Becoming Fujisaki Rima
Jenni:Hi...It's me..I'm not feeling very well so I'm just going to cut this short. I hope you like the chapter! Please review!~
Disclaimer:Zzzzzzzz...Rawr!
Warning:This chapter contains mention of suicide.
Last Time:Rima has joined the Fujisaki Tinikling group! Will she successfully dance with Kairi or will she fail? And will the Rhythm/Kusukusu relationship last? Who is that mysterious person in the dorm?
~:Chapter Nine-Dai 9-shō:~
~:Heart Idiot-Kokoro Baka:~
"I nearly killed the person...,"Rima sighed.
"You nearly kill a lot of people!"Kristen pointed out.
"You're lucky you're my daughter,"Rima hissed.
"Who are you?"Rima demanded.
A brown-haired boy sat on Rima's bed,half-dressed,kissing Utau passionately. Rima raised an eyebrow as they sufficiently ignored her. The boy resembled Kukai but also had Krishima's looks. Rima saw the boy's shirt lying on the floor and picked it up. The shirt was actually a jersey and it read,'Fuuyuki'. She threw it forcefully at his head and the boy looked up,annoyed.
"What do you want?"he asked.
Utau avoided eye-contact with Rima,her eyes focusing on the ground. The boy put his jersey back on,his brown-hair astray. His brown eyes flickered from Rima to Utau.
"That is my bed,"Rima sighed.
Fuuyuki chuckled at her impudence and Utau gave him a withering look. Rima rolled her eyes and sighed. The boy walked up to her,his feet gliding over the carpet.
"Hey Mashiro,"he smiled.
"H-How do you know my name! Stalker!"Rima balled up her tiny fists and began to swing at the boy.
"Mashiro,don't you remember? We've met before,Fuuyuki Krishmas?"he laughed.
Xx_Flashback_xX
"I'm sorry,"he laughed.
"It was my fault,"Rima apologized.
When she looked up,a handsome teenager stared back at her. He was cute and tall. He was pretty tall and he made her feel even more short than usual. He extended his hand to help her up but she saw that people were murmuring quietly and looking at the curiously.
"No thanks,I can get up myself,"Rima blurted rather rudely.
"Oh...I'm sorry...My name is Krishima,by the way,"he smiled,slightly fazed by the way she acted,'That's new...A girl who doesn't go 'OHMYGOD! KRISHIMA-SAMA IS HOLDING MAH HAND! I'VE GOT TO TELL ALL OF MY FRIENDS,EEEEEEEEEEEKKKKK!' Those girls...wow...They scare me...'
"Why are you still talking to me?"Rima snapped,"Didn't you get the memo? I. Don't. Give. A. Crap. About. Who. You. Are. Now. Go. Away!"
Xx_Flashback Over_xX
"Ick,you?"Rima flinched.
Utau had remained silent,this had nothing to do with her. Krishima reached over to Rima and she slapped his hand away. He smiled and Rima huffed. Kusukusu had decided to lie on her bed,hoping to be forgotten.
"What are you smiling about? It makes you look stupid,"Rima said,sitting on the edge of the one desk that the four girls shared.
"Well,I'm smiling because I think you're cute,"Krishima chuckled.
"Aren't you two...you know,dating?"Rima asked,looking at Utau and Kirishima.
The two flushed and looked away. When Utau spoke,her voice sounded tsundere. Kirishima seemed suddenly timid near Utau.
"No,we're not...anymore,"Utau announced.
Kirishima looked taken aback,he hadn't expected. Rima sighed,it was like her mother and father all over again.
"That's right! I'm not in love with you,I never was,"Kirishima recovered.
Utau smirked and opened the door. Kirishima snapped at her and stomped out. Rima laughed,wryly.
"You were just passionately kissing him and now you suddenly just randomly break up with him?"she questioned.
"Yes! Why do you even care? It's none of your business! I love Kukai,okay?"Utau burst into tears.
Rima said nothing,only walking over to Utau. She silently wrapped her arms around the sobbing teenager. Utau's tears were trickling onto Rima's arms and plopped silently onto the ground.
"It's okay,"she murmured.
"NO,IT'S NOT! YOU JUST APPEARED RANDOMLY LAST MONTH AND IN THAT ONE MONTH,YOU RUINED ME! NOBODY CARES ABOUT ME! NOT EVEN MY OWN SIBLINGS! I HAVE NO FRIENDS BECAUSE OF YOU! STOP LYING,I HATE YOU! JUST GO AWAY!"Utau screamed.
Rima unwrapped her arms from around Utau and got up to her feet. She opened the door and ran. Her tears falling faster with every step.
"I just want to die! It's my fault! My parents' deaths were my fault! Utau hates me! I've cause so many people pain...I JUST WANT TO DIE!"Rima screeched as she ran down the hallways.
Rima could hear Kusukusu's footsteps and she ran faster. She couldn't stand this,she deserved to die. She stopped when she was off school grounds. Rima aimlessly wandered down the weathered road,her eyes silent observing.
'Mama and Papa died because I had begged them to take me...somewhere...I can't remember anymore,but it's still my fault. It's my fault that they had began to fight. I had to irresponsibly chosen to walk home by myself and got myself kidnapped. Utau hates me...I should just die,nobody would care.'Rima sighed.
She walked down the road for thirty minutes and arrived in a small town. Rima headed towards the nearest cafe and sat down. She ordered a vanilla frappucino and sighed. She saw a nearby knife and looked at it.
'If I died,everyone might finally be happy,'she considered,'But there would be the people who mourn. They don't deserve suffer the same way I have after my parents' death."
She picked up the knife and it hovered above her wrist. But before she could do something reckless,a hand pried the knife away from her.
"Now,Rima-chan,I would've never thought that you would even consider doing something like that!"exclaimed an angry voice.
"Nagihiko?"she whispered.
Rima looked up and saw a pair of deep chocolate-brown eyes. Nagihiko was wearing the official cafe uniform. He was wearing a black t-shirt that read 'Kiran's Coffee' and a pair of jeans.
"Rima-chan,don't ever try that again!"Nagihiko growled.
Rima winced at his tone of voice. It was angry and cold. Tears began to well up in her eyes and Nagihiko's facial expression softened slightly.
"Just promise me that you won't do that again,"Nagihiko caressed her cheek,wiping away stray tears.
Rima nodded and Nagihiko handed her the cappuccino she had ordered. He smiled at her before walking away. She sipped at the cold drink slowly,wondering what was that emotion that was always lingering in his eyes.
"Neh,Rima-chan!"Nagihiko sat opposite of her.
"What?"she whispered.
"What happened? What made you even think about killing yourself?"Nagihiko asked.
"Well,I thought that...that it would be better for everyone if I was gone,"Rima mumbled.
"Mashiro Rima,I swear,if you ever attempt to pull a stunt like that again,I will kill myself!"Nagihiko declared,"Do you even know how much you would hurt your friends if you committed suicide?"
'Why do you care? All you do is annoy me!'Rima thought.
"I do know,Nagihiko! You don't know how much I have suffered throughout my twelve years of life! My parents fought because of me! They died because of me! Utau hates me! I've done so much to cause pain towards others because of petty reasons!"Rima burst into tears of anger.
"Rima-chan,I may not understand but I will try my best to protect you,"Nagihiko said,kissing her on the cheek.
At that,he got up and walked out of the cafe. Rima sat there,crying. Her feelings were jumbled and she couldn't think straight. She wiped her tears and walked into the washroom. Rima splash water on her face and made sure that her eyes weren't red and puffy anymore.
"Okay,Rima,calm down,"she ordered.
"Stop crying,"she told herself.
Rima inhaled deeply and exhaled. She walked out of the cafe and walked back to the campus. By the time she had returned,she was exhausted and covered in sweat. Rima quickly walked into her dorm and slipped silently into the washroom. It had turned late by the time Rima had returned. She could hear Amu and Utau's quiet breathing. Kusukusu was not in the room,her bed was empty.
Rima took a shower and slipped into baggy clothing. Her hair was soaked but she decided to leave it be. Rima opened the door and slipped past the two soundly-sleeping girls. She simply headed towards a vending machine and pulled out a dollar. She bought a bag of 'Kaki no Tane' and ate it.
"Rima,"whispered a voice.
She looked up and saw Kusukusu. The girl was perched on top of a row of lockers,walking on them. Rima walked in front of the old lockers and Kusukusu jumped down easily.
"I heard from Nagihiko that you were about to do something reckless,"she said.
"I know,"Rima simply replied.
"I know you feel weak and scared but you can't just go off and decide to kill yourself!"Kusukusu said,shaking Rima roughly.
"Stop,"Rima said.
Kusukusu stopped and sighed. Her amber eyes were full of emotion and she leaned against the wall. Rima saw her shuddering and she looked at Kusukusu. She had never noticed that Kusukusu had dark rings underneath her eyes and that she breathed a tad too fast. But now,Kusukusu began to cough and nearly threw up.
"Kusu-chan?"Rima asked.
"I need to go,"Kusukusu got to her feet,obviously in pain.
"Go where?"she asked.
Kusukusu walked towards the dorm and Rima followed. She slid into bed and fell asleep immediately. Rima laid in bed,wondering what was wrong with Kusukusu. She walked over to Kusukusu and put her hand on the older girl's forehead. It was hot,way hotter than it should be.
"Rhythm,"moaned Kusukusu.
"Shush,Kusukusu,"Rima said.
"Rhythm,"repeated Kusukusu.
She woke up abruptly,sitting up. Her eyes were glazed over and she mumbled inaudible things. Rima panicked and ran over to Amu,shaking her awake.
"What is it,Rima?"she yawned.
"It's Kusukusu! She's sick!"Rima exclaimed.
"Then take her to the nurse,"Amu groggily looked at the clock,"Aww,crap. The nurse is gone for the night."
Rima dragged Amu out of the bed and brought her over to Kusukusu. Kusukusu sighed and began to babble. Amu put a hand to her forehead and her eyes widened,'Hot! Way too hot!' Kusukusu's eyes rolled to the back of her head and she fainted.
"Go get a cold washcloth,"Amu ordered.
Rima ran into washroom and grabbed a wet washcloth. She rushed back to Amu who laid it on Kusukusu's forehead. Kusukusu calmed and slept quietly. Amu sighed and looked at Rima.
"That's all we can do,"Amu sighed,"for right now,that is."
Amu slid underneath her covers and fell asleep with ease. Rima-on the other hand-could not sleep so she stayed by Kusukusu's side. Her cousin's face switched from a pained expression to a peaceful expression.
"No,leave me alone!"Kusukusu whimpered,"Go away!"
"Kusukusu?"Rima whispered.
"No,I'm sorry!"Kusukusu whispered,"Of course I still love you..."
'What is she dreaming about?'Rima wondered.
"No! Kirishima,stop! Put down the bat!"Kusukusu mumbled.
"Kirishima?"Rima cocked her head.
"Kirishima! Leave Utau-chan alone!"snapped Kusukusu,"Why can't you just accept that she doesn't love you anymore?"
'Oh!;Rima nearly cried out.
"Kukai does love you,Utau!"Kusukusu's voice was loud.
It was loud enough for Utau to hear and wake up. She sat up,eyes gleaming. Utau looked at Rima,eyes full of sorrow. She grabbed a pillow and brought it close. Kusukusu finally quieted and Rima made sure that the towel was still moist before walking back to bed. She could hear Utau's sobs but tuned them out. She sighed and quickly fell asleep.
"Was Kusukusu getting sick?"asked Kusukusu.
"I said that,"Rima said,petting her daughter's hair.
"I'm not a puppy,Mama!"Kristen shouted.
Rima:God,Jenni,I think I'm going to kill you! You're sitting in front of the (bleep) computer and you (Bleep) make me (bleep) suicidal? I (bleep) hate you! You are just determined to make me life (bleep)!
Jenni:Because Rima-chan is clearly pissed off,I guess I'll have to end this chapter. Anyways,I know Rima and Utau were OOC but whatever. It's important...Rima,don't hate me because I made you suicidal. You should be happy that I put in a Rimahiko-ish moment! Anyways,please review.