Still don't own BTR or Th1rteen R3asons Why.

*Bold means its on the DVD.

*Italics means its Jo's memory.

I walked into the lobby to see people laughing at me. I ignored them, instead walking out to where I was meeting Stephanie at the pool. I adjusted my purple thin light long sleeve shirt and hiked up my denim short shorts. I did't see Stephanie anywhere. I texted her.

hey steph, where r u? im at the pool waiting..

She didn't text back. I waited for ten minutes, and then the Jennifers walked over.

"So Jo, cut yourself lately?" Jennifer 1 sneered, flipping her hair.

"Purge lately?" Jennifer 2 smirked, putting a hand on her hip.

"Talk to a shrink lately?" Jennifer 3 snickered, crossing her arms smugly.

I felt like ice had settled in my veins. Stephanie walked out and stood next to the Jennifers. "Yeah Jo, have you?"

They laughed at the same time and so did the rest of the people standing around. I slowly stood up, and while Stephanie was laughing, I smacked her across the face and pushed her into the pool, then bolted to my apartment. I cried, and then slit my arms some more hoping the pain would go away. This time it only increased.

"So, I was betrayed by Stephanie. I just don't understand why you did it Stephanie. Wasn't I good enough? Or maybe you're kust so much of a bitch you figured why not tell all of Jo's secrets? Well fuck you."

The video shut off. Insert disc #9 flashed.

Kendall swallowed the rage he had for Stephanie. He almost considered just not watching any more videos because he seems to only get pissed off while watching them, but he knew he needed to watch them. So, he inserted the next disc.

"Alright um, what am i doing? Oh right, the videos. Okay. So, I've become pretty fucked up lately. Why is that? Guitar Dude, reason number nine. Lets uh, start the story, okay?" Jo laughed, and then started talking.

I walked by the pool, breathing in the fading summer air. No one was around, so I was able to walk without being ridiculed. I was so sick of everything... I saw the balcony that people hung out on because of its amazing view. Lucky me, it was also a good twenty feet off the ground. I made it my destination, planning on ending it there.

Once up there, I was crying and shaking. One of the worst things was to hate yourself so much you would rather die than live any longer. What had happened to the cheerful girl I used to be? Why couldn't I be normal? Why did I have to be this way? So fucked up I'm about to commit suicide. I put one leg over the rail, then the next. Just as I was gonna let go someone grabbed my arm.

"Whoa girl, don't do it."

I looked through blurry tear-filled eyes to see Guitar Dude standing there. "What does it matter to you if I die? Nobody cares anyway. I'm just a fuck up."

Guitar Dude laughed. "I got something that will make everything better, come with me."

So against my better judgement, I climbed down and followed Guitar Dude. We went to a smoke filled room in the Palm Woods, in a completely different part of the hotel that me and BTR live in. He set me down at a relatively clean table and brought me two little brightly colored pills with smiley faces on them, and a bottle of what I assumed was water.

"Drink this, swallow these. You'll feel real fine." He said, so I did.

I had never had any drugs before, but I figured my life was already shit, so why don't I just do it? And it was amazing.

At first I got this tight feeling in my chest, followed by goosebumps and chills all over. Then my jaw felt tight.

And then it hit me. A little overwhelming at first. My heart rate shot up, my eyes dilated, I started smiling like somewhat of a retard.

Sensory overload. Everything looked incredible, and SOUNDED AMAZING. Everything was fascinating and beautiful. Everything was a source of pure pleasure. Things FELT soooo good.

Once I got used to the sensory overload and accepted it as reality I wanted to DANCE, DANCE, DANCEEEE my heart out!

Guitar dude must have known what I was thinking so he took my hand, and took me to some kind of party. Bright lights were everywhere, I started laughing and dancing like no tomorrow. I was at peace with the world, I loved everyone and everything, and they loved me. I was the live of the party, and suddenly I was making out with random people, my senses heightened. I ate a peanut and was overwhelmed with the salt. It was like nothing I had ever done before.

I felt so carefree, I was talking to people about anything and everything. Suddenly I just needed to find Kendall. I ran and somehow found his room and walked right in. He was the only one home, sitting watching TV.

"Jo, what are you doing here? Are you okay?" He asked concerned. I laughed.

"Couldn't be better. I love you Kendall." I said, and furiously started making out with him. One thing led to another and excuse my french, but we were fucking in no time. It was amazing, the best thing I had ever felt. I wanted to do it over and over again, and wouldn't it be wonderful if I could get Kendall to take E? I vowed I would get him to do it at least once.

Once the E wore off, I fell asleep in Kendall's bed naked, not caring of anyone walked in and found us. Luckily no one did.

"So, first and definitely not last time taking E. In fact, I think I'll go take some right now. But that isn't the only drug I got from Guitar Dude. Nope, through him I have also gotten crystal, weed, heroin, but my all time favorite is E. Although I have to say, I'm turning into a real tweaker. Anyways, I'm not really sure if Guitar Dude is on here for a bad reason or not. The only reason I say bad is because I can tell I'm slowly getting addicted to the stuff. But I love the E. I can't live without it, it makes me happy. Course, the other stuff I probably should live without. But weed is okay. However, they don't call meth the monster for nothing." Jo shut off the camera.

Well. Kendall wasn't expecting that. It made sense though that Guitar Dude sold drugs, I mean what else would he do with his time? But to give it to Jo, and not tell anyone he had found her about to commit suicide? He could have prevented her death had he said something!

But why did he have to give Jo meth! That stuff destroys people! So does heroin, but at least Ecstasy made Jo happy. And weed doesn't really do anything to you, but Kendall would never touch the stuff. He didn't do drugs, and never would. Finding out all of this stuff about Jo made Kendall feel hollow and empty inside, and he felt like crying again. Fighting that urge, he put in the next disc.

Jo was sitting on her bed with tears in her eyes. "It finally happened. I hope all of you are FUCKING happy. Your rumors caused the one good fucking thing in my life hate me. Why did he believe the stupid fucking lies, I don't know. Maybe it was the drugs. Reason number ten, Kendall Knight."

Kendall felt a roaring in his ears and saw the world tilt as he fell off his bed, passed out.

Okay, so my laptop is finally fixed for good, and all the viruses are off it. So now I will try updating every day until this story is finished. Tomorrow I SWEAR to you it will be posted, I will write some of it in school and type it right after. I hope you guys liked this chapter, and guess what? Next chapter is obviously Kendall's chapter, so I hope you guys like it! Any guesses on what he did?

Thank you for reviewing and I hope you haven't given up on this story, because even though I may not update for awhile I am not giving up on this story. Just this damn laptop won't stop fucking with me! Maybe 5 reviews by next chapter? c:

Thank you to rosslynchloverR5forever , November 2 1990 , and RusherSeanLosG for reviewing!

Next chapter is up tomorrow because I don't want you guess to be kept waiting on that one. Unless a fucking apocalypse happens, I will post it tomorrow.

~TheFlyingGraysons