Hm, not exactly sure where this instead came from. Dedicated to Nella-from-the-batcave. Sorry it turned out differently from what you asked.

I don't own it.

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Lavi lay on the soft grass, hands behind his head, a warm breeze slowly blowing the clouds across the sky. He sighed and smiled. He hadn't simply relaxed like this in a long time, and now that he had, he realized how much fun goofing off was.

He hoped he'd be able to get up soon though, or he'd miss the train.

'Lavi,' Allen's face appeared above him, blocking the view of the clouds, 'The next train leaves in half an hour.'

Lavi nodded, pretending to listen. He stared up into Allen's eyes. He'd noticed recently that they weren't his. Yes, they were still the same shape and colour, and they were quite obviously on their intended body, but looking at them… You didn't feel like you were talking to Allen anymore.

His face was different too. He still looked like Allen… But what happened to that smile that could light up a room? What happened to the adorable pout, the annoyed-with-Kanda angry face, or the nervous uh-what face?

The only expression the boy seemed to carry these days was of blank seriousness. Hell, Kanda Yu had more expressions then that!

'Lemme ask you something,' Lavi yawned as he looked up seriously at the now-sixteen year old, 'Who am I talking to right now?'

'What kind of a question is that? You're talking to me.'

'No, I mean…. Am I talking to Allen, or am I talking to the fourteenth?'

Silence. Lavi sighed. He wasn't sure who this boy was anymore, but it wasn't Allen… At least not fully.

'I'm going to check around for information on the Earl-' Allen made to turn around and walk away, but Lavi reached up, gave a sharp tug to the hem or the exorcist's coat, and Allen landed with a soft thud on the grass next to him.

'Allen, you don't need to work all the time. The Earl has been pretty quiet lately since the attack on headquarters; I think we can afford to take half an hour while waiting for our train.'

'But-'

'Just be a good little Moyashi and lie there, ok?' Lavi turned his head to grin cheekily at him. Allen looked back at him, a slight pout crossing his features. The redhead's smile softened as he bent his elbow up to cup the boy's cheek in his hand. There was definitely some of the old Allen left in there, at least a little.

The Bookman let his hand fall back on the grass. The breeze was warm, so he took off his coat and folded it under his head as a pillow. He sighed contently and stared up at the whites and blues of the sky.

'See that cloud?' Lavi pointed up above them, 'It looks like a flower.'

'It does?' Allen's voice lacked interest.

'Yeah. See? There are the petals, those are the leaves... That's the stalk... What kind do you think it is?'

'Does it matter?'

'Yup,' Lavi nodded happily, 'For all we know we might have discovered a new kind of flower, and we have to name it before someone else finds it and steals our flower-shaped-cloud-finding glory.'

'Fine...' Allen sighed, lacking real interest, 'It's a cloud rose.'

'Pretty name, though lacking in creativity. You really think it looks like a rose? I thought it was a daisy or something.'

'No, it's definitely a rose. It was the way the petals sort of looked like they were swirling.'

'Hm, true... Though thanks to this breeze it kind of looks like a bunny now.'

'Well of course you would see a bunny, Usagi.'

Lavi chuckled and shifted a little on the grass. Allen sighed.

'Why does Kanda call you Usagi anyway?'

'Cos my favourite animal is a rabbit, and he thinks calling me that annoys me for some reason.'

Allen made an uncommitted noise and they lapsed into silence. Lavi sighed heavily and smiled a little. Allen's transformation into the fourteenth had not been like they had anticipated. It was a slow personality change, the boy eventually gaining more memories and desires of the fourteenth and forgetting what he used to be like... What he used to love. Lavi wondered if he could even remember when the two had been lovers. They hadn't broken up, but you couldn't really break up when you couldn't remember being together. It made him depressed, he felt empty inside that the boy he loved had practically forgotten the moments where they had been happiest.

'Allen...' Lavi sat up, 'Do you... Do you still love me? Or have the feelings faded away?'

'I.. I don't know, Lavi. I can't remember much about when I did...'

Lavi sighed. He still loved Allen, and he doubted he would ever stop. He hated the damned fourteenth and what he was doing to Allen. The boy deserved to be happy, not used as a puppet to finish the job. It just wasn't fair.

He wanted Allen back.

He turned to look down at the exorcist lying on the grass.

'I'm going to kiss you now.'

He placed his hands on the sides of Allen's face, leant down and placed his lips on his. Allen seemed neither pro nor con for this action, though as Lavi pulled away, he saw a small smile on the boy's face, and a familiar shine in his silver eyes. However, the moment was gone in a second, and it might have well been just a trick of the light. He sighed and stood up.

'Lets go, train must be here soon...'

Allen nodded, and Lavi started to walk up the hill towards the station, Allen following. He wasn't sure what he had wanted to achieve by kissing him. It could have been because he loved him, because he wanted a sense of normality, it could have been he was hoping that maybe he could remind Allen of who he was and what they were to each other once.

Or it could have been all of the above.

He just wanted Allen back, but he doubted he ever would.

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Aw, sad.

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