Disclaimer: I don't own GLEE or its characters though I wish I did.

Author's Note: Hey world! Here's another chapter and boy is it a big one! It took me a while to write but I like it...a lot. I can't decide if I'll do another chapter tonight or not...I have to get up at an impossible time tomorrow so we'll see. Thanks to all who reviewed! We're nearing the end! Now enjoy this DEEP chapter...hopefully Finn redeems himself for Rachel and you guys :)

Sleep layers her voice but he knows that this time she's awake. He watches her intently as she scoots up, rubbing her eyes before looking at him, her brown irises adorning disbelief. He stares at her again, marvelling at her beauty again before whispering: "Hey."

"Finn" she repeats, her eyes now guarded. "What are you doing here? How did you get in?"

"The window" he replies softly. "A-and I'm here because we really need to talk."

"I don't think that's a good idea" she protests hoarsely. She rolls away from him, hugging the blankets protectively and avoiding eye contact. "I-I think you should leave."

"Rach" he murmurs. She chances a glance at him under thick lashes, her expression heartbroken. "I really need to-"

"What's left to say?" she asks quietly. "You said enough."

"Please" he pleads. "You owe me nothing...but I owe you a lot...and this is one of those things."

She stares at him for a long moment before nodding. "Okay" she breathes.

"Thank you" he says graciously. "Afterwards, you can push me out the window if you want to." The corners of her lips quirk up. He smiles at her, sighing.

"I'm stupid, Rach" he begins with a shrug. "I'm stupid and I'm mean and I'm so selfish. I'm horrible with words and expressing my feelings and no wonder my two girlfriends cheated on me because I'm so stupid-"

"Please don't talk about yourself like that" she interrupts pleadingly. "I hate when you say that stuff about yourself..."

"But it's true" he says regretfully. "I was horrible to you. I was self-centered and needy and I took advantage of your forgiveness and kindness. You did nothing but build me up and encourage me and love me unconditionally...you made me so happy. And I wasn't good enough. I made you feel insecure and small. And-and I...I hate myself." His voice cracks emotionally. "You have no idea how angry I am for being so horrible. There's no excuse...I was blind and-and...so frigging selfish. I didn't realize how much I had until you were gone."

He stares at her blank face, his eyes flooding with unshed tears. "But just now" he continues with a shaky breath. "I had a...a...a...uh...what's the word? Homer Simpson had it in the Simpspn's movie...with the boob lady..."

"An epiphany" she says with a chuckle.

"Right! An epiphany." He smiles at her sadly, the tightening in his throat making it hard to breath. "I was just sitting here looking at you and I-I-I...I changed." He shrugs lightly, his voice strained. "Everything changed. Suddenly, I wasn't just Finn anymore...I was Finchel. I didn't want to be just Finn. Because just Finn was mean and selfish and man...man...manip...uh..."

"Manipulative."

"Yah! Manipulative and just...stupid. I know it sounds weird but I felt my...perspective change." He ponders for a moment, organizing his thoughts. "Kurt made me watch this movie the other day. It was the one with that vampire guy and the Bella person and the guy with the abs...'Twilight saga' or something...'Eclipse'! That was it. But anyways I wasn't really paying attention to much...well I did for the fighting scene which -by the way- wasn't so bad but anyway the guy with the muscles in the rare moment he had a shirt on was with the girl and he said something that just stuck with me for some reason. I get it now. He was talking about...erm...imprinting I think and he said something like: 'When you see her...everything changes. Suddenly it's not gravity keeping you here...it's her. You'd do anything...be anything for her'."

Rachel's eyes widen as he pauses, taking a breath. "When I looked at you and I saw that you'd been crying...I felt so much...stuff pile onto me" he murmurs. "You were all that mattered. I didn't care about all the other crap going on right now...it was just you. And it'll always be just you. Don't get me wrong, I loved you before...a lot. But all the crap going on made me realize how deep our love really is.

"I made so many mistakes with you, Rach, because everything else in my life was going wrong and I took it out on you. It's something I wish I could take back so badly. I hurt you and I abandoned you and I kept screwing everything up because I wasn't good enough. But you kept giving me chances and I took advantage of it because you were the only person who didn't make me feel stupid and believed in me. I didn't know how to handle it. Then when you'd slip away, I'd get all caveman on you and make an idiot of myself...Jesse and Jackson being examples. I'm so, so, so sorry for being so horrible to you, Rachel. You don't deserve it...you deserve so much better than what I've given you. I wish I could take it all back...but I know I can't as much as I want to. But maybe that's what will make us better and stronger in the long run. We learn and...mature and get better. We come out stronger."

He reaches for her hand and rejoices when she doesn't pull away. "I know I can't give you much" he says, his chest tight with tears. "I know that you could do so much better. But what I can give you is all my love. I can -and do- love you more than it's possible...more than life. I'll stand by you and stand up for you and be with you every step of the way. I'll make it my mission to be whatever you need. You're everything to me, Rachel. You're my world...my heart...my soul. I want to make you so happy because that's what you deserve." He chokes on a sob, not bothering to be embarrassed. "You deserve to be so happy. And I'm so sorry I didn't make you feel loved or appreciated or secure. But I promise to make you feel that way every second of every day from now on...even if you don't take me back or love me anymore. I'll be anything for you. I'll be your friend, your worst nightmare...anything. As long as you're happy, I'll be anything you want me to be. But no matter what, I'll love you till the bitter end. I wasn't good enough but I want to be...I will be.

"I've never been clear with you about how much I love you and what I love about you. You're absolutely smoking hot, Rach...it's unbelievable. But you're also gorgeous...beyond words. But you're just as beautiful on the inside. You're so smart...you're like a walking dictionary and I love it. You're so talented and driven. But you're also kind and caring and honest. You love whole-heartedly and you're so generous. You're quirks are adorable, too...like when you're really focused; you're eyes get this spark and you wrinkle your nose. And when you get worked up, you talk a lot and use huge words to get your point across when no one can follow what you're saying...it's so awesome. You have no idea how proud I am when you do that. And when you're really, really happy; your smile is soft and then grows big and it's my absolute favourite. I could list stuff I love about you for hours...for days.

"I know stuff's been said and done but I know our love is strong enough to get past this. I don't blame you for being angry at me or wanting to push me out the window but I'll always come back, begging for forgiveness...unless you want me to jump off a cliff then I'll find the highest one. My point is that -past all my rambling- is that I've been...erm...uh...neglecting your needs. I want to make you feel heard and loved and appreciated and so, so happy...so tell me what you want me to be. Whatever you want from me, you've got it. If you want me to leave you alone, I will. If you want me to fight and work hard to make this up to you, I'll do it with a smile...unless you don't want that then I won't. But if I see you're not happy...well then that changes things." He chuckles, squeezing her hands. "Please...I want you to be happy. I don't care about what I want anymore. I'm telling you...I've changed. It's Finchel against the world. I can't promise you that I won't make mistakes -'cause I will- but I can promise you that I'll make up for every one. I love you, Rachel Barbara Berry, more than it's possible and I promise to be whatever you need."

The tears that flow freely down his face do not phase him in any way as he stares at the girl he loves more than words, gauging her reation. She stares back at him, her lips parted and her chocolate eyes wide in surprise. He fights the grin, taking pride in the fact that he made Rachel Berry speechless.

"Oh, Finn..."

Well, he made her speechless for a few seconds.

AN#2: SO DEEP! haha I think Finn found himself! What will Rachel's response be? What will yours be? Who knows! I don't ;)

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