Callie was in the attending lounge, walking and going, handing her phone. She was about to call her ex parents-in-law and was repeating in her head how she was going to explain to them the situation. She had promise to Arizona to do it, so she couldn't going back. Taking a deep breath, she push the calling button and wait. She was sure that Barbara will pick up as usual when she called them. She loved Arizona's mother. She was still in contact with her since their break up, but she was disapointed that she and Daniel became distant with their own daughter.
« Hello ? »
« Hi Barbara ! It's Callie how are you ? »
« Callie ! I'm fine. How are you dear ? »
« I'm allright. I'm calling because I have something important to tell you. »
« Okay... Is it a bad or a good news ? » Barbara asked, worried.
« I'd say it's a good news... But it's something totally sudden... » Callie replied.
« Well, I'm listening... Is that because Arizona has been avoiding us for a while ? »
« Uh, I don't really know. But it's something about her » Callie said. « I don't know how to say that... »
« Is she allright? » Barbara asked.
« Yes, she is. And I think that you're going to be shocked at first, but then you'll be thrilled ! » Callie said, trying to focus on what she had to tell her. « Arizona find out that she's pregnant... »
« What ? Pregnant ? What do you mean ? Oh my god... Oh no... » Barbara said, thinking about how that could be possible.
« No, don't worry ! I have to explain you the entire story... »
…...
Arizona was in her room. She was bored and was tired of thinking. She didn't know what to do, what to feel but, for the first time since she's been aware of her pregnancy, she was rubbing her stomach and looking at it. She had picturing how a pregnancy would be, listening to Callie or Meredith's experience. She had picturing her looking har her baby bump, its first kick in her belly. She had picturing Callie talking to it, like she had done, when Callie was pregnant with Sofia.
She stood up and walked to the bathroom. She looked at herself in the mirror beside the door and smiled softly, thinking positively maybe for the first time that she was really going to have a little boy in her arms soon. Shaking her head, she looked at her profile, and taking of the tank top she was wearing, rubbed her belly again and staring at it in the mirror.
As she heard the door opened, she suddenly felt dizzy. She leaned against the wall and heard Callie.
« Arizona ? Where are you ? »
« Bathroom » She replied.
Opening the door, Callie saw her ex-wife very pale and visibly sick.
« Hey ! Are you okay ? » Callie asked.
« Yeah, I feel a little dizzy that's all. »
Callie smiled and took her hand, leading her to the room. She helped her sitting on her bed.
« Is that better ? »
« Yes, it is. Thanks. » Arizona replied, laying back and grabbing a glass of water next to her.
« I called your parents earlier. » Callie told her.
« Oh... How did it go ? » Arizona asked.
« Not so bad. Your mother was scared first. But I have explaining her everything and now she's happy. I told her not to come and she asked me to tell you she'd want to talk to you... » Callie said, smiling at Arizona.
« Thank you. I wouldn't be able to do it myself. But I guess they had to know. » Arizona said pulling her head back on her pillow and looking at the ceiling.
« You welcome... » Callie replied shily.
As Arizona seemed to head back to her thoughts, Callie got up and walked to the door. She wanted to leave Arizona alone, not wanting to be intrusive.
« Callie ? »
« Yeah ? » She replied, turning back as she was just going to open the door.
« I was wondering what you're feeling... » Arizona said, keeping her eyes at the ceiling.
« What do you mean ? » Callie asked, surprised by Arizona's need of talking.
« About that baby. Do you really want it ? »
Callie gasped. What did Arizona really mean ? What was she expecting ?
« I mean it. I really want to know. Do you want to be a mother to that child ? To raise him, to love him like you love Sofia ? »
« Of course. » Callie replied. She didn't know what Arizona was looking for but she felt that the conversation they were having was important.
« You'll be able to do it, knowing is not from your blood ? » Arizona insisted.
« I don't know what you want me to say, but of course I'll do it. If you let me... » Callie replied. She looked at Arizona who was now staring at her. Her gaze was focused but she couldn't say if it was a good or a bad sign.
« I've been thinking, too much. I'm tired about that. I can't figure what I'm going to do. So I need someone to be sure about what to do with that baby » Arizona said.
« If you're about to say what I think you're about to say, the answer is no ! » Callie yelled.
« I haven't said anything there ! I just want to be sure ! » Arizona said, tears rolling on her cheeks. « I've been thinking to every possible issues. I've even been thinking to put the baby for adoption Callie ! I've been thinking of asking my parents to take him, of leaving Seattle with him without looking back. I've been thinking of a trial between us for the custody, I've been thinking about raising him on my own, of you doing it... I don't know what to do ! Everything in my life is a disaster since that plane crash. But this baby didn't ask anything. He's just showing up at the bad time. I think that you are the only person who could love him and give him everything he need immediately. »
« You can't mean it Arizona. It's your child ! » Callie said emotionally.
« It's your child too ! You're already ready to welcome him. I'm not. I don't even know if I'll be ready one day. » Arizona replied, unable to control the tears rolling on her face.
Upset by the confession, Callie walked back to Arizona's side and sat on the bed.
« If you let me in, I'll be there and I will do what you can't. Remember when I told you that ? »
« I can't ask you that Callie. I've been trying so hard to make you forget about me. I've tried so hard to forget you. Why do you think I've been so distant and changed everything in my life ? I have been awful Callie. I've mistreated you, and Sofia. I don't deserve your forgiveness. »
« I have forgive you. Off course, I've been hurt by your infedility. But I've been thinking too and even if I don't understand everything, I know that I have made mistakes to. I wasn't there after we thought you lost the baby. After the crash, I've been pushing you too much, without respecting your pain. I've been ignoring your PTSD and I didn't want to think about it. So, we can say we both screwed up in our own ways ! » Callie said, smiling throught her tears. « And if you're up for it, we could start fresh, you, me Sofia and that little guy. »
Arizona was looking in Callie's brown eyes intensely. She was so upset that it took her a moment before being able to talk.
« I don't want you to take me back because of the situation. It would ruin everything. If we get back together, it will be because we are ready to do it and because we want it, not because of the emotional chaos we're experimenting. Do you understand what I mean ? »
« I 's why I told you yesterday that I'll wait for you. Take all the time you need, I'll be there. I'm sure about what I feel. I love you. I've always been in love with you. And this baby is maybe arriving at a sensible time, but I'm focusing on the moment we decided to have him. We were sure that we wanted it and now, I'm still wanting him. » Callie replied, softly putting her hands on Arizona's stomach.
« I... I... » Arizona tried to say. She sighed and put her hands on Callie's. « I still love you. But I can't tell you right now that we're going to be back together. Even if I'd love to, there's too many things I have to figure out. But you're giving me strenght right now. And it's just... »
Arizona didn't have time to finish her words that Callie's lips were on hers. It was the sweetest kiss they had shared in a long time. It was soft but strong. Arizona closed her eyes and she felt Callie's hands grabbing her cheeks. Pulling away, Callie put another little kiss on her forehead. The two women, visibly relieved and upset by the conversation they just had, were crying in silence. Without asking Arizona, Callie lay on the bed, by her side. She wraped Arizona's belly with her arm, and put her head on the pillow, closing her eyes. A few minutes later, they were both sleeping surrounded by a peaceful atmosfear.
…...
Miranda Bailey was smiling foolishly in the middle of the hallway. She was looking at her friends, sleeping quietly in that bed and was happy. Surely, there was a lot of things going on, but step by step, they seemed to find their way back to each other.
« Dr Bailey I need your advice for … Oh Crap ! » Alex Karev said as he witnessed the two ex-wife sleeping in the hospital bed htrought the windows. « What's going on with those two ? And why Robbins is still here ? »
« Mind your own business Karev ! » Miranda replied. « If you want to know, ask Arizona or Callie. Not sure they will tell you ! »
« Just asking ! » Alex said, leavin Miranda alone.
…... …... …...
Two days later, Arizona woke up quietly in her room.
She was still upset by everything but began to take the things a little easier. She sat on the edge of the bed and felt something different. She grabbed her prosthetic, putt it on the faster she could and walked to the bathroom.
Looking at her in the miror she smiled and rubbed her stomach slowly and a single tears rolled on her cheek. She felt it, she felt her baby bump. It was not a big one, but it was noticeable. It made her pregnancy more concrete to her but it distraughted her at the same time.
Totaly focused on her stomach, she didn't notice April entering the bathroom immediately.
As she saw her friends taming that new belly, April stepped back and got back in the room waiting for Arizona to get out of the bathroom.
A few moments later, she opened the doors and find a giant breakfast waiting for her and April smiling at her.
« What have you done ! » Arizona told her friend.
« Just a little breakfast for you ! » April smiled.
« April, You don't have to do that ! It's so nice ! Thank you ! » Arizona thanked.
She sat on her bed and looked at everything. She tols April to join her and the two friends settled.
« That's amazing ! You read my mind ! I was starving ! » Arizona confessed.
« That's not surprising... You're pregnant after all ! »
Arizona smiled and looked at her friend.
« I'm pregnant... I'm pregnant after all... » Arizona repeated.
« And Dr Manning was right... It's visible now. » April replied.
« What ? You think I swollen ? » Arizona asked.
« Not a lot, but I saw you in the bathroom... » April confessed.
Arizona blushed. She was so concentrated that she hadn't notice her friend earlier.
« And it's kind of beautiful... So how are you feeling ? » April asked.
« Well, I don't really know... I'm still so … lost. » Arizona said, eating a muffin. « I'm confused, i'm scared... I told my parents... »
« What did they say ? »
« Well, Callie told them... I couldn't... » Arizona explained. « I didn't want to hear my father. I wouldn't be able to tell them not to come, so I asked her. And she did. »
« And did you guys talk about what you're going to do ? » April asked. « I mean, that baby can be here at anytime... »
« We kind of talk. Nothing is clear. She's all in. She wants us back together. But I told her I wasn't ready. I needed time. But she says she'll wait... » Arizona said.
« You don't seem happy about that. You have doubts ? »
« I don't. I'm just scared that she want that only because of the baby, and that she forget that I come with the baby... But I want to give it a try. I don't know how, but he worth it. » Arizona said.
« Whatever you'll do, I'll respect it. » April said. « But you're right. It's a child well being we're talking about... Well two with Sofia... She know about it ? »
« Not yet... I have to tell Callie what I've decided first, and then we can talk to her. I hope she's not going to take it bad... »
« Why will she ? I'm sure she's going to be so happy ! » April smiled. « She'll be the greatest grand sister ! ».
…...
Arizona had decided to go to the cafeteria that afternoon. After April left, she was feeling alone and needed to see people. She just wanted to sit and looked at the daily life of the hospital from far.
So she put a scrub top, her pair of jean and get out of her room.
There, She ordered a salad and a bottle of water and found a table in a quiet corner. Rubbing her stomach, she felt like her belly was bigger than it was in the morning. She sighed and raided her head.
From far she saw Callie, Meredith and Christina entereing the cafeteria. Callie noticed her immediately and gave her a big smile.
« What is she doing here ? » Christina asked. « Is she back ? »
« No she's a patient here. » Callie replied, leaving her friends to meet Arizona. She took a chair and sat in front of her.
« Hey ! I'm sorry, I've been busy like hell since yesterday. I haven't been able to come and see you. How are you ? »
« Well, I'm fine. » Arizona replied.
Callie noticed that she seemed a little embarassed.
« Are you sure ? Because I found you a little... »
Callie stopped as she saw Arizona froze in front of her.
« What happened ? Are you okay ? » Callie said, getting up and rushed to her side.
Arizona didn't move but let a surprised grin appeared on her face.
« I... I feel it ! I feel him move ! » Arizona said. « That's … Wow ! » She looked at Callie and smiled. « I wasn't ready for that... but it's... »
Callie smiled at her, and Arizona took her hands, putting them on her stomach.
« I see that this morning. It's not that big, but it's a bump ! » She said, smiling at Callie softly. « I don't know if you can feel him, but he's moving ! »
Callie couldn't help but smiling. Seeing Arizona smiling and talking about the baby was so sudden that she let a tear fall on her cheek. She focused on her stomach and notice the bump.
« Oh my god ! I can feel him ! » She said. « Wow ! ». They were both stunned.
« What are they doing ? » Christina asked Meredith.
« You'll know it soo enough ! » She replied. « Let's leave them alone. »