A/N: Chapter ten~!
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Disclaimer: I have never, nor will I ever, own D-Gray Man or any of its characters.
Also: (You should read this) I just have to say I'm really sorry for the last chapter, a lot of Lavi X OC fan fictions mention that their relationship could be a secret, but I understand the way I wrote it, was really depressing (in a cute way?), I know, like I said, I almost started crying while I was writing it. Usually the OC is all for the relationship, but I went a different way. If I were a reader of this fan fiction I probably would have complained… Oh well…
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The day was grey and dismal, plain and unsightly, no wind, no sun, just grey. Dull and lifeless were the words that came to mind. Nothing had happened, the day felt empty and tedious.
Arianna wandered the halls aimlessly; too many things were on her mind for her to do anything else. She decided she wanted to clear her mind with some intense training. Her feet carried her towards Kanda's room.
She knocked.
Again.
She turned on her heal and ventured to the meditation room, figuring he would be there instead.
She pushed the door open and set her eyes on an empty room.
She closed the door and headed to the cafeteria, knowing that apart from the training room, that's where he would be. As she neared the cafeteria entrance, she heard the voices of Lenalee, Allen and Lavi.
Lavi.
They were laughing. She stopped mid stride and stood still. In a way she was glad, that he was acting as if nothing happened, that was the way it was supposed to be. After all he was a Bookman, he had to act like that anyway. She couldn't help the little ache in her heart because of what could have happened.
She slapped herself roughly and shook her head, trying to steer away all those sorts of thoughts. She continued walking again, reaching the entrance, seeing Kanda at his usual spot closest to the exit. She walked over and leaned against the wall beside him, not making eye contact with anyone in the room.
"I need to train," she said in a low, monotonous voice.
Kanda looked up at her and noticed her expression, though he didn't necessarily care what she was thinking about.
He stood up and walked out, Arianna knew that was his answer, so she followed his trail, obediently. This was all she needed to set her mind straight, and after, she would be able to act as she normally would on any other day, like nothing had happened, like nothing had changed.
When they arrived at the training room, Arianna unsheathed Artemis without any hesitation and activated it.
"Eager are we?" Kanda asked in a cold tone, a ghost of a smirk showing on his face.
She didn't answer, instead, she lunged at him, answering his rhetorical question through her actions. Kanda matched her speed and greater strength.
The training session was intense.
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Lavi sat in the dining hall of the cafeteria talking with Allen and Lenalee. They were all laughing at some story Lavi had been telling. Lavi's laugh halted when he saw the young woman that had been on his mind all morning, the same young woman that had broken his heart.
Arianna.
He watched her say something softly to Kanda, and then walking off after him. All the while, she didn't look over; she was taking it as bad as he was. Even though he didn't show it, Lavi felt like a lost puppy, but acting was what he was used to doing, it was one of his expertise's, as a Bookman.
A Bookman.
"Lavi are you all right?" Allen asked and Lavi's head snapped in his direction. A cheeky smile masked his true emotions.
"Yeah, just thinking about stuff, no big deal," he answered. His grin was convincing his 'friends' for the moment.
He then proceeded to tell of another encounter he had to take his mind of what was troubling him and try to move on.
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Both Arianna and Kanda were panting, Arianna had been in a different mind set this time; she was giving it her all, letting it all out until she felt like collapsing.
She had shed off her jacket, the excess material becoming bothersome amidst their swift encounter. Now in her skirt and a tight fitting tank top, she continued to fight. Her scars were visible, the scars left by the burns of the Akuma's whips, they had healed and were now a slightly darker shade than her skin tone.
In spite of that, one wrong move caused her defeat. Kanda stood behind her, an arm over her, with Mugen's blade held against her neck. The cool metal sent a shiver through her form.
She could feel the heat radiating off him as his body brushed up against hers. She liked the feeling, but Kanda wasn't the man she wanted it to be. He spoke monotonously behind her.
"I don't know what made you so eager to fight, but don't let it distract you. It might mean your death," he said, moved away from her and re-sheathed Mugen, turning away to leave.
"Kanda?" she said and he paused.
"Thank you," she finally said and he then left without saying a word.
Arianna fell to the floor, her innocence deactivating, she laid on her back staring at the ceiling. Her breathing was starting to return to normal. Her black hair was sticking to her neck and her fringe was sticking to her face. She closed her eyes.
She sighed; the training had definitely helped, in its own way.
Once she had rested, she went to her room to take a shower and change. She wore her spare exorcist uniform and then decided to go see if Lavi and the others were still in the cafeteria, to prove that the training had helped.
And everyone was still there, Allen, Lenalee and Lavi. There was a heavy feeling in her heart when her deep blue eyes met the vibrant green of Lavi's. A sincere smile formed on her lips and she walked over. The events of that morning played in her mind.
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It was dawn; the red and orange hues were lingering in the sky above the wispy clouds. Arianna's eyes opened, she was lying on her side. She felt a strong arm draped over her waist, which she instantly recognized as Lavi's. She couldn't help but feel sorrowful. She did care for him deeply, but she knew that it couldn't be possible; the Bookman code had forbidden any personal relationships.
Why did it have to be him? Why couldn't she have feelings for someone she could eventually be with?
It wasn't fair.
She moved her hand over Lavi's, gently caressing his skin. To her surprise, Lavi responded, he pulled her closer, wordlessly.
They both knew how this would play out.
They would hug, holding each other close.
They would kiss until they were out of breath.
And then, they would swear never to speak of it again.
That was one of the consequences of being a Bookman, that's how it was meant to be.
They were never destined to be more than friends.
Arianna rolled over, so she was facing Lavi. His arm still draped around her waist, their foreheads touched and their eyes closed.
"The sooner we leave, the sooner this will be forgotten and we can move on," Arianna said and as she heard her own words, her heart broke into a million unfathomable pieces. A few tears escaped her closed eyes and her shoulders shook.
"I'll never forget," Lavi whispered faintly, he pulled her closer and brushed her tears away. Her eyes opened and she was met with Lavi's sad smile.
"Come on, please don't cry, even if we can't be together, we can still be how we were, right?" he said, trying to sound comforting, but sounding more as if he was trying to convince himself.
Footsteps could be heard outside the room as the members of the Black order were waking up.
Lavi sat up and Arianna soon followed. He stood up and pulled her with him, his hands enclosing hers longingly. They walked to the door.
"Its for the best," Arianna said softly, her hand tightening around his.
"Hey," Lavi said, lightly grasping Arianna's chin and angling her head up to face him.
"It'll just be like before, its not like we can't see each other at all, we just cant get too close," he said, his voice drifting off as his words progressed. Then a wide smile spread across his lips.
"You think I could get one last kiss?" he asked with a sexy glint in his eye. If it didn't make her the slightest bit happier, it at least made her smile.
Same old Lavi.
Their lips connected in a sweet kiss, their arms wrapping around one another lightly. The kiss prolonged until the breaking point.
Then they separated.
Lavi took a big breath and opened the door.
Then he left, no words were spoken, just two words replaying in both of their minds.
Just friends.
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She snapped out of her daze as Lavi asked her a question.
"How was training this morning?" he asked. Arianna looked at him perplexed.
"That is where you went with Yu this morning, right?" he emphasized. She blinked.
Of course he knew. A Bookman would have put the pieces together.
"Oh, yes," she said with a slight pause.
"It was brutal," she said rubbing her aching muscles along her neck and shoulder.
"Maybe I could give you a massage?" Lavi asked and a sparkle appeared in his eye.
"If you're lucky I could make it a full body massage," he said, his eye turning heart shaped.
Everyone just laughed.
Maybe they could make it through this after all.
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A/N: Just a little flashback to add to the feel of their situation.
I think I might die of angst-ness and depression after the past few chapters, just saying…
Oh, did any of you realize that in chapter nine, when Lavi says, "Stupid Old Panda, stupid train, stupid boat," he's actually mimicking Sokka in the episode 'Nightmares and Daydreams' when he had to climb the cliff? Sokka says, "Stupid Avatar, stupid dream, stupid cliff!"
Just thought you should know if you didn't see it
And in chapter 7 when Lavi whispers, "run," I had a Doctor Who fan girl moment …
Any way, please review my lovely readers~!