So I would have updated yesterday, but I didn't get enough reviews until ten oclock pm where I live. Thank you to Red, LilweenGalatrass, and CTAT1. Your reviews are the only reason I am writing this right now.
Jack's POV
The sky above was blue with the new day. It took me a second to realize I was still in my new cave in Antarctica. The dream was so vivid, so real. But it was only a dream. A dream where I was wanted, missed, loved. A dream where I had a real, non-snow-person family. That was all it was, though. A dream.
A stupid dream that would never come true. It should have gone away. I wanted it to go away. I wanted it to go away. I wanted...I didn't want it to go away. I wanted a family. I wanted someone to love me. I wanted it so bad it hurt.
Tears stole my gasping breaths. My chest tightened uncomfortably with sorrow. No, I wouldn't cry. I wouldn't cry. I had done enough of that in the last four weeks. But that painful reminder only increased the flow of tears, freezing halfway down my face.
It hurt. It hurt so bad. I had forgotten how horrible it was to be alone, without tough, with out love. It felt like someone was driving a wooden stake into my chest. It felt like stones were beating against my heart, then settling in the pit of my stomach. My limbs felt heavy with glum. I wished I could forget how much it meant to me to be included. I wish I could forgot the warmth in my ice cold heart when they showed me love. I wish I could forget how Sandy supported me, how North cheered me up, how Bunny made me feel better when I was blue, how Tooth made me have a mother again, and how Harmony made my heart skip a beat. I wish I could forget how it felt to have a family.
I knew I should have never let them in. I knew I was going to end up heart broken. It was always like that. I had watched it happen across the ages. But those people always found a way to cope. A way came to mind. I had watched people do it in secret then be found out. It wasn't always good, but it seemed to help them.
Quickly I made a razor sharp blade of ice. I had seen this done before. It was quick and simple. Quick and simple. Quick and simple. Avoid the major veins. Horizontal cuts. Quick and simple.
The sun glinted off the shard of ice. A deep breath. In. Out. The blade hovered closer, closer, closer. Then I flung it away. It shattered in a beautiful sound against the wall of my cave.
I couldn't. I couldn't. I didn't want to see a garden of roses blossom on my arm. I didn't want it. My body curled in on itself. Tears fell from my eyes, fast and furiously.
I don't know how long I stayed like that. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years. I don't know. Time was so blurry in the icy wasteland I was in. I counted by times I felt the urge to do something stupid. Twenty nine times. Twenty nine times I thought about growing roses. But I was too weak to do it.
"Oh Jack." A whispered voice floated through my tiny, frozen sanctuary. Lifting my head, a picture formed on the ice covered wall of the cave. It was Harmony and Baby Tooth. Harmony had tears on her cheeks. Tooth, Bunny, North, and Sandy came into the picture. All looked melancholy. Had I caused this?
Harmony started to choke and tears fell rapidly from her violet eyes. Tooth landed next to her, and they cried together.
"I-I m-m-miss him, Tooth. I miss him a lot. I-I-I thought we could find him. I really did. B-but we checked every where. W-w-why d-d-didn't we find him? Y-you d-don't think he really did melt, do you?" I could tell Tooth wanted to console her but didn't know how. Both had tears on their cheeks. Bunny turned to North.
"This is all my fault, mate. These Shelia's 'ave been cryin' their eyes out becuza what I did. I wished I could take all I said back." Harmony turned her eyes on the Pooka. They held a hard, cold intensity.
"Don't regret anything you did because at one time, it was what you wanted." I watched her tear away from Tooth and sprint out of sight.
"Harmony!" It ripped from my lips. The girl came back into the picture and everyone could turned toward my voice.
"Jack? Where are you, Sweet Tooth?" Tooth fluttered up from the ground. She looked around, eyes wide and red from crying. Slowly, I moved toward the image on the ice. I reached my hand forward slowly. Millimeters hung between my fingers and the image. Breath. In Out. Then I plunged through.
I opened my eyes, and I was in Santoff Claussen. Everyone was staring at me. Harmony flung her arms around.
"Jack! Jack! Jack!" It was almost like my dream. Tooth tackled Harmony and I in a hug. Sandy wrapped his small arms around my legs. Bunny joined too. North wrapped his big arms around all of us. Our family was whole again. Everyone else stepped back.
"Look, mate, I'm sorry I said those thangs. It wasn' right." I nudged Bunny with my staff crook.
"Hey, that's what your there for, to yell at me." This fact didn't exactly look like it pleased him. North clapped me on the shoulder.
"Eet ees nice to 'ave you back, Jack. Ve missed you." A smile twisted my lips. Then the truth came from my lips.
"I missed you guys too. More than you can even fathom." Harmony smiled with my word choice. Sandy flashed a smiling face above his head. It was peaceful. Too peaceful.
"Where's Libros?" Harmony's smile transformed into a wicked grin.
"I kinda yelled at him for being an inconsiderate jerk, then shoved him out a window and slammed his fingers in said window." Baby Tooth made her chirpy laugh. My laughter joined the tiny fairy's.
"Yes, ve found 'im freezin' 'is bottom off. 'e ees een 'is room wit' a fever." North didn't seem to mind too much. Harmony flashed me a smile and then yawned. Soon we were all yawning. That night for the first night in twenty nine stupid things, I slept in a bed, in a home, with my family. For the first time in twenty nine stupid things, I felt whole again. We all did.