"What are you doing?" Oliver asks again. Eyeing her up and down and taking in her rounded belly.
"Oliver" she repeats, "what are you doing ... How did you get in?" She asks nervously.
"I have a spare key, you weren't answering my phone calls, you said you were ill" he arches his eyebrow waiting for her to explain the pillow.
She quickly remembers what she was doing and pulls the pillow out of her shirt immediately noticing the loss of its heat.
"I was talking to Lyla, she is very close to the due date and well ... Curiosity you know ... She was telling me about difficulty getting up with a round belly and you know me I hate mysteries just wanted to see whether it was really that difficult" damn it she thought why didn't she tell him she was pregnant.
"Right" he says uneasy. "You coming to the lair tonight we need you" he snaps.
"Yes I'll be there, we are one member down ..."
"Diggle told you about our conversation"
"I think it was more of a fight, argument than a conversation ..."
"You weren't there, you haven't heard my side" he growls.
"I spoke to Digg he said you told him that he needs to leave the team because he is going to be a dad ... Yes that's nice of you and considerate and it comes from a good place because you care but it is ultimately his decision, you can't just take people's choices away from them Oliver" she snaps back. She walks into her kitchen and pours herself a glass of water and pours him one too.
"Felicity, it is dangerous I can't have his baby grow up without a dad because of me"
"It won't be because of you, Digg will choose to fight and if God forbid something happens to him, then it happens because he chose to fight and to stand by your side knowing the risks and consequences"
Oliver takes of his ties and undoes a couple of buttons, feeling like he is suffocating, why couldn't anyone understand that all he wants is to keep them safe.
"Oliver" she whispers.
"Felicity, why don't you get it, all I am trying to do is keep you all safe, this is my fight, my battle ..."
"No it's not it's all of ours when we agreed to join the team it became all of our battles, we didn't join you to give aid to your fight, we joined the fight ... If that makes sense" she scrunches her face in confusion then turns her gaze on him.
"I never wanted it to be your fight..."
"But it is, so stop, Diggle wants to fight he wants to put criminals away because he wants to make the city safer, safer for when his baby gets here, so he can have a life"
"Hmmm well it is not up for debate he is off the team he needs to be there for his family" he growls and turns preparing to leave.
"Oliver it's his choice you can't kick him off, besides it should be put to a group vote and just so you know Roy and I will out vote you ..."
"This isn't a democracy Felicity"
"Tough because it is, you can't take away people's choices and opinions and actions, responsibility, Oliver we all choose to lead whatever life we want and do what we want please stop being such a hard ass, Diggle is staying the baby ..."
"Will grow up with no father if something happens to him" he shouts facing Felicity taking steps closer towards her as she is backed into a wall.
"You don't know that, Diggle can do both ..."
"No he can't his family needs to come first, his baby needs to come first, he can't do what needs to be done because he is a father now"
"You're right but what he can do is fight harder because he or she will be his motivation ..."
"No" he shouts, his stern blue eyes finally meets hers, all his emotions showing, his fear, his anger, his frustration. He rubs the back of his neck clenching his teeth together.
"So what when you have kids you're going to hang up your hood?" She knows full well what she has asked but finds it is the perfect situation to get some insight in how to tell him.
"I'm not going to have kids" he says in a strong tone but Felicity can see the regret and fear in his eyes.
"Ever" she whispers.
"Ever, I can't bring a child into this world never, so do you understand now why I pushed you away, don't wait for me Felicity, I know you, one day you will want it all, a husband, kids but that won't be with me, it will never be with me" he exhales scanning her eyes seeing her holding back the tears.
"Oliver" she whispers again trying to find the words to tell him before he says more.
"No Felicity, don't wait for me, because I will never come, you will grow old and die alone because I will never come, don't wait, and if I for whatever reason decided to come I will never give you kids, and you will resent me for the rest of your life"
"Oliver you don't understand" her voice begins to crack.
"I will never give you a baby, that will not be our life so you need to forget about me, I don't want a baby I don't want kids ever" he laughs looking away from her "God forbid I have kids" he laughs again and turns to walk away. He turns his head one more time seeing her looking at the floor in her pyjamas crying. He knows this isn't like the first time, this time he really has broken her. This time he really had broken her heart, this time she won't come for him, she won't wait. She will hate him and it is just what he deserves.
Felicity is sitting on the floor against the same wall she walked back into; she has been sitting and crying for what seems like years when in fact it had been 2 hours. She replays everything Oliver said to her, he didn't want kids ever yet here she was pregnant with his baby.
Roy walked into Felicity's apartment, she was completely lost in thought, he took a seat next to her and she didn't even realise. He sat next to her for about 10 minutes until he took her hand in his. Her hand was cold as was the rest of her body.
"Hey" he says quietly waiting for her eyes to meets his.
"Hi" she replies her voice cracking and another set of tears spill from her grey-blue eyes.
"Hey" Roy wraps his arms around her, "what's wrong?".
"He doesn't want kids, never wants kids" she cries.
Roy clenches his teeth together in anger, "he said that, I swear to God if he told you to get rid of it I will break his legs"
"No, I never told him I'm pregnant we were talking about Digg and babies and he said he never wants that life and that I need to move on and find someone who will give me that, he has already given me that but ..." She cries damn hormones.
"Hey shhh, maybe he will feel differently when he you tell him there is actually a baby growing inside of you"
She pulls away from his embrace and wipes her eyes. "No I don't think he will, he walked in on me with a pillow under my shirt he was shocked and ... I don't know what it was but something read on his face and he clearly doesn't want this ..."
"You don't know that"
"He has a mission to do he is fighting a battle and if there is a baby he can't do that" she shakes her head.
"So because he doesn't want this baby your what going to have an abortion" Roy shouts. His rage is beginning to take over, heat rising in his cheeks.
"No, no of course not, maybe I should leave, he won't be surprised he wants me to leave, I can do it alone, I can do it alone, I can" she repeats trying to convince herself.
"No, you won't do this alone, please reconsider telling him, tell him, if he doesn't want it then leave, we will leave together because you Felicity Smoak are not doing this alone" Roy brushes lose strands of her hair away from her face.
"Thank you" she whispers falling back into his embrace.
Outside of Felicity's house stood Eric, he had been at work all day, like he had been the past few days and she wasn't there, he would come round after work watching her. She sat on the floor with the same boy, Roy that she has done before. He took his camera out and took a few snaps. She was it for him and that is why he needed to find out everything about her, that's why he needed to get to know her. He was preparing his house, the house they would live in together. He had taken some of her items so she could feel more at home when she gets there. It had taken a long process; he needed to find the perfect house, needed to make it look like her apartment. He knew what she liked, what she didn't. He knew once everything was ready and in place they could be happily ever after. He needed her to fall in love with him.
She was close he thought, he knew she loved Big Belly Burger. He would watch her and when she entered alone, he would go in after her and join her for dinner. She was funny, bubbly, didn't care about his past, and accepted him. He would make sure he ran into her as much as he could, stores, banks, restaurants. She was always nice, no one was nice to him except her. He loved her and soon she would be his wife. They will get married and have children. They would grow old together. Soon he thinks, once he takes her furniture and her clothes and moves it into their new place she can join him. Soon. Very soon.
Thank you for the reviews, sorry for leaving it on a cliff hanger but wanted to add so tension hehe. We all knew it was coming it couldn't be that easy for them together so heartbreak before heart loving attacks occur hehe.
Sorry for late updates been busy with work and who knew morning sickness lasted like actually lasts all day erghh … I miss food nothing tastes the same any more but bless my boyfriend I have the weirdest cravings and he goes and gets them for me the other day I wanted pickled onions why I don't know … never had them before but here I am craving pickled onions which are absolutely delish but im sure ya'll don't need to know that …. Enjoy
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