewell then Master. May you live long."

And he was gone.

He continue searching for Holy Men who might hold a key to where he'd find his love, Isabella. He encountered many who claimed they knew and would be able to give him the secrets of the Universe, but it would involve many years of him obeying them only or it would involve much gold and silver first.

So he continued his lonely existence and traveled many times around this world in search of his Love.

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