hi readers here's my 10th chapter can you believe it! thank you to everyone who reviwed this chapter is a little different but i honestly think it's my best yet so here you have it...

chapter 10

I wake up in a strange place and I don't remember how I got here why am I not in my own bed, and then the events of the previous night all come rushing back and I remember falling asleep on their pull out couch, and I remember all of the lies I've been fed since katniss left. I realize it's early and no one else is up yet so I decide to go through the bag my mom packed for me, and I find enough clothes to last me quite a while, my nightclothes, and my hairbrush. I quickly pull out the shirt and pants from the top of the bag and go into the bathroom to get dressed. When I have my clothes on and brush my hair everyone is starting to wake up including physalis

"hey, oh wow it wasn't a dream" he says

"nope your stuck with me" I say

"ya right it was the best dream ever and now I find out it's real" he says, because he always knows how to make me blush then his hand comes up to trace the line of my jaw and just as he leans in to kiss me his father walks in

"uhem" he clears his throat.

Then we're both blushing "good morning kids" he says

"Morning dad" says physalis

"Good morning, MR. freeman" I say

"No, prim MR. Freeman is my father my name is Phaius" he says

"And I'm not a MRS either, okay hun i'm Abelia" she says

"okay, sorry, and thank you so much for letting me stay here" I say

"not at all any "friend" of our son's is welcome here, and uh we really can't believe what you've done for Analia she's so different she'll talk to us and she isn't watching the games as much" says Abelia

"well I'd say it's about breakfast time wouldn't you" breaks in phaius

after we eat breakfast we're off to school with anlia, and it's weird being the older sister

"I like your parents" I say

"really, well they love you"

"really?" I ask

"ya, well what's not to love" he says

"hm" I scoff trust me there's alot" I say

"no. Not one thing about you, everybody loves you," he says to me but I know he's lying, oh well it's a sweet lie.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: okay this is different I'm going to do a little from physalis's pov! and from now on I will put a little name above to say who's pov it is (alternating pov's will not be in most chapters only a few)

PHYSALIS

"Everybody loves you" I tell her and if know it's the truth I also know that she doesn't believe me, but it's true I love her so much but she is like her sister she can be so oblivious, I mean every boy in the school is practically falling at her feet but she thinks no body notices her, I know that if katniss hadn't somebody else would have volunteered to save her, everybody she meets instantly loves her and strangely, that's one of my favorite qualities in her. we come into the school yard hand in hand and go straight into the building and sit beside each other in our newly positioned desks and then the teacher

walks in "oh good morning kids" she says cheerily

"good morning MRS. E" I reply but prim just stares off into space as I've noticed she's been doing all morning and I just wish I could peek into that pretty blond head of hers.

once class starts me and prim start passing notes instead of speaking it's definitely not a fast way of communication but it is effective the first one is mine

"what's wrong, I mean besides the obvious" is all it says. I pass it to her she carefully unfolds it then writes her simple 2 word reply

"just thinking :)" hm i guess I was hoping for a longer answer but at the same time I know what she's going through her mind is reeling it's just killing me I want so much to help her to comfort her I want nothing more than to pull her in to my arms and tell her everything is going to be fine but the truth is all I can do is help her grieve because I know she holds hope and so do I but what can I do and the truth is eating me alive, because the fact is I

can't do a-n-y-t-h-i-n-g. and I am so angry no I'm past angry I was angry when analia broke my watch, I was angry when the teacher gave me detention, I was angry when my parents kept the truth from me, and now watching the capitol slowly eat away at the girl I love, no I am not angry I am furious I have developed a murderous rage! against the capitol and I know things have got to change.

GALE

I sit in the woods thinking about what I've done I have now officially lost both everdeen girls forever, and I'm skipping school to boot. Even if katniss does come home I know she'll never be the same I always assumed she'd give on her whole no marriage no family thing but now having been in the games she's destined to either end up like haymitch all alone and forever pushing me away or who knows maybe she'll even fall in love with peeta,

she may have to to get sponsors, even to survive I find myself hating peeta, though I have no reason to. I love katniss it's as simple as that. Then there's prim she finds me with madge and runs away from home I know she won't listen if I tell the truth, she's gone I don't believe this what was the one thing I promised katniss I promised I would take care of prim I am breaking my promise I can't take this anymore

I decide I have to begin hunting but the first thing I shoot is a squirrel and I'm instantly reminded of how katniss always got a perfect shot through the eye and I just can't accept that she has been pulled from me and I can't take this

I'm always silent when I am upset, I always hide my emotions I never cried when my father died, I never shook when my baby sister almost did, and I never show my fear out here in the woods, I am always silent, I am always aloof, I always hide my emotions but, now I will not hide my emotions not this time I will fight, I will fight the capitol because things have got to change

MADGE

I sit here on my bed thinking only about what gale and I were talking of last night, and though I would call katniss my best friend, am I ready to start a rebellion, I try and keep my thoughts on this but all I can think of is gale I like him, I've always liked him but he's always loved katniss.

The hunger games are wrong they've always been wrong, but I've never even felt like it had anything to do with me, until my best friend was sent to her probable death, but what can I do who am I to fight the capitol I can't be any help I am the mayors daughter it's always been easy for me I've never gone without, I've never had to go past the fence or into the hob I've never had to worry but maybe I should.

DING DONG I walk down the stairs and find gale standing there looking exhausted "what's wrong?" I ask him

"prim, katniss" he stutters what I knew katniss but prim

"what about prim" I ask

"gone, gone, I didn't do it I let her down my fault" he says

"no it's not your fault" is all I can say

"I had to tell you, but know I should get home" he says, quickl composing himself once again

"okay, thank you gale, I'm so sorry" I say

"I know thanks for listening to me vent lately" he says turning to go

"it was no problem" I say watching him leave. No, no they can't do this they just can't I'm the daughter of the mayor I was always told I need to be strong I need to stay strong

and I did I stay strong every time I know my mother may not come back from the capitol, I shed no tears when my best friend was sent to be murdered, and I do not complain that my father is always gone, I have raised myself and now I must answer my question who am I

I am madge undersee I am the cause of the mockingjay and I will make a difference because things have got to change

PRIM

I am in the meadow with physalis we are talking about the capitol the hunger games, his brother, my sister and what we can do it confuses me but I am being eaten inside out how can I not do something I know that if I try I could do something great if I had help I could lead a rebellion, no I could not but katniss could she could do it but I know that in her mind I am the deciding vote but what am I thinking could I could we. then I think I have always been delicate I have always been silent I have never made a scene, I have never rebelled but every flower has to bloom every primrose, grows it's thorns and then this flower goes from delicate to dangerous and, and I know if she lives katniss will be the mockingjay but I will be the blooming primrose and I will fight because things have got to change!

oh saanap pleeeeeeeeeeease let me know what you thought i know it's a big chapter! i've decided that to encourage people to review i will put up the next chapter after i get 10 reviews on the previous chapter okay so review review! thanks sooooo much