A/N: This might be a long author's note and I apologize in advance, but I feel the need to share my thoughts about Hibike's last chapter. First of all, I still believe in my ship so for me, not all is lost. Of course it was a tough chap and I was speechless during the longest 23 minutes and 39 seconds of my life but one thing I've learned by being a shipper for more than 15 years is that the hope is in me even if the real deal doesn't deliver.

I've been there for Sailor Moon's Haruka and Michiru [they are indeed canon but you never see them kiss, not even in manga], Mai Hime's Natsuki and Shizuru [and all the yandere involved], Yumi and Sachiko [they don't deliver at all but the heavy vibes are there], Ritsu and Mio [the yuri shipping is really hard on this one but the product didn't deliver per se], heck even classics like Utena and Himemiya and a lot more but Kumiko and Reina have such chemistry that is as close as the first pairing I mentioned and we're talking about the original yuri shipping here so I won't be demoralized and will continue writing about them because I like them as characters.

We all knew that KyoAni wasn't going to deliver a proper yuri shipping because that's the way they're but [and let me tell you the 'but' is critical here] so what? life doesn't end here and trust me, it hurts but the ship won't die as long as you believe in it, trust me on that, if not, ask all the sailor moon fanfic writers that haven't stopped even if the original anime finished in 1996 even if it had a new version with way less shipping material since 2013 [I'm including myself on that list too even if one of my biggest fics is on hiatus].

So my dear writers/readers, don't lose the hope and let's continue writing sweet KumiRei love until the end of time. I will root my girls till the end of the show and beyond that, they deserve it and we know it.

Sorry about the long rant but I needed to voice my thoughts.

A/N 2: Replies to your kind reviews [thank you for reading my stories]

VolpineGrinz: I love writing about Reina, she's such a childish character with so many layers that I enjoy to peel off. She's selfish, ambitious and direct but also sweet and caring on her own twisted way, her love is hard to understand but it's deep. I will continue writing about her because I enjoy it so much, that doesn't guarantee that she will have a happy ending all the time, though. Thanks for taking your time to read my stories.

MakaS0ul: I enjoy immature Reina, she's the best girl. Possessive Reina is awesome to write too, thanks for reading.

dinnca: I love both but Kumiko is a piece of work too.

Guest: Thanks for reading.

This chapter is on first person. Kumiko's views on things, not as bitter as you might think but hopeful. She's a masochist, after all.

Enjoy!

Masochist

Since I saw you the first day of high school on that chilly afternoon during band practice and you walked into that room with such determination, looking all gorgeous and regal I couldn't stop myself but blush.

You might wonder why, well I think because I am attracted to beautiful things. You would say that I am terrible but it's true, you are magnificent, gorgeous, unreachable and way out of my league.

Hey, I know my limitations…

That is the reason why it was so difficult to say sorry about my stupid comment during our last middle school competition but, I know that deep inside you felt the same way, because let's face it, you were very good but a band is composed with more than a talented member, it's supposed to transmit a message through their music and our middle school band sucked, period. I did apologize, though.

That time we walked home, I fell under your spell. You turned around and smiled at me with such tenderness that I knew I had no chance of escaping anymore, it's not that I wanted to anyways.

Oh, and don't get me started on how the light bathed you while you ran your soft fingers through your dark mane and you tilted your perfect head, it was just so perfect that I thought I was dreaming.

Have I ever told you how cute you look when you blush? Like that time when we were trying our band costumes for the SunFest I couldn't help but stare at you and you showed me that endearing blush, because I was checking you out.

Yeah, I do check you out, like, a lot.

One thing that I am grateful to myself was the moment I actually did something brave and grabbed your hand when Shuuichi was attempting to make me go with him to the Agata Festival. It might look out of the blue but that day I went outside to build my courage to ask you out, I was so lucky that my subconscious did it for me.

Hi five there my brain, you're finally worth the trouble you give me in school subjects…

Ugh but man, how heavy is my euphonium but you know what? The moment I saw you with that beautiful white dress, you looked like a fairy and I knew that if I looked in any other direction; my eyes would lose the sense of seeing colors because you became the source of all the colors in my eyes. Your confession of love is engraved in my soul, by the way.

Now I have a question that continues haunting me, would it be so bad that we kissed that night at Mt. Daikichi?

Probably it was for the best because the next day you confessed your love for Taki-sensei and I panicked. I try to be a good sport and support you but there I realized that I am not the one with the twisted personality. But I couldn't be apart from you; I was too addicted to your kind of love.

It is bittersweet but come on; we're talking about the hottest girl in concert band here.

And then the auditions, in all honesty, I thought that Natsuki-senpai was going to get it that is why I was taken aback when sensei chose me. Of course I thought you kicked ass and got the solo due to your own merit so, when they put you to re audition, I thought it was horrible and I decided to stand by your side while my heart skipped several beats at your proximity.

Really Reina you're going to give me heart attack one of these days.

You won as expected because you were the best, after all. And well, we won the whole thing and I knew that practice will get harder but I didn't mind, you will be next to me.

But really, six a.m.?

You're going to be the end of me because I do love to sleep, you know?

Oh, but made it up to me inviting me to the Ujigawa firework festival and enjoying the closeness with me. I did feel that the moment all the purples and pinks painted the sky our hearts beat as one and my heart was covered by the warmth of your touch.

I know that I was too involved in all the messes with Mizore/Nozomi-senpai plus Asuka-senpai's but you were in my mind all the time, never doubt that.

If you ask me about my feelings, I would doubt and try to keep you at arm's length because talking about deep feelings is not my thing but hey, you took me to our very private sanctuary to talk about Taki-sensei, and your not so healthy fixation with him.

I do understand you, trust me, I do. I don't see it as a betrayal but the place you can be your truly self without pretensions and that is why I appreciate the fact of being in speaking terms again, your silence was slowly killing me, trust me on that.

Talking about what you said, I felt that I didn't have any other option but root for you but let's be honest, your love for Taki-sensei is doomed before even become being real, he could be your dad, for God's sake.

I'll just wait for you to realize it by yourself, it's better that way.

One thing that creep me out was joining you to locate Taki-sensei's wife grave. Come on, to be honest that was a very weird thing to do unless…you're trying to have some closure.

Is that what I think it was? In all honesty, I really hope so.

Call me delusional but that time in the dam was blissful, your trumpet didn't sound haunting but hopeful. A heavy weight was lifted from your shoulders and now you can see the road ahead because you moved on, I know you did, I saw through you.

What about me? Well, I will make sure to be there to hold your hand and walk next to you.

I am not a hypocrite, if you want to define me, just call me a masochist in love. I will get the girl in the end, you'll see…

A/N: I hope you enjoyed it, review?