savannahs story
"come on let's get you tucked in" Mackenzie said taking my shoes off and helping me in to bed still wearing the stars and stripes top.

She got in with me and gave me a hug
"why didn't you tell me savannah... I could of helped you, been there for you" she said, her tears running along her face as she spoke.

"I was scared you would think bad of me, it was my own fault, I came on to them, I called Logan but he said you were ill again, I asked him for Carlos' number. Carlos came and got me... He has been taking care of me, being so nice... We kissed...but everything he said was a lie. I really like him kenz, I'm so sorry... I'm so sorry, I should of listened" I blubbed.

"shhhh... Come on its alright, I promise. I can't understand why you are more upset about Carlos" she said.

"he makes me feel safe, and normal... Can you phone him for me... please" I begged.

"sav you're drunk, you should wait for tomorrow, everything will seem better then... Just let Carlos go, he isn't worth the tears if he Lies to you is he?" She soothed holding my hand.

I smiled at her. "reminds me of being at home when mom and dad were still together, you trying to cheer me up after Russell dumped me ... Do you remember that?"

"how can I forget, Russell Hubert, the love of your life for ... What was it? Three weeks" Mackenzie smiled back at the memory.

"I was only sixteen then, so much has changed for us" I sniffed.

"one thing won't change though sav, and that's I'm you're big sister and I will always be there for you... No matter what happens" she whispered.

"I'm so sorry about Logan, he didn't mean it... I didn't mean it. Your not really breaking up with him are you?" I said starting to cry again.

Mackenzie looked up to the ceiling in the guest room "I love him so much savannah... But he promised me he had changed... I really don't know what I'm going to do, I don't want you blaming yourself, bloody Sheriden... its all her fault" Mackenzie said still laying and looking up to the ceiling. She sighed.

"Sheriden just tries to get the best for everyone, she is a nice woman" I said sticking up for her.

Mackenzie didn't say anything.

"kenz, can you call Carlos for me, please, I really have to talk to him" I asked again.

"you really do like him don't you, he is going to break your heart savannah." She replied.

"please. I need to tell him some things" I begged.

"okay, I will phone him" she said and got out of bed to get her bag that was on the floor.

She dialled the number.

"Carlos?... Its Mackenzie" she said.

"yeah... She wants to talk to you, she is pretty upset"

"no, probably best on the phone, she is very drunk thanks to that idiot you call a sister"

"no this has nothing to do with Logan"

"well you can think what you like... Are you going to talk to savannah or not?"

My sister finished the one way conversation that I could hear and passed me her phone.

"Carlos? Hey"

"hey sav... I'm so sorry, tonight was a massive fuck up, I didn't know Tammi was going to be there, I haven't seen her for so Long, I just got caught up... I'm sorry please forgive me" he said

"can I see you Carlos... I need to see you. Now, please. I need you" I said beginning to cry.

The line was silent for several seconds.

"sav... I can't be what you want me to be... I will come round tomorrow... First thing, I promise okay. Its late you should get some sleep" he said.

"are you with her... Tammi?" I asked feeling sick.

"no sav, she left realising I was still sheridens lap dog. I'm at home now, on my own" he said reassuringly.

"Carlos ... I need you" I sobbed.

"I will see you in the morning sav.. Promise... I'm gonna say bye now honey, is Kenzie staying with you?" He asked.

"yeah she is... She has left Logan... Because of me" I said breaking down in tears, I looked at my sister, she sat on the edge of my bed and had her own tears streaming down her face.

"its not your fault sav, Logan was out of order..." Carlos said

"I'm going to have to go, kenz needs me" I said looking at my sister now in floods of tears.

"take care sav... Night honey" he replied.

"goodnight Carlos" I wept and hung up the phone then gave my sister a hug, she cried so much for Logan.

"I would offer to go wake him up but I don't think he could talk much sense... I feel so bad, and I know how much he loves you" I whispered as she cried in my arms.

We didn't say much else, once we had calmed our tears down we lay in the bad and drifted off to sleep. It really was just like how's we used to be, Mackenzie was my best friend as well as my sister.
She would always try and protect me, and help me through anything.

I wasnt sure how much sleep she got but she was awake when I woke up in the day light.

My mouth was So dry from the booze last night.

"morning" she said giving me a half smile.

"hey" I said rubbing my face, trying to clear my head.

"you look like my double sav, its ridiculous" she said.

I smiled at her.
"I'm going to grab a shower" I said and made my way out of the room, I felt embarrassed and upset with myself for the things I had done last night.

After spending a good half hour in the bathroom trying to pick off the crystals from my back and having a lengthy stay under the hot running water of the shower I wrapped myself in a gown and made my way back to my guest room.

I opened the door and walked in on both my sister and Logan in tears.

"I'm sorry" I blurted out

"can you give us a minute sav" my sister said.

"sure" I replied and closed the door again and went downstairs to the kitchen. James was Sat at the table.

He smiled at me
"Sheriden not awake yet" I asked.

"she stayed at paisleys last night, kendall had drunk to much, and pais isn't ready to be left with Ophelia on her own yet. It was Mackenzies idea when I went round last night to get her for you" he said.

I nodded

"savannah I'm sorry for everything, Sheriden ... She just doesn't think a lot of the time" he tried to explain.

"I don't blame Sheriden" I said.

"do you want something to eat? Cereal? fruit?" He asked.

I shook my head "my head is spinning, I couldn't stomach any food"

James nodded.
"Logan was a state this morning are they sorting stuff out up there?"

"I walked in on them both in tears... I will never forgive myself if I was the reason that they broke up... They were so in love" I said.

"they will work it out" James said.

"are you and Sheriden okay? You were really angry last night" I asked.

James smiled "we are fine, spent most the night talking on the phone. She will be home soon."

"I'm going to sit out in the garden if that's okay, I can't do much until I can grab some clothes from my room" I said tightening the belt from my robe around my waist.

"sure thing" James replied.

I sat on the lounger in the garden letting the suns rays warm me up, I dozed in and out of sleep until I noticed something blocking the sun from me, I opened my eyes to see Carlos stood over me.
I sat up and he perched himself on the edge of my lounger.

"hows the head?" He greeted me with.

"awful" I replied.

Carlos slung an arm round me and I buried myself in his shoulder, he gave me a kiss on the forehead.

"I wish I could turn back time and undo a lot of things savannah... I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm so sorry I did." He said.

"Carlos I'm just going to be honest and tell you that I like you... Like really like you, I want to be yours" I said wiping a stray tear away.

Carlos squeezed me a little tighter with his arm.
"savannah I really do like you too, if things were different then I would jump at the chance of being with you, me and you are two of the same huh" he said.

"what do you mean if things were different, do you mean because I was raped?" I whispered in to his shirt.

"what? no silly, Jesus I would never let that get in the way of how I feel about you, that just makes me want to protect you even more"

"what needs to be different then?" I asked.

Carlos took his arm from around me and held my hand,
"the way I feel about your sister... I'm sorry savannah"

I looked up at him, he stared straight back at me.

"because you hate her? That's silly" I said.

Carlos shook his head " I don't hate her sav. I'm still in love with her. I'm sorry... "

I nodded.
"okay... Should of seen that one coming... bet you loved all this yesterday kissing me huh" I said tugging at my red hair.

"savannah I'm sorry, I said I didn't want to Kiss u you from the beginning. It was confusing for me." He argued.

"well... I don't mind, its win win, I get you and you get someone that looks like Mackenzie" I said clutching at straws.

Carlos shook his head "don't be silly savannah" he said.

"I'm sorry... I need you, your the only thing that makes me feel normal" I cried, wiping more tears away.

"savannah you are so young and so beautiful, it won't take you Long to forget about me making you feel normal. Your strong." He whispered giving my forehead another kiss.

I looked up and saw Sheriden standing at the entrance to the garden. She smiled at me.

" I think she has an apology for you" Carlos said.

I looked at him " I need you Carlos, how am I going to cope"

"I'm still going to be here, we can still hang out. Just have to lay off the kissing" he smiled.

"can I have one last one?" I asked as I looked at him.

Carlos took my chin in his hand and guided me towards him, he kissed me softly, I never wanted it to end. I couldn't understand how nice it felt, how well we connected and yet he still didn't want to be with me.

As our tongues caressed each other gently, he pulled away from me and gave me one last kiss on the lips.

"give her hell" he said as Sheriden still stood at the door now pretending to find something very interesting on her feet to look at.

"will you come with me" I asked him.

"course I will" he said taking my hand and standing up.

Carlos walked with me in to the kitchen.

"savannah take a seat" Sheriden said pointing to the little dining table that Sat in the kitchen.

I sat down "Sheriden you really don't have to explain anything, last night was all my own doings, I got drunk, I kissed Logan, I messed up" I said.

Sheriden nodded " maybe so, but James was right I've let you down, I'm no better than the people that 'looked' after me" she said using air quotes.

"on a brighter note, you won the bet with Carlos on your dramatic entry to the red carpet" she said turning the lap top around that was sat on the table.

It was a cracking picture of me locked in a steamy kiss with Carlos with my finger up at the btr fans. With the headline Diva Davies.

I smiled, so did Carlos,

"personally I don't know if I prefer that picture or this one" she said clicking the button to the next photograph of me in a full leg spin on the pole

"as far as I've seen I don't think any lap dance pictures have made it on anywhere... Savannah I really am sorry... Both you guys I'm sorry" she said looking at Carlos and I.

"Sheriden your never going to change but I think its time you left me out of your games now" Carlos said.

"I'm sorry Los" she said giving him a hug.

"James and I would like to take you both out for lunch if you feel up to it" she said.

"no I've got to get going today Sheriden, I've got some people to see things to sort out" Carlos said.

"oh that's a shame" Sheriden said

"yeah I best get going actually... Sav can I have a word before I do... I will see you guys later" Carlos said to James and Sheriden then pulled me away by the wrist and out on to the grand entrance of the mansion.

"come here" he said giving me a hug. "if you wanna chat or hang out or just need a shoulder to cry on sav I'm just at the end of the phone okay"

"okay" I repeated.

"sav, I know Sheriden fucked up last night saying about you being my date for her wedding... I still stand by what I said and I can't think of anyone more fun that I honestly want to go with... Will you still go with me" he said giving my hand a squeeze.

Before I could reply we were interrupted by Logan coming down the spiral stair case.

"logues all okay" I said as he headed straight for the door.

Logan turned around, his eyes red still from the crying he had been doing talking to my sister.

"I'm sorry savannah, look after her for me yeah" he said then walked out the door.

I looked at Carlos, he pulled me in for a hug "its not your fault savannah" he whispered.

"what have I done?... I'm going to have to talk some sense in to her" I said letting go of Carlos.

Carlos nodded.
"she is better off without him sav" he replied.

"I've Gotta go, I will call you soon yeah" I said then dashed up stairs.

I gave my guest room door a little knock then walked in. Mackenzie was just sat on the bed still.

"kenz what have you done" I asked.

"I didn't do anything savannah... Logan did. I've got to get going and get my things from his house, I'm moving back in to the salon apartment..." She said.

"Mackenzie you don't know what your saying, you love Logan, you know you do" I argued.

"yeah I do savannah, but Logan has just told me some things and its because I love him that I'm going to have a serious think about what relationship I have with him.." She said.

"what? What things did he tell you... Mackenzie he loves you!"

"I've got to get going... I will call you later savannah okay. I love you, come round this evening and we will talk everything through" she said then shoved some things back in her purse and walked out the room.

I sat on the bed and cried.
How had I ruined so many things so quickly.

I got dressed and did my hair and make up. Then made my way down stairs, I told Sheriden that I wasnt in the mood to eat anything so lunch would be a waste of time.

"savannah I would still like to talk to your mom about the modelling contract. Is she coming to visit anytime soon" Sheriden asked.

"Mackenzie phoned her the other day, she isn't happy about any of it. I wouldn't recommend trying to meet up with her Sheriden, she will talk you out of wanting me, I can give you her number if you like but I'm a big girl now. Its up to me what I do huh" I said.

"yeah I guess, savannah are you okay? I'm sorry everything is such a mess, stay strong okay" she said giving me a hug

"I think I might go home for a while, to see my mom, maybe if everyone had a break from me things will fix themselves... Everything was fine until I came to LA" I said aloud.

"maybe seeing your mom will do you good" Sheriden said.

I looked at her and nodded.

I then walked back upstairs and packed up the little belongings I did have. I've was feeling very sorry for myself. I had just enough money for a one way plane to my moms. Running away seemed easy.