A/N IM BACK!!

As me and Alan drove to his house I began trying not to think about Jasper or any of the Cullens for that matter it upset me, and Alan noticed "Are you sure you don't want to talk about it Selene, you look really bummed." he said

"I'm sure Alan, I'm not sure you'd believe me anyway's." I said looking at him

"Well, you don't know how much I believe Selene." He said parking his car and turning to look at me "if you ever want to talk just tell me ok?" He said

I nodded "ok." We got out of the car and went into his house

"Hey dad, i'm back and I brought Selene, we'll probley be at the beach." He said and looked at me "So you want to go to the beach?" he asked me

"Yeah, sure." I said

I soon relised whenever I was with him then and there I never thought about what happened or anything eles I only worried about how long we could stay out and wether his dad cared or not he just shook his head and said no but the thingis one of us would to have to leave sooner or later and neither of us wanted to.

"I'll be over again soon Alan." I said he smiled

"Fine, but next time be happier." he said I nodded and hugged him really fast then ran to the borfer line, as soon as I did though I saw a pair of headlights come on I walked to the passenger side and saw Jasper "You know I'm well capable of driving my own car." I said he shrugged

"well your mom's worring where you are, I figured I drive faster so i can get you home faster." he said

"Jasper, she's already worring what the hell does it matter?" I asked

"Just get in Selene." he said

I sighed giving in I didn't want to argue with him or anyone eles for that matter I opened the car door and slid in putting on my seatbelt and watching as everything passed by quickly.

"Listen Selene i'm sorry no one told you and you found out like this but you can't stay mad forever." he said

"Oh yeah? watch me!" I said and folded my arms across my chest ignoring him.

He sighed and pulled into my drive way I unbuckled myself and got out stomping up to the door and opening it I walked past my mom and upstairs I saw from the corner of my eye him shaking his head then smiling I ran to my bedroom walked in and shut my door and felt the burn of tears "No,no,no,no,NO!" I whispered and threw myself on my bed I wasn't sure but, I somehow knew he was right I didn't want to be mad at him or him be mad at me forever and then him just dissapper and never come back, I didn't want not to see his perfect face or not hear his voice, it bothered me thinking about it.

But, what was I thinking?! Was I in love with a vampire? No that couldn't be it but still there wasn't anything eles to explain this "Damn it, no!" I said to my self "I am so not turning out like mom!" I said and then walked to my window and looked out it "Oh man, this sucks!" I said then hears someone

"What sucks?" Jasper asked me

"Why the hell are you in my room?!" I asked

"Sorry your mom told me to get you she fixed diner" he said

I sat down "Yeah, well i'm not really hungry." I said then he looked at my face

"were you crying?" he asked

"Yes." I said then pulled my knees up to my face and sat there

"Listen, your right, I can't stay mad forever." I said then he grinned

"And i'm sorry for the way I was acting." I added he just smiled "Why are you smiling like that?" I asked

"No reason." he said "I'll leave if you want." added

"No, you can stay if, you can deal with me being abit upset, i'm just thinking alot today."

"About?"

"Nothing you'd want to know."

"And you know that how?"

"Because, i'm still not sure about my own thoughts." I said and looked at him he was sitting next to me on my bed watching me as I became inthrawed in my thoughts.

(i'll post more when I can.)