Chapter 10: Angry
Jacob's POV
I could feel the wolf in me begging to be let out. How I managed to hold it in this long is beyond me. No matter how angry I was I could not phase right now. I never thought that it was possible to be so angry at a person that I never met.
Just to think of all the times that Nessie put herself in danger scared me. The idea of my imprint being in danger and not being around to protect her, even if it was from her own stupidity, really really scared me to death. If her 'father' would have just paid more attention to her then his damned cigarettes!
Breathe. Breathe. Relax. I repeated this over and over to myself to keep myself from exploding.
"Jacob are you okay?" Nessie asked me.
If anything I had to keep myself calm for her. The important thing is that she was fine. She survived all of these encounters. I really meant it when I said that I was beginning to wonder how she survived this long.
"Jacob?" Nessie said when I didn't answer.
"I'm okay" I said. Which was a complete and total lie. I had never been further from 'okay'. I listened to her heartbeat and her breathing to calm myself down. Her breathing sounded irregular, a side affect of her cancer. Her cancer. That was another thought that both angered and saddened me. My imprint. My Nessie. Sick with cancer. Why did she have to smoke? Why? Didn't she ever learn how bad it was for you? I guess she never did.
I looked at Nessie and I mean really looked at her. She had definitely not lost the half vampire beauty that she was born with. In fact, her beauty had only grown as she did. She wasn't that adorable little girl that I used to play with. She was a full grown woman now. She was beautiful. The most beautiful woman that I had ever met. The smoking clearly had no affect on her outer physical body. She showed no signs of yellow teeth or aged skin as was common in many smokers.
But it wasn't just her outer beauty that drew me to her. It was her personality. She fascinated me. She was beautiful on the inside and out.
When I looked at her I wanted to take her into my arms and kiss her but I couldn't do that because I was still a stranger to her. Besides Edward would kill me the second that he read my mind.
"Jacob what are you thinking about?" Nessie asked me.
"Oh nothing in particular" I lied.
"Really? Because you look deep in thought"
Damned it! I wasn't that obvious was I? Apparently I was.
I had to think of something fast.
"Well it's just that I'm hoping you'll go on another date with me. Soon" Good one! I thought to myself. Truth be told is that I did want to go on a second date with her.
"Jake I'd love that" she said excitedly. That just made me smile even more.
Then I caught the scent of it. A bit of wind passed us by and blew her scent in my direction. I could smell the sickness. The cancer. It was just a sad and painful reminder that she wasn't healthy. I didn't know what I would do without her. The only thing that kept me going all these years is the knowledge that she was out there somewhere in the world. Alive. I knew that she was alive because I could feel it in my heart. I would have sensed it if she was dead.
I only paid attention to her the whole time that we were whale watching.
As soon as the tour was done we got off the boat and started walking. I put my arm around her and she was okay with it. I asked her because I didn't want to cross any lines.
I leaned closer and closer to her and to my surprise she was doing the same. I was pleasantly surprised when her lips met mine. Her lips were so soft and tender.
She didn't pull away either so I started to kiss her. Then she kissed me back. We broke apart after a few seconds.
I was surprised to see two very familiar vampires watching us...her parents.
Oh hell.
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