The Cafe of the Third Eye
Can't Fight this Feeling Anymore
by
Sabrina Lonewalker
The Ninth Doctor came in alone. Rose had asked for time to visit her mother, Jackie and he had agreed they needed time apart. As usual, when he had questions, he came here to the Cafe of the Third Eye. He smiled, remembering bringing Rose here not long after they had begun traveling together. Allegra had sang the song, "Taking Chances" to him, telling him it was worth having Rose around but now, he wasn't so sure. The feelings he felt stirring inside of him had not been there for a very long time.
He sat at his usual table, in the back corner of the large room. No matter when he came here, the room was always full. The waitress came over and he told her what he wanted to drink. She smiled and went off. He couldn't read timelines as well or as clearly as his previous incarnation had been able to but, even he knew the timelines here were strange, to say the least. Especially the ones surrounding Allegra.
He shook his head. He was hear to get the answers to the questions that had been running around in his mind for awhile now. He knew what he was feeling but, he had to admit it to himself, he was afraid. Everyone and everything he had ever loved, he had lost. Jo Grant had left, Sarah Jane had to leave, Leela, Romana, Adric was dead, Nyssa had gone, Tegan had left, she couldn't take anymore, Grace had stayed behind on Earth. He thought the most about Romana, how much he had loved her and it hadn't been until his Eighth incarnation that he had finally been able to show her but she was gone too, victim of the Daleks in the Time War.
He sighed and shook his head. "Why bother?" He thought, "I'll just hurt Rose and she doesn't deserve that. I could just leave her with her mum, never go back for her and she'd be a lot safer." He wasn't sure what to do so, he had come here. "Maybe Allegra can help me again." He smiled, she always managed to be able to help him, one way or another. The waitress came back with his drink and he thanked her. There were times when he wanted something stronger than tea and today was one of those days. He looked up and Allegra was taking the stage.
She looked at her band, whispered a few words then, she took her usual seat on the tall stool before the microphone stand. She felt the eddies and waves of emotions in the room but one dominated. He was here again and Allegra smiled. The intoduction to the song she had chosen began.
"I can't fight this feeling any longer
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show"
His head snapped up. She had done it again, he thought. "That' describes exactly how I feel," he whispered to himself.
"I tell myself that I can't hold out forever
I said there is no reason for my fear
Cause I feel so secure when we're together
You give my life direction
You make everything so clear"
Allegra was right there, he thought. Everything is clear, my path is defined when Rose is with me and she has given me a new direction for my life.
"And even as I wander
I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winter's night
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might"
He smiled, Rose was a light in his darkness and his hearts were warm whenever she was with him.
"And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever"
Allegra was right, he couldn't fight this anymore. He had to face it, one way or another befroe he made a mistake that he woulod regret for the rest of his existence.
"Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crushing through your door
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore
My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
I've been running round in circles in my mind
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl
Cause you take me to the places that alone I'd never find"
He smiled hearing that verse, How like his life since he found Rose. Places they had been to he had seen in a new way, seeing them through her eyes.
"And even as I wander I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window on a cold, dark winter's night
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might
And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crushing through your door
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore."
He smiled as he sipped the last of his drink. Allegra was right, he had to stop fighting what he was feeling for Rose and just see where it could take the both of them. He looked at the stage, caught Allegra's eye and nodded. He then slipped into TARDIS and disappeared. He was going back for his Rose.
Finis