Chapter 10: La Tua Cantante
Todays the day that I have not been looking forward to, they day I drink humans blood for the first tim e in ages. I don't think I can do this, but I have to. I'm try to properly breath right, as I stand outside the main doors to the entrance. Alec is in there, I can smell his intoxicating scent from a mile or two away. My hands tremble at the thought of what my parents are going to think once they find out about my little ' drinking incident.' Will they hate me forever? I hope not because I will already be hating myself. I tell my hands to open the doors and surprisingly they do. My feet talk me to the center of the rather large white room. Silence flows over the room, Marcus looks at me with a sad face. Almost as if its breaking him more then its breaking me to drink humans blood. Aro looks upon me with a creepy smile. "Trinity I that you where to forget." His tone of voice speaks a bit on edge. I just shrug my shoulder and tell him that I would never forget. He smile becomes wider as my four words. Aro stands up form his middle chair and summons me to come near him. I do as I am ordered and make my way up the three whit marble steps to my master. He grasp his cold hand into mine bring them up to his mouth causing me to stiffen I hear Alec growl from a distance, but I choose to ignore it. When Aro is done his eyes open up to reveal his dark red eyes staring into my black ones. "Then its time," the evilness in his tone makes me sick for some reason. I've been here for about a mouth know and I still think Aro is a creepy psycho pathetic man with Daddy issues. He probably nows I think that and thats half the reason why I have to eat human blood. Cauis is the first to stand among the leaders, its just this time except for him giving me an angry 'Everyone hate you' type look he is giving me a pitiful sad look. I'm not surprised by this me and him have gotten closer in the past month which means he knows for a sure I hate to drink from innocent helpless humans. I real a cold yet soft hand connect with mine. Alec. I think to myself, I look up and see my guess was right. My Alec is standing next to me his eyes filled with Love, Sadness and another emotion that I can't quite make out.
I stand on my tipy toes and give him a small yet pleasing kiss. "I'm sorry," he whispers in my ear. "For what?" His pink lips form into a frown, "For making you do think. Drink human blood when I now you desperately don't want to." Thats my Alec for you always blaming himself even when it has nothing to do with him. I disagree with him and say he is the most amazing mate ever. Aro's fake coughs return both of our attentions back to Earth. Jane stands next to her master, Cauis, with the mirrored emotion of both Marcus and Cauis, Pity. I hate it when people pity me, it makes me really weak and delicate even though in real life I am exactly the opposite. "Trinity we must go the sooner we get there the faster it will go." Aro's words are true so we all pick up the speed a little. Alec holds my hand threw out the journey to the feeding room. I hear Tessa trying to give me converting words, but failing miserably only making me feel more sad and depressed. Santiago, a black dark hair vampire guards the doors to the feeding room when he sees Aro, Marcus, Cauis and everyone he automatically opens the doors. This is it. I can't back out now even though my body's begging me to. "I can't do this Alec,"
"Give me five minutes master, please?" Aro only nods his head and tells Alec to hurry it up. They all exit into the feeding room, even Santiago. When the doors fully close and I hear the click I brake down in front of Alec and hold onto him for my dear life. "Alec please, PLEASE don't let me go in there I can't do it. I've been trying to tell myself I can but.." My dry sobs take over from there Alec only holds me and tells me he will be by my side threw it all and will help me in every way he possibly can. I take in some more of his sweet smell causing my lungs to almost melt in wonder. His soft arms stroke my hair "Alec?" my dry sobbing comes to a halt. "Yes my love?"
"Why do you love me?" I know this is such a random question to be asking him now, but i've never known the answer. "I love you because well one your my mate, but two is because your bravery is something I admire. Something I wish I had." He loves my bravery? What bravery? Well I must have had some.. Silence grows upon us and the cold swift air snuggles up against my bare neck. I exhale and inhale deeply taking in every inch of It in as I can before I become a bloody murderer. I have to be brave, not just for Alec but for me and my sanity. I glace up at Alec's hair the beautiful brown hair that flows with the wind. Its gorgeous and his baby soft lips that whenever it touches mine I feel like the most amazing girl in the world. I HAVE to be strong for the one I love. "Ok i'm ready," I mumble at him. Alec nods hes head and opens the door. We walk in together and Aro is standing alongside Cauis and Marcus. Jane, Tessa and Santiago stay in the far left corner staring us down. "Are you ready my dear?" questions Aro who's looking at me and Alec's intertwined hands. I nod my head quickly my whole right side of my face is on Alec hard muscular chest. His arms are wrapped around me protectively as if i'm his prize gem and nobody except him is aloud to touch me. "Magnifico, Santiago.." he mentions the tall man. He moves towards us leaving Tessa and Jane all alone in the corner. The next thing I am aware he is trying to pry Me away from Alec. "No!" I mumble, shout at him. Alec goes into protective boyfriend/Mate mood and guards me with his whole body and hisses at Santiago. "Get away from her!" Alec grumbles ta Santiago. Aro cuts him off in by saying, "Alec?"
"I'm sorry master but if Trinity is going to do this I will be with her at ALL times." he tells no commands Aro. Aro doesn't seem to have a problem with this noticing how mad Alec got with Santiago who only touched me once. "Very Well Santiago.." Santiago nods at his master and goes over and opens up the door to reveal a whole tourist group and Heidi. She tells us to dig in and everyone does expect Me, Alec and Aro. They blood smells so good, yet the screams pour into my ears the helpless screams of innocent people. "Eat young Trinity. Eat." I look at all of them the poor humans. Then I smell it, a delicious smell. A smell that drove me out of Alec's arms I search all around the room for it. Lastly I find a thirteen year old girl hiding against the wall behind a mountain of dead drained people. She smells so good, almost to good, my mouth is watering. Without realizing what I was doing I pick up the small girl and bit her neck. The nice warm Delicious blood traveling down my dry flaky throat. It was al if I was eating an amazing slice of cake or a cheeseburger. It reals amazing! Yet I hate it at the same time. I finish the girl up in less then two seconds and drop her on the floor carelessly while Santiago dumps her in the pile of dead humans. Just think she used to be alive, full, young in that pile two seconds ago now she's dead another forgotten soul.. Aro clasps excitingly and the others join in soon after. Except Alec who is back in my arms. "Wonderful Trinity, What happened?"
"She smelled so good," before I can say anything else Aro tells me that I found and just murdered my Blood singer, La tua cantante. Guilt form up in my body. Yeah sure she tasted really good like a cold ice water on a hot summers day. But it wasn't her fault she never did anything to me. The only thing she did to me was gave me a dieing sensation in my throat for her blood. And that totally and utterly my fault. This is going to haunt me much worse then Peter. I don't even now her name to. I have the urge to check, but that will make this experience harder to forget about. "Please Aro i'm begging you, please let me go back to animal blood. Please so I don't have to life with this insane guilt over my shoulders." Aro thinks for a couple of minutes."You not dieing to get your hands on more blood?" I shake my head. Its quite the opposite actually I'm dieing to safe the next patch of tourist that will come in this exact same room later. To be killed. "Fine. But only when you have free time. If not and your eyes are black you will have to feed on humans. Got that?" Aros says making my dead non beating heart soar. "Thank you, thank you so much." I hug Alec with all of my mite the Aro, Marcus, Cauis and Jane. Last is Tessa and she whispers in my ear, "Her names was Angel." I surprised by Tessa. How did she now who my la tue cantante is. Tessa slides something into my pocket and with Aro and the others goes out of the room. I tell Alec to go without me and I'll be right there. With some hesitation he leaves I go into my pocket and pul out an iphone to see Angle Summer's Ipod written across the top of a pic of her and her friends on her 13th birthday party. She looks so happy with all her friends it looks around night time she's about to plow out the candles in the bottom of the picture it says 'We Love you Angel and let you have many wonderful and happy memory when you get into High School- Love mom dad and your little sister Patty.' She had High school to look forward to and look at how much friends se had and a loving family. The ipod looks brand spanking new, she must have revived it for her birthday. She had so much in head for her and I took it all way. Poor Patty won't be able to see her big sister anymore and poor Angle won't be able to see her little sister grow. Now I feel like a monster and I will forever count myself as one.