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This story may give people a sense of déjà vu, rest easy for you are not going crazy! I am in the process of editing and expanding this piece; a few of the chapters will remain untouched but will be in a different order than they were previously. There are also different events that will be added/subtracted/changed… You would think that this would be easier since it was already written once… but I think it is even more difficult than starting from scratch!

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I have been off the grid the past year or so… I left teaching, joined the Navy, moved 5 times last year alone and now I have 3 foster sons! (I'm still single)

Chapter 10: What is this feeling?

Dinner was eaten in a comfortable silence. The reprieve from talking gave her time alone to reflect on the changes of her life the past few months. She went from being InuYasha's mate to a member of the Ookami tribe and now she was dinning in the West with her ex (technically still) mate's older half brother. She sighed lightly as she stuffed another bit of lamb into her mouth.

She couldn't imagine how difficult this was for Sesshomaru. His child was ill, deathly so in this time. He had swallowed his pride to ask her for assistance. Sadly, there was only so much she could do, the rest of it was up to Rin. She cast him glance from the side of her eyes, observing his ridged posture. Sesshomaru's face was as stoic as normal pretending that he didn't have emotions, but his eyes, his eyes betrayed him.

Kagome caught his stare, but it wasn't the indifferent look in his eyes she was use to. The molten gold of his eyes seemed to flow around with emotions that she could not quite place. She could tell it was a majority of concern, worry and relief but there was a glint of something more dancing in the depths if she didn't know any better, she would say it was…desire? 'Yeah right, The Great Taiyouki Sesshomaru desiring a human miko who mated with his hated half brother. Get real, Kagome!' The idea was almost too comical she smiled despite herself, causing Sesshomaru to raise an eyebrow at her.

"Miko," He cleared his throat, "Sesshomaru must thank you for coming to help Rin." Kagome snapped out of her thoughts.

"Sesshomaru, you know I love Rin and will do anything for her. From what I saw, she will get a little worse before she gets better, but she should heal back to normal if we succeed in keeping her fever down." She placed her hand on his and stared him in the eyes, trying to reassure him. But the second her palm touched the back of his hand, electricity sparked and flowed between the two on them and settling in their groins. Sesshomaru was growing aroused and the sharp cinnamon scent of Kagome's arousal was driving him wild. Forcing himself to take control of his emotions, he nodded stood and left the room.

Sesshomaru ran…walked with a purpose (running was beneath him) to his study. Once behind the doors, he strode over to his desk and put his head in his hands and battled with his youki. After successfully putting him back in his mental bonds, Sesshomaru stood and began to pace. What happened to him just now, he knew Kagome felt it too. Perhaps it was that he hadn't had a bitch in far too long. 'No,' he shrugged that thought off, he was more in control of his body than that.

Kagome was in heat, it was all he could do to sit next to her during the evening meal and then she touched him. The electricity that began to flow and she became aroused too, he had to run leave or he would have taken her right there on the table, dignity be damned. Flashes of her stretched across his buffet table between the entrées and desserts drifted into his minds eye.

He was still painfully hard and that was not helping; he wanted her. Yes, she was a 'dirty' human miko mated to his half-brother, but she had honor, courage, strength and intelligence. She helped defeat Naraku, something that Sesshomaru could not do alone. Yet, his bastard brother doesn't see she is more amazing than the clay pot could ever hope to be when she was alive.

'Damn it. She would never want me.' For the third time since he had met Kagome he felt inferior-something that has only happened five times in his life…He was bested by a half-breed and lost his arm, he was unable to defeat Naraku alone, couldn't save his mother or his father from their individual deaths and now he didn't think he could woo a female.

Sesshomaru divested, hanging his kimono over the post at the foot of his bead, he wrapped his teal and purple silk robe around him, tying it loosely he walked through sliding doors of glass to the balcony. Leaning on the metal railings he closed his eyes and let the slight breeze blow a few strands of moonbeam colored hair form his face. With a deep breath he withdrew from the banister and moved over to the corner with deep blue fabrics hanging from the roof, making an area like a room. On the floor lay pillows and blankets, there were some small pedestals for incense burners. It was large enough for Sesshomaru to lay in, if he wanted to, but mostly he used it for meditation. A human activity that Sesshomaru found most useful, it helped to clear his mind of his Lord like duties. He walked into the area, and sat cross legged on his normal pillow, tonight he would meditate to give himself some relief from the erotic thoughts of a certain miko in heat, as well as the pending arrival of the Lords of the Lands and the increased security measures he will have to implement to protect Rin. With Kagome here, he would have a little more protection for his little girl, she would protect her with her life. He knew he could trust the miko.

Kagome sat on the oversized pillow around the table for a few minutes with her mouth hanging open, utterly dumbfounded staring at the door. 'What did I miss? Apparently there is no touching to comfort…interesting.' She sat there for a few more seconds lost in thought until the damp spot in her self-made under wear became uncomfortable. Perhaps it was the mating mark, driving her desire. She headed to her room to change.

Once in her room she undressed completely and wrapped herself in a cotton robe. She laid on her bed and stared at the decorated ceiling. 'I know I am falling for Kouga and attracted to him', memories of the kisses she had shared with him pounded into her memory. Her arousal only increased. Her mating mark throbbed with desire. Her thoughts turned to the feeling she felt when she touched Sesshomaru. 'How is this happening? Attracted to Sesshomaru, falling for Kouga and I am still mated to Inu Yasha. How do I always seem to get into messes like these?' She threw her head against the pillow again in frustration and groaned. She cursed her mark again, she couldn't calm her raging body.

A noise in the room next to her drew her attention to the "forbidden" door. She to it across the room, bit her lip and put her hand on the door knob…

Kagome swallowed and turned the door knob, there was no going back now she thought to herself. Pushing open the door she stood there for a moment, allowing her eyes to adjust to the room. A candle burning on the end table and moonlight streaming in the windows and light from the open door leading to her room were all that illuminated the room.

Her eyes scanned the room. A door on the wall adjacent to the one she was standing in now, was plan and Kagome wondered where it led, continuing to scan counter-clockwise around the room, she could make out an armoire next to a very large window, through that opening a railing was visible, the window almost looked like a sliding glass door from her time. Farther along the wall was a beautiful, large stone fireplace. In front of the fireplace lay a rug that looked quite plush, for the first time Kagome took note of the plush rug under her own feet. On the other side of the rug, directly across the room from the Hearth stood a large four post bed, with a canopy of silk, it shimmered in the moon light. It was the kind of bed little girls dreamed of Princesses sleeping in with their Prince…

'Oh man, this has to be Sesshomaru's room.' Turning Kagome started to head toward the door to her room, not realizing she had moved into the room. Her hand grabbed the door knob, ready to step through and close the door behind her when she heard a noise, the same one that drew her attention to the door in the first place. Pausing for a second she started back toward her room when a strong had clasped her shoulder and spun her around. Her eyes met gold that had begun to bleed in red.

Unable to stop himself, Sesshomaru lowered his lips to hers. When she gasped he deepened the kiss. His hand moved from her shoulder down her back while his other ran up her side and buried itself in her raven locks. Her hand left the door knob and moved to grab his arm, the other hand rested on his chest. He pulled her closer, molding their bodies together; his youki purred in joy at the soft warmth that was Kagome.

Sesshomaru's hand slid down her back then between them, he began to play with the fold of her robe, the tips of his fingers grazing against her bare flesh, forcing a little moan to form in the back of her throat. Mimicking his last motions, Kagome pushed her fingers into the top of his robe, he was solid, and oh so hot to the touch.

His hands slid farther into her robe and down, encircling her waist with his arm. The action pushed her covering far enough over that he felt her naked, hard nipple brush against his chest. The smell of her arousal was making it even hard for him not to take her right there.

He slid his hand from behind her head down her shoulders and side then between them; he untied the loose knot that held the robe together. Slowly he moved that hand to join the other and pulled her close. His manhood pushed against his silk robe, coming exposed when he shifted his hips and pushed against Kagome.

Her hands moved to untie his robe leaving his front bare in front of her, craving the feel of her skin on his, Sesshomaru pulled her as close as he could get her. The feel of skin on skin contact had the world melting away; the only thing that existed was them and their desires in this moment. He loosened his hold so one hand could snake up and cup her breast. She moaned against his lips and when he gently squeezed her creamy mound, the moaned even louder when the claw on his thumb flicked her budded nipple.

His hands moved to her shoulders and pushed the cotton material down her shoulders, it rustled softly as it pooled on the floor. She did the same to him, relishing in the sound of silk whooshing to the ground. Kami, he was perfect. His body was hard and hot with skin the softness and color of fresh snow. She was in his control, putty in his perfectly manicured hands.

Breaking their heated kiss, Sesshomaru grabbed Kagome's hand and pulled it in a way that almost felt like dancing. Her eyes questioned him about his actions, "Spin for Sesshomaru, Kagome. I want to see all of you" He purred to her. She licked her lips wantonly, then slowly she began to turn with his lead, she turned slow enough he had time to see every tantalizing inch of her body.

"Lord Sesshomaru!" Jaken busted in the door

Sesshomaru growled loudly at the intruder and pulled Kagome to him as quickly as he could so the intruder couldn't see what is his naked. "What do you want, Jaken" Sesshomaru bellowed in his husky, still lust induced voice. He was not happy, so help him if this isn't important he is going to kill the toad!

'Shit,' thought Kagome as the emotions turned.

Jaken covered his eyes when he realized what he had walked in on. The scent of their arousals hung heavy in the air but fortunately the room was a bit too dark for the old demon to fully make out the naked forms 15 feet in front of him. "Come quickly! Rin's rash has spread to her feet!"

Sesshomaru looked at Kagome "did you not say she would get better?"

"Yes, but I also said she would look a little worse before she did. It is natural for the rash to spread over her entire body, but now I must go to her," Kagome picked up her robe and made her way to Rin's room.

Rin was sleeping quietly and her fever was still there but it had lowered and her rash was now from head to toe. When Kagome covered her back up, Rin woke slightly, lifted her head and looked at Kagome. In a sleepy voice she rasped, "Kagome-mama, Rin loves you"

"Shh, rest Rin. I love you, too"

With a weak smirk Rin's head hit the pillow and she slipped back into sleep.

'Kagome-MAMA, where did that come from? Is that something she picked up from Shippo or does she really want me to be her mom? I love her like my adopted daughter and she is close with Shippo…maybe I could be with Sesshomaru… NO NO NO you need to chill out Kagome, you just left your mate REMEMBER!' Kagome mentally fought with herself as she sat in the chair next to the bed. She stayed there the rest of the night, kind of scared to go back to her room knowing it was next to Sesshomaru's and not trusting herself to stay away from him.

Sesshomaru knew he shouldn't go and see Rin at the risk of exposing himself even more to the measles, not that his demon blood doesn't give him a superior immune system but if the Lord of the Western Lands is sick all hell breaks loose! Look what happened last time, Sesshomaru was ill with a rare demon virus and Naraku came into existence. No, he must not get sick, but he could listen to the two humans who held his heart.

"Kagome-mama, Rin loves you"

"Shh, rest Rin. I love you, too"

Sesshomaru's heart began to soar. He knew they cared for one another but just hearing them say it gave his heart wings that began to flutter hard in his chest. Making his way back to his room he walked over to his bed removed his robe and got into bed. He wouldn't sleep, but sometimes just feeling the silk on his skin while he relaxed and thought was all he needed.

He laid in bed and took a deep breath, he could still smell her, lavender with vanilla mixed with her heat and cinnamon arousal and InuYasha. 'Damn' he thought as he remembered she was mated. Regardless if she left him, Sesshomaru had to let Kagome come to him or he would go against the Inu mating laws. One thing Sesshomaru wasn't was a rule breaker. If he wasn't patient he gave Inu Yasha the right to kill him if his brother still wanted Kagome.

With a growl he went to the hot springs, he had to get her scent off of him or he might do something he would later regret.

** A/N: They only got a little heated due to her heat and mating mark and their mutual respect for each other. ***dodges pitch forks and stones* Don't kill me please!