Every once in a while an unbelievable sadness comes over us..
&& breaks our heart all over again.
&& it's not because of the way things are, but because of the way they could have been...
It's been one year .. one year since I last saw Chad and one year since I last spoken to Tony.I quit So Random! Leaving behind my past , no longer could I be there surrounded by the memories of what was , what I had and how many people who have hurt or loved me .Flipping through the scrapbook , I smiled sadly staring at the pictures of Tawnie ,Nico, Grady,Zora and I had token , while Marashall was out of town . Hah , I remember when we had that wild crazy house party in His house ! I signed , blocking out all the happy memoires I had .Throwing the book on the floor , I looked all around until I spotted my red skinny jeans on the computer desk . My black lace tank top was laying on the ground , next I found my black crop leather jacket on the top of the door handle.
After I put on my clothes , makeup and did my hair I ran down the stairs and into the kitchen finding a note tapped to the refrigerator door.
To soonshine(:
Im going out to work wont be back until late , so go out and have some fun sweetie. There
Is 20 dollars on the counter next to the totoaster .love mom
I signed deeply, Eyeing that word …sunshine.. I haven't been called that in so long, since I was 15 . "whatever." I rolled my eyes slamming the note on the table , while grabbing the house keys and slamming the door to our loft apartment .The sun shined brightly , way to bright on my brown eyes , I was half blind until I searched through my leather prada bag for my black diamond designer glasses . While putting them on, I looked around for a nice spot in the park , I didn't stay there long though because I had a sudden urge for a berry melon smoothie . I got up and made my way to the world of milkshakes shop , after placing my order I waited impatiently tapping my foot to the beat of Varsity Fan club's baby steps .
"Miss , here you are." I smiled slightly , while paying the man the money .
He grinned until his eyes grew huge with shock , "Oh my gosh your Sonny Monero from So Random!."
I rolled my eyes oh shit.
I nodded ,while the guy smiled at me ."Hey im Pablo Rodergiz at your service ."
I tilted my head in confusion , the guy asked me who i was but then he quickly changes the subject to i mean i wasnt to worried about it , i mean the last thing i want is someone , recongizing me and then go on to ask a thousand questions about what happened . I signed .Pablo , looked over at me , cocking his eyebrow up while smiling .Pablo , had natural tan skin his eyes were a lime green with a hint of hazel .His hair was sandy brown , sort of shaggy but then again it wasnt .
I smiled ."Thanks again -
"Pablo .Hope to see you again."He called out while i walked out the store .
I sat down on the bench and closed my eyes , daydreaming about everything that happened just that passed year .My heart hurt from all that pain , Tony leaving surely after he admitted his feelings towards me .Our relationship last for 8 months before he had to leave for his world tour , naturally he had asked if he could cancel but i told him no .He left ,and i havent seen him since .I missed him ..alot .Texting and calling were sweet , but i wanted him to hold me and just be here with me . I havent heard from Chad at all, we lost all ties .
"Son-ny."I glanced over slightly as my eyes grew wide with utter shock, the pain came back into my eyes and that's when the tears came flooding down.
or so i thought...