I got some small facts from the Jedi Apprentice Series just for an FYI and so it's not a copy right.

Qui-Gon sat in the living room in silence. Memories of last night haunting him like the memories of Xanatos and their adventures together as Jedi Master and Apprentice. The feeling of guilt consumed him like fire in a forest. He remembered Obi-Wan trying to fight off those punks, only to lose and taken away. Constella had gone out for awhile and left Qui-Gon and the younger two with a trusted neighbor. Qui-Gon felt strange, like something was missing. Never has he felt this close to anyone. But why was he feeling close to anyone? Obi-Wan was just his padawan, an apprentice he agreed to train, nothing more and nothing less. Constella, Acleara and Nathaniel were Obi-Wan's family, Qui-Gon hardly knew them. But why was he feeling so guilty? Why was he feeling sad? Why was his heart aching so?

Constella called earlier telling him she would be gone out for awhile longer to a place called 'Wild West'. Qui-Gon wanted to argue that she shouldn't go out at a time like this, but she hung up before he could say anything. She cried through out the night and was silent the whole day, she wouldn't speak to anyone or even step outside. She didn't let Acleara go to school or take Nathaniel to day care. She refused to let them out of her sight, refused to let them outside or near a window. Qui-Gon could sense her fear and uncertainty. Obi-Wan was already lost. She couldn't bear to let her daughter and youngest son go.

Qui-Gon felt a strong disturbance in the force, something was happening. But what? Qui-Gon relaxed and focused on what it was. It was slightly weak but he could still see it. Was it Obi-Wan? Did he escape?

No, this feeling is more overwhelmed with distress Qui-Gon said to himself.

His eyes shot open, something was wrong with Constella. Qui-Gon quickly and silently out the door and ran into the town. Trying to be mindful of the cars and other passer-bys as he ran. He ran until he was in front of a bar, he straightened his Earth clothes and walked forward. He took one step forward and the door flung open. A human with blond hair fell forward and into Qui-Gon's arms.

Helping the human back up, he found Constella swaying back and forth in a drunken stupor.

"Stella are you alright?" He asked, remembering to call her by her Earth name in public. She looked up at him. Her once bright blue eyes were clouded and red rimmed, her breath reeked of musty water and some other chemical Qui-Gon couldn't describe.

"Oh great it's you." She said in a rude tone. Qui-Gon was slightly surprised, her proper behavior was gone and was replaced with rudeness and carelessness.

"Are you alright?"

"I don't...hic...know. Do I look alright?" She giggled as she swayed in Qui-Gon's arms. "Hey you're holding me the way Be-Ji held me. You're not flirting with me are ya?"

"No of course not." Qui-Gon replied quickly, hiding his embarrassment.

"Yeah that's what they all say."She scowled as she dragged her feet up the street. Qui-Gon followed behind her.

"You wanna know why no other Master would take him as an apprentice?" She asked and Qui-Gon shook his head." Because they all knew who he was, who his father was and they feared him."She exaggerated her words in a dramatic way." He was so close to his 13th birthday and he wasn't chosen. I hoped he would return home and I could go back to protecting him my way. But you just had to say yes!" She turned and shouted." You had to take him as your padawan! If you didn't he would be here safe with me!"

Qui-Gon kept quiet as he helped Constella home. She wobbled and fell a few times, but it didn't bother Qui-Gon. He knew she was drunk and didn't mean anything harsh. She was just a mother who was in a lot of distress.

"Be-Ji and I,"She said."We were so excited to be parents. We dreamed of teaching him how to ride a bike, how to swim, how to read. Be-Ji and I dreamed of the possibilities and opprotunities we would give him as we watch him grow. We wanted to see him off to his first day of grade school, watch him play with his friends, getting good grades." She spun in a circle"Woo wee! You should try that!"

Qui-Gon held her arm and tried helping her walk again." Then we would see him off to high school, waiting for his first girlfriend, his first date, his first prom. Then I would throw a huge party for his graduation. Then we would watch him go to college, get a degree and a job. Then I would cry at his wedding and his first born child. I wanted to be there for him like any mother should."Constella sobbed as tears flowed down her face. Qui-Gon felt a sharp pang in his chest.

"Benjamin was our world."She cried, holding her heart."We loved him, we had so many plans for him. But now he's in the evil hands of his father. He might very well be dead!"

"No Constella. I know he's not dead."Qui-Gon stated confidently.

"And how do you know?"She asked in a sharp tone." This stupid thing you call the force?"

Qui-Gon swallowed his anger and ignored the insult."I know Obi-Wan-"

"I never wanted to name him that."She hiccupped and nearly fell. Qui-Gon quickly grabbed her and pulled her up."Obi-Wan. What is that suppose to mean anyway? Benjamin's a much better name for him. 'Son of my right hand'. Don't you think?"

"It's not my place-"

"It never is." She growled."He shouldn't be living this life!" She shouted, leaning against a wall."He's suppose to be in high school, working towards a career, finding a girlfriend, having fun with friends and enjoying life! He shouldn't be out in this cursed universe trying to get himself killed!"Qui-Gon surpressed his temper as she continued to insult the Jedi Order. He knew she was going to start an argument, this time Obi-Wan can't back him up or intervene. Qui-Gon was left alone to fight this one.

"Jedi choose this life." He stated.

"Not him I bet. If I hadn't gone to that stupid council he wouldn't have even thought of being a Jedi."

"It's in his blood."Qui-Gon wished he haden't said that, it didn't help him in an argument.

"So is Earth!"She shouted, her eyes shooting daggers at him.

Qui-Gon didn't know how to reply. True Jedi was in Obi-Wan's blood, but so was Earth. But Obi-Wan chose to be a Jedi. Why did he choose to be a Jedi?

"I shouldn't be angry."She said, trying to walk straight. "The life of a Jedi is chosen, not forced upon."

"Yes that's correct."Qui-Gon fought back the words he wanted to say, he couldn't make the situation worse.

"He's my precious son just like Nathaniel."She looked up at the darkened sky."I mean he's my first born child. I was his first word, he first walked to me. I had to raise him on my own before the Council came. I would've given anything,"She sobbed."To protect him. Do you have a family?"

Qui-Gon shook his head.

"Of course you don't."She said, feeling stupid for asking."But I'm part Jedi and I chose a family over being a Knight. I'm starting to wonder...if I made a bad decision?"

Qui-Gon shot his gaze to her, stunned that she would say that.

"Well think about it Qui-Gon."She slurred, wiping her mouth." If I had chosen the life of a Jedi, I wouldn't be here drunk and arguing with you. Be-Ji and I would be together, Obi-Wan, Aclear and Nathaniel would have a father. They could've had the life I had, but they don't." She started sobbing uncontrollably. Qui-Gon placed a hand comfortingly on her shoulder.

"I don't believe that to be true Constella."Qui-Gon said, sympathetically." You had no idea that Be-Ji would betray you and kidnap your son. You wanted a simple life and that's what you had before Be-Ji destroyed it and left his legacy behind. He has put you in this situation. If anyone is to blame it is Be-Ji."

"But I should have done something to prevent this."She wiped her tears on her sleeve.

"What could you have done?"

Constella fell silent and continued to be silent as they walked back to the house. Constella stopped at the door and glared at Qui-Gon.

"You know what the painful fact is?" She slurred."He saw you as a father figure and you failed him."

Qui-Gon froze in place as Constella opened the door and walked in. Something inside was warming up, something he never knew he had. Obi-Wan is his student, yet he saw Qui-Gon as a father? He looked up to Qui-Gon the way a child looks up to their parent? Why would Obi-Wan see him as a father?

Something else stirred in Qui-Gon. A new determination, harder and more focused than ever. Where did this come from? Why is he feeling so determined all of a sudden?

Qui-Gon carried a sleeping Constella in his arms. he entered the house and set her in her bed and gently covered her. Qui-Gon felt guilt in his heart as he watched her.