"I have no idea what I am going to wear tonight!" I yelled into my closet.
"Here." Alice and Rose came in and got to work.
They handed me a black strapless dress and I snuck on my black converse. Please don't find out. Please don't find out! I kept chanting in my head.
"You're lucky we love you." Alice said looking in my jewelery box. I blushed.
"Yeah, I guess I am." Alice handed me pearl earrings, and a necklace with a black heart. Did this mean something?
"Now-" Rose was interrupted by a knock on the front door.
"I'm scared."
"Don't be, you both love each other. Are you going to tell him?" Asked Alice walking with me down the stairs.
"Not yet. Still early." I nodded. This was the right thing. I wasn't hurting him. Was I? Was I really hurting him?
"Yeah, us too. Go answer the door." Rose had a thing for pushing people.
I opened the door revealing my own personal sex god.
"You look beautiful." Edward commented. I blushed as usual.
"You don't to bad yourself Mr. Cullen." I smiled. He opened the door for me and helped me in. He got in and we were off.
"Where are you taking me?" I asked looking as we got into the darker part of Forks.
"Somewhere." Was all he said.
"Nice place." I muttered sarcastically. We arrived at a path. A dirty path. "Great place." I got out and looked around finding no place to even sit.
"Well good thing you brung walking shoes." Edward chuckled taking my hand.
"Yeah, good thing." I smiled up at him. We walked until we got to a veranda that had a table for two.
"Does this change your spirits?" Asked Edward.
"Yes, it does." I kissed his cheek but his hand pulled me back.
"Not yet. Dance with me." He whispered the last sentence.
"I can't dance." I could tell I wasn't getting out of this easily. "Fine." I walked on the little dance floor Edward put outside and the piano started.
"Making my way downtown
Walking fast, faces pass and I'm homebound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way through the crowd
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you tonight
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And wonder if you ever think of me
Cause everything's so wrong and I don't belong
Living in your precious memory
Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by, oh
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you tonight
And I, I don't wanna let you know
I, I drown in your memory
I, I don't wanna let this go
I, I don't
Making my way downtown
Walking fast, faces pass and I'm homebound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way through the crowd
And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass us by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you, oh, oh
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
If I could just hold you tonight."
The whole time we were dancing, I felt like it was right. Nothing could change. Except one thing. Me being a princess and all, and him, being a small town boy.
"What are you thinking about?" Edward lifted my chin so I was looking at him.
"Nothing." I shook my head.
"It's something." He nodded.
"Nothing, don't worry." I smiled weak and he knew it.
"Can you tell me when you're ready?" He was pushing me.
"Yeah, that was the plan anyway." I kissed his cheek like I did earlier.
"Let's get dinner started." Edward and I walked over to the table for two and sat down.
So far, everything was going smoothly. So far.
"That was the best date I've ever been on!" I was excited that our date went well.
"Haha, calm down, girly." Edward saying girly was the funniest thing ever.
"Girly? I hope I'm your girly." I leaned over the clutch and kissed his neck making him take a sharp intake of breathe. "Breathe." I laughed.
"Whatever." He rolled his eyes.
"I was only playing around." I scoffed.
"Getting me happy over here and not in the good way is not just playing around." He sneered. I was taken back. He was so harsh.
He pulled infront of my house and we sat there. Just sitting. No talking. This was different.
"Listen, I can't get happy like that unless you want me to take you over the whole car." That doesn't so bad.
"Uh, I'm sorry. It wasn't you, it was me. Listen, meet me at the park on Sunday at 12 noon. We need to talk." I kissed his cheek and got out of the Volvo and walked into the house.
"If I could just see you
If I could just hold you tonight."
The lyrics were stuck in my head as I layed down, staring up at the ceiling. I started crying. I was leaving possibly Monday so I was telling him Sunday. Is that to late? Or to early? I don't want me to be in Jordan and call him up and then tell him. That would be so wrong. I didn't want to tell him in the car because I would like the 5th wheel while hanging out with the others. Edward probably wouldn't anything to do with me. Emmett would think it was cool being royalty and all. Jasper would love to learn about the history with past ancestors and what the war is really about. Edward would feel hurt and betrayed and never want to see me again.
While staying in Forks, I learned some stuff.
1. Falling in love is tough.
2. Meeting new people is nice.
3. You may be heading back somewhere far away but still feel like you're dying.
4. Edward Cullen can kiss!
And 5. Being someone who you want to be, can actually be fun. Until you have to your old self again.
I would be missing alot of people it I left. Angela, Ben, Emmett, Jasper, Marie, Esme, Carlisle, Rosalie, Alice, Jacob, and Edward.
Leaving all them would be like giving away a puppy when you just found it. Or worse. Think of it like this: You have this teddy bear but when your mom gives birth to another and they can't sleep. So your dad says give it to them and they'll get you an new one. You give it to them and about 2 weeks later, you still haven't gotten your teddy bear. So wrong.
"Just think, you'll be home and then this never happened." I tried telling myselft but it didn't work.
"This did happen." I told myself. It was never going to dissapear. It was there. Forever. Just like the whole in my heart is because I'm leaving Edward soon.
How was it? I thought I would put some real Bella thoughts. What is going to happen?