Sobs escaped from Danny's lips, breaking the silence that invaded his little living room. A few hours ago, he came in a rush, needing to build his fortress back as Flack broke them all in a night to conquer and burn everything on his way on. Now he was still in the same position he assumed after he collapsed seconds after entering his home. Time was counting by his breaths, and now those were cut by hiccups caused by all the crying he made.

At this moment, the air seemed rare, dirty by all his desperate breaths, and Danny felt as if he couldn't breathe anymore. His heart was beating strongly in his chest, making his sound the only thing audible.

His vision was blurry, and all the tears he let escape from his eyes maybe were the reason for that, but right now, nothing matters anymore. His world broke that day, and all he could do right now was to let it go, because he knew anything would go back to normal after this. He had a glimpse of what happiness may be, but all was now evaporated, leaving nothing but a sweet memory followed by his worst nightmare.

A knock in his door made him go out of his bubble, maybe it was Flack, who came to say everything was alright, that he was still his friend and he was sorry for all that happened. He got up from the floor and resisted the urge to run to the door. Maybe it was Flack, maybe it could be Flack. As he opened the door he had to close his eyes to block them from the light outside.

"Danny, is something wrong? Are you ok?" This wasn't Flack voice, and suddenly Danny felt even worst than he felt before.

"David, I… I'm sorry, David" he said as his words got stuck in his mouth. He really couldn't say anything else, he hadn't though about him, nor today nor yesterday with Flack, and this wasn't unfair for David.

"Can I come in?" Danny stepped away from the door, and David came inside closing the door after him. "What happened, Dan?"

Danny started crying again, he didn't wanted to cry, he didn't had the right to do so after he realised what he did to him, what he did to both of them. "I'm sorry, David, I don't deserve you, I though I was getting over him, but… I'm sorry David, I'm really sorry"

"I don't understand, Dan, you need to be more concrete. Dan, what's happening here?" David took a look around and saw what was left of the framed picture and the vase. He looked at Danny and took him by his arm, directing him to the couch, where them booth seated.

"I'm sorry David"

"I need you to tell me what's happening, Dan." He took Danny's chin and directed his face to him "Look at me, Dan, what's wrong?"

"I slept with Flack, David, I'm sorry I did this to you. You are so good to me, and now I do something like this to you, and I didn't even think about you until you came here" Danny was crying more now, making his words difficult to understand. "I don't deserve you, I'd understand if you leave and don't want to know anything more from me anymore, I'm an asshole who ruins the best relationship I've had in a long time"

"You're not like this because you made this to me, Danny, there is something more"

"And what does that matter? I'm worse than a dirty scum bag. You do deserve something more, I don't have the right to be happy" David stood up and left the couch as Danny started crying more. A few moments later David came back to a sobbing and shaking Danny.

"Take this" David offered him a cup filled with a warm liquid as he took the place he was in before.

"What's this?" he asked as he took the cup, burning his cold hands.

"Lime blossom tea. It will make you relax a bit. You need to cam down or you're going to have a heart attack."

"Why are you being so nice with me after what I've done to you?" Danny asked as he started drinking it. It fell to his empty stomach and then he noticed he hadn't had anything to eat since yesterday.

"I knew you were going to left me. From the first time, when we met in that dirty bar, I knew you were going to left me, and I knew it would be because of him."

"And then, why did you stay, and why are you staying now?"

"I cherish every moment we spent together, don't get me wrong. I saw then you were a interesting man, one of those persons who are able to have a conversation, who take care of you in the worst moments and I really wanted to know how it was having someone like that in my life. And I'm staying now because I know what it is to be heartbroken because a wrong decision and I don't want you to know that." David stroke Danny's air as he took another sip of the tea. "And don't worry about me, I really knew this wasn't going to last, you're too good to be with me"

"No, I'm a bad person, I did this to you, and also to him. He really didn't want me, I forced him, and now I've lost everything." Danny's tears resurged in his eyes, even if the tea really did relax him.

"You forced him? How? Did you use your gun? Did you?"

"No, we were drunk, and I took that opportunity" Danny stared the cup in his hands, that now weren't shaking.

"I've seen pictures from this man, and I really can't see him being forced by someone like you. How did it happen?"

Danny stared at David "You really want to know?"

David took a breath and nodded. "Right now, I'm not your boyfriend anymore. I'm just your friend. You've told me a lot of things before, things about him, so it is like I know you both. Don't worry about my feelings, I tell you I had the idea this was going to happen sooner or later, even if a part of me wanted you to stay with me. But I knew you were in love with him, and those feeling can't be changed easily. I want to help you, but you need to trust me."

"It was a very difficult case, and a very hard one, so when we solved it we agreed to go have a few drinks." Danny drank all the remains of his tea in a sip. Even if he was feeling this was going to hurt him, he really needed to talk with someone. "We got drunk, and he offered to crash at his home. Once there, we talked and then, we started kissing, one thing lead another and I woke up on his bed. When he woke up, he freaked out, he told me it was my fault, he didn't need that. I fled here and then you came."

"Did you start it?"

"I think we both started it, I'm not sure, I was drunk"

"From where I stand, I can tell you people drunk may do thinks sober wouldn't. You wanted it, there is no way you can deny it, but maybe, somehow, he did wanted it too"

"You should have seen his face ht morning after. That wasn't the loving stare of someone who did want to have sex with his best friend."

"Sometimes people have to get used to their own desires because they're not what other may expect for them. With this I'm not telling you he's as in love as you are, just that maybe he had the desire to know what it feels like, and knowing you can show him, adding a few beers, you have a moment of happiness, only, sometimes, that happiness is something you don't expect, something you though forgiven, something you can't really admit yourself the fact that you achieved it." David stroked Danny's back as he speak, trying to ease him.

"And what can I do?"

"There is nothing you can do, just wait and see his reaction. It doesn't matter all I can tell you to help you get better, in the end, the only thing that matters is what he's going to do."

Danny tried to ease the knot he had in his throat, it was difficult to breathe, it was difficult to live with this, but he really had to make this question "And what will I do if he don't want to be with me? What if he… don't want to be near me anymore?"

"I know this will be difficult, but you'll have to let him go. You can't force anyone to be with you, and if you could, you would never be happy. I know it would be painful, but there is nothing you can do." The remains of hope Danny had fell to the floor, as his body felt numb for seconds. He really never contemplated a life without Flack, and wasn't sure he could really make it possible. He was used to have him around whenever he needed, he was used to call him whenever he felt alone, in danger, or simply sad. He didn't knew what would had he done if any of those times he hadn't called him, if there wasn't the possibility of Flack beside him, and that scared him more than the loneliness he felt in his heart all this time.

"You need to rest. Take a shower, I'll make you something to eat and then you should go take some sleep." David stood up, offering his hand to help him up. Danny looked at him, took his hand and, when he was up, took David in his arms.

"I can't say how sorry I am I ruined this. You're great, and, if things would have been different, I'd love to fall in love with you" said Danny. David held him and hugged him, trying to reassure him everything would be alright someday, even if he had no idea if that could be true.

"It would be great to take those decisions, but we're not allowed. To tell you the truth, I never though I could fall in love with you. You're great, but not my kind of great. And I think we're better as friends. I met you in a bad moment, and, to tell you the truth, I was not in my best moment neither. " Danny reached back to look at him. David smiled him and Danny tried to smile. "Go and take a shower. I'll make you a soup." After he said that, David released him and turned around. Danny looked at him, sighed, and directed himself to the bathroom.

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Danny was unable to look himself at the mirror. Dirty was a concept he used for himself before, and that's how he really felt. If he could erase the last 24 hours he would do it, no doubt about it. Maybe the sex was one of the best he ever had, but the consequences are too hard to deal, and every second he spent thinking about it, more he wanted to disappear forever and never came back.

Looking at his reflection in the mirror, he could see the marks of their lovemaking. A hand print was visible in his right hip, and his neck showed at least three bites. Right now, those marks were painful to see, knowing Flack was regretting the night they spent together.

David was right, he should make a decision so he could live with his rejection, because after this morning there weren't many possibilities the result would be good.

And as the faucet dripped in the shower, he thought how much he would miss New York.

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