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A/N: I know it's been forever since I last updated. I have no real excuse just the typical real life craziness. Anyways, I thank any who are still sticking with this. You guys are the best! From this point on mpreg will be a major plot point and non-con/rape will be referred to, if any of the two upsets you please turn away now. There will be a flashback to rape in this chapter. The flashback will be in italics.

Through Heartache-Chapter 10

With Mike's mind made up about keeping the baby Donna, Harvey, and Mike eased into a routine for the rest of the associate's first trimester. Mike comes in and does his work. He's actually doing pretty well, especially all things considering. He's getting the job done. He's still more efficient and smarter than the rest of the associates.

Initially, Harvey was concerned that Mike's enthusiasm at work was just masking his true feelings about the rape. But, after taking Donna's advice he decided to see a counselor himself. It's not set thing, he doesn't have a set appointment. He's just seen Tara a couple of times over the last couple of months. He just basically asks how he can help Mike. When to push the kid and when to back off. Tara told Harvey that all he can do is basically keep an eye out and be there for Mike. That based on what Harvey has told her that Mike and he have a pretty open relationship that Mike is pretty honest with Harvey with how he's doing. Harvey knows this. He's the one that picks the kid up from his therapy appointments. Mike is usually brutally honest. He tells Harvey when it's a tough appointment and all he wants to do is scream or cry or not say anything at all. He tells Harvey when all he wants to do is go home and just sit in front of the tv and watch old episodes of Shark Week and pig out on Phish food ice cream. For Harvey he has to continue to do what he's been doing, being there.

Donna already had a special place in Harvey's heart and after everything that has happened over the last three months that special place in his heart for her has gotten even bigger. When she's not giving the other associates death glares after they make a nasty comment about Mike being in the bathroom for the ninth time that day, she's leaving saltines and sprite on Mike's desk. And in between her awesomeness she also has found time to locate and leave on Harvey's desk every piece of literature on carrier pregnancies known to man.

But, at the moment Harvey is not interested in Donna's awesomeness as he walks to her desk briskly before stopping. "Mike, now."

"Harvey, complete sentences. Not caveman." Donna says with a crooked smile.

Harvey rolls his eyes. "Jessica just ambushed me."

Donna looks at him concerned. She doesn't like that look on the man's face. He looks frazzled. Well, as frazzled as Harvey Specter gets. "With what?"

"The Mulligan case. She wants me in Boston by the end of the day."

"I thought that all hands are on deck for the Rodgers case."

"They are except for me," Harvey answers.

"Mike going with you?" Donna asks.

The lawyer shakes his head. "No, Jessica wants him here to help with the Rodgers case."

"Shit."

Harvey nods his head. "I need to tell Mike that I'm going to be out of the office for awhile."

Donna nods her head, "You know for how long?"

He shakes his head. "Hopefully, not long. Four, five days at the most. I need you to keep an eye on Mike. Make sure he's alright."

Donna can't help but smile sadly. Hearing Harvey asking her to look after Mike pulls at her heartstrings. It's a giant middle finger to anyone who says he doesn't have a heart, that he's all business. Only a few select people see that side of the lawyer.

"The last time I saw him he was heading to the records room. Said he couldn't concentrate at his desk, too much noise," Donna tells him. This isn't anything new. Mike was never really a fan of the other associates previously, but now their chiding comments really bothers him, messes with his concentration. The records room is usually a quiet place where he can get his work done, free from annoyances and peering eyes that take particular interest when Mike flinches at a loud noise or a slap on his back or take notice when he has gone to the bathroom to either puke or pee for the second time in a hour.

Harvey nods his head and thanks her before he heads to the direction where she told him his associate was.

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Mike's hutched form over a stack of ledgers doesn't move as Harvey comes closer. Just as he's done over the last three months Harvey makes special note to make his footsteps louder than usual to serve as a notice to the kid that he was no longer alone. "Mike?"

The associate turns around to look at Harvey, highlighter in mouth. "What's up, Harvey?"

The lawyer moves closer to the younger man. He pushes some of the papers over to make room for him to sit on the table. "I have to head up to Boston for a bit."

Mike's eyes remain on the papers in front of him, not looking up at Harvey. "Oh, ok."

"Mike?" Harvey probes gently as he sees Mike's hand clutching the highlighter in his hand tightly. "Mike, look at me." To his credit Mike does as Harvey asks.

"You're gonna have to stay here and work on the Rodgers case," Harvey says almost apologetically.

Mike shakily nods his head and looks back at the phone records in front of him getting back to work. Harvey can't leave things like this. He can't have Mike thinking that he was so quick to leave the kid with all this going on. With Mike alternating between puking his guts up and eating gallons of every imaginable flavor of ice cream under the sun. Not when Mike is still flinching away from the lightest of touches and still refuses to make eye contact unless directed to or reminded by Harvey.

"Look kid, I really don't want to go but I have to. I'll be back as soon as I can. If you want to you can work in my office. Donna can run interference there with the other associates and Louis,"

Mike looks back up, "I'll be okay, Harvey."

Harvey shrugs his shoulders. "Of course you will. Just don't forget to see Dr. Harrington tomorrow."

Mike shakes his head as he returns back to highlighting whatever he is. "I know my schedule."

"I know you do, I'm just reminding you. I know how sometimes you get wrapped up….and Dr. Harrington seems to really be helping you." Harvey doesn't say it aloud but Mike knows what he's talking about. He's referring to the time that Mike woke up in the middle of the night to get a drink of water. He broke the glass and the sound of it sent him into a flashback. He didn't know how long it lasted, but he stayed curled up in a ball against his bed for god knows how long and only became aware that it was daytime when Harvey barged in and found him when the lawyer became concerned when Mike was late for work and wasn't answering his phone.

Mike rubs his eyes tiredly, "That won't happen again."

Harvey nods his head. "It won't because Ray will pick you up in the morning. You're not down there by eight, he's going to call Donna and then you'll have to answer to her."

Mike sighs. "I'm not a kid. I can ride my bike or take a cab."

"You're three months pregnant. You're fucking exhausted. You fell asleep on my couch yesterday at one in the afternoon. I don't trust your fatigued mind you to get you to work on your own."

Knowing that he has already lost the battle or he's simply too tired to argue, Mike gives in. "Fine, you win."

Harvey smiles as he stands up. "Good, I'll try and get back by the end of the week."

Mike nods his head, continuing his highlighting.

"And do me a favor."

"Yeah, what's that?"

"Don't eat just ice cream. East some veggies for God sake. At this rate the kid is gonna have an aversion to anything green," Harvey says.

Mike waves Harvey's suggestion off with a wave of his hand as the lawyer exits the room.

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The next three days are pretty uneventful. Mike is working hard on the Rodgers case, Louis is happy with the information he has gathered. And has mostly left him alone to his own devices. The bagel he had in the morning is still in his stomach, where it should be. And thanks to Harvey's suggestion of using his office, he has been able to stay away from the other associates and their shitty, know-it-all comments. Harvey called him this morning and told him that everything is all set with Mulligan and that he should be back in the office by the end of the day. He's in the middle of finishing up the last of the files on the Rodgers case when he hears a knock on Harvey's door.

"Donna, I promise I'll get something to eat as soon as I'm done with this."

"Not Donna, She's helping Norma with something."

Mike looks up to see Louis standing in the doorway. Just great. All he wants is to finish looking over these papers and grab something to eat before he heads over to Dr. Harrington's. The last thing he wants to do is deal with Louis. He looks back down at the papers in front of him. "What can I do for you Louis? I'm almost done here."

Louis nods his head as he struts over to the table. "I can see that. Then again it must be easy to get your work done when you're hiding away in here."

"If I get my work done why does it matter where I work?" Mike continues working not realizing that Louis is coming closer to him. When Louis suddenly slams his hand down on the table, Mike's head jerks up in fear.

"Boy wonder thinks he's so smart. Thinks he has some right of entitlement. "

Mike's eyes go huge when he hears Louis' words, but suddenly he doesn't hear Louis' voice. He heard these words before, a time when that he wishes he could forget.

"You're not that smart now, are you boy wonder? You honestly think that we wouldn't know that you work for Pearson Hardman Heard about how there's a hot shot new lawyer over there." Kevin spits out as he abruptly removes himself from Mike's abused entrance

With what little fight he still has Mike mutters, "leave me alone."

He hears laughter and a rough smack on his abused backside. "You were Pearson Hardman's bitch, but tonight you were ours."

Fuck, they know. They know why he was there that night. Mike nearly cries in relief when the intrusion is removed from his body. But, he can't. His bottom is on fire, inside and out. His head is throbbing. He wants to pass out but he's afraid what would happen if he does. Then again anything will be better than this.

"Derek, you ready for another round?"

Please say no, Mike pleads silently. He can't do this anymore.

"Nah, I'm good. Don't want your sloppy seconds," replies laughing at his own bad joke. "I already got my piece three times."

Through his aching body Mike can hear a chorus of "No's." and "I'm good's"

"You hear that boy wonder, you served your purpose. We're done with you." Mike just lies there, his body too broken to respond in anyway. In the next second a sharp kick to his head sends his body into blessed unconsciousness.

"Mike! Mike! Jesus, answer me!" Louis pleads.

"No, no, no." Mike whispers with his eyes closed, curling into himself.

Louis goes to catch him afraid that the associate is going to hurt himself by falling off the chair. When his hand touches the younger man's shoulder, the reaction is immediate. Mike flinches away, but Louis still catches him and lowers him to the ground. "What the hell kid?!"

But, Mike is oblivious. He's rocking back and forth on the floor. Not knowing what to do he turns and runs out of the room leaving Mike alone. "No, no, no. Pl-pl-ease l-leave me alone," Mike begs as he continues rocking back and forth.

Minutes later Louis returns with Donna in tow. "Louis, what the fuck happened?!" Donna yells as she lowers herself onto the ground next to Mike.

"I don't know what the hell is going on! I came in here to find out why he's been hiding and he freaked out," Louis answers.

Donna gives him a death glare as she moves closer to Mike on the floor.

"What?! No one tells me anything. I don't know why he flew off the handle."

Donna is about ready to rip the senior partner a new one but is stopped when she hears Mike's heartfelt pleas.

"No, no. Leave me alone," Mike pleads, eyes scrunched shut.

"Shh, Mike. It's okay." Donna says soothingly. Her heart breaking. She wants to touch him to let him know she's there, but she's afraid that her touch will send him further of the edge. "It's Donna. You're okay now. You're safe."

Mike's rocking slows down a little. "That's it, Mike. You're safe. Come on, Mike."

Donna continues telling Mike that he's safe and it seems to work because a few minutes later Mike's rocking ceases all together and he opens his eyes. "Donna?"

She gives him a small, relieved smile. "Yeah, puppy. It's me."

Mike looks around the office confused, but based on the look on his face realization of what has just happened sets in pretty quickly. His lip is quivering when he notices that Louis is in the room.

"Mike, it's okay." Donna tries to reassure him. And before she knows it she has a lap full of a shaking associate. :"Shhh, Mike. It's okay. I gotcha."

Louis looks on the scene in shock. What the hell is going on? Why is Mike Ross literally in Donna's lap after having a meltdown? He has so many questions, but the look on Donna's face right now tells him he better keep his questions to himself at the moment.

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Harvey shakes his head as he passes by the redhead's desk to see that she's not there. Where the hell is she? She's been giving him updates over the last three days he was out of town. Telling him that Mike is getting his work done. Telling him that Mike is leaving the office at a reasonable hour and is eating a bit more balanced. He thought for sure that she would be there waiting to give him the latest update when he returned to the office.

Harvey's so busy looking at his phone checking his email that he doesn't notice the senior partner sitting in his office right away.

"Harvey."

Harvey nearly jumps when he hears the voice. He turns and sees the older man sitting on the couch. "Louis, what are you doing here? Wanna know some dating tips?"

Louis snickers, "Funny."

Harvey smiles at the familiar banter. "Wanna know the name of the nearest preschool so you can scare the little ones?"

"No," Harvey sighs before he opens his mouth again. " I want to know what the hell is going on with Mike Ross."

Hope this chapter was worth the wait!

Chapter 11 Preview: Louis and Harvey talk and Harvey goes to see how Mike is doing.