Chapter Ten: Breakdown
Previously on Unrecognizable~
Wait! My lullaby! It's perfect!
I could use my lullaby against him to gain the revenge I seek. This will crush him. He won't even know what's coming...which makes it even better.
Time for the first step in my evil plan to crush Edward to pieces.
"Edward?"
Now on Unrecognizable~
Izzy's POV
He turned to face me, jaw clenched, his eyes a hard coal black and his nostrils flared. He looked nothing like the Edward I was always use to, my heart clenched, but I chose to ignore that. I could only focus on the anxious feeling pulsing through my veins. I couldn't believe what I was about to do.
"I would like you to listen to this." I smiled through my teeth, fluttering my eyelashes innocently.
Before he had a chance to answer, I took a sharp intake of breath and snuck one last peek behind me where Edward stood. He cocked an eyebrow but remained silent.
I couldn't possibly back out now, I may not have another chance like this. I smiled as I thought what his reaction would be.
I began by softly playing the first few notes of the my lullaby then changing a couple notes. He would get a taste of my lullaby, surely he would remember it. But before he could suspect anything as I was the only one that knew it other than himself of course, I would change it up to an entirely different song.
The sound of an grinding teeth came from the back of the room. I smiled smugly. I had won again, as I will always. I
"So, what do you think? Do you like it? I actually composed it myself." Honey dripped off each and every word of my lie.
I decided it was enough torture for now so I turned around in the small piano bench to face Edward.
Edward looked incredibly torn, devastation rolling off of him in waves. His fists were balled up at his sides, his breathing ragged. One of his fists traveled up to his messy bronze hair as he roughly pulled at it.
"I didn't think it was that bad." I joked in a teasing light tone. His head snapped to mine, his facial features full of anger, but his eyes shone with regret.
Unexpectedly, Edward's fist connected with the wall, drywall blasting to pieces as the nasty dust particles flew through the air. But as the chalky dust cloud cleared, it revealed the second gaping hole in the wall.
"Tisk, tisk." I waved my finger in the air, disapprovingly. "What did I tell you about that temper." I smirked as Edward's anger grew, he was seething at this point.
"Esme isn't going to be pleased." I chastised.
Edward's eyes looked ready to kill as he stalked over to me. His arms were shaking as he sucked in a couple shuddering breaths. As he breathed out, his scent wavered over to me, honey and lilac. My insides temporarily melted, a warm tingly sensation filled my body, almost like my senses renewing. My eyes darted to Edward's form, suddenly I desperately wanted to run my fingers through his disheveled bronze locks.
Wait? Woah, where did that come from? I shook my head to clear away the strange electric feeling traveling through my body.
Edward looked ready to lose control, that was until he came to an abrupt halt in front of me, realizing what he was about to do. His eyes widened as he turned around on his heels and disappeared out of the room in a bright flash of white. The front door slammed and his retreating footsteps lead to the surrounding forest covered in a white blanket of fresh snow.
Venom tears prickled in my eyes, rejection flooded through me in cool blasts, ice filling me to the brim accompanied by unwanted pain. Why did I still produce tears over him? He isn't worthy of my tears! Edward always seemed to have this effect on me! I thought I was stronger!
I found myself walking in the direction of Edward's room, almost as if an electric pull was attracting me there. The door stood in front of me, I hesitantly opened it, the air was whooshed out of my lungs as his sweet intoxicating scent filled my nose. My breathing sped up as I did an overview of the room. I took small shaky steps towards the small nightstand beside the leather couch. Something deep within me told to open the drawer. Internally, I debated with myself, should I open it?
I decided to take a chance and trust my gut. Sucking in a short gasp of oxygen, I forced a hand to open the small drawer in order to discover what laid inside the nightstand. Slowly, my eyelids fluttered open, not realizing I had squeezed them shut. As my eyes landed on what was stored inside the small wooden drawer an audible gasp escaped my mouth.
The inside of the drawer was filled with pictures of Edward and I. Piles and piles of pictures. Tears had gathered in the corners of my eyes, as I reached for a picture on the top. The one that I grasped in my hand was from my 18th birthday. The picture of the two of us gazing at each other with so much love and devotion. Then he left.
That was all it took. I roughly threw the picture into the drawer with all the others and slammed it shut forcefully. Fortunately, I didn't use enough force to break the wood.
I hadn't let myself feel this pain and heartbreak that so kindly left me alone all those years ago. Now all those bottled up feelings were coming crashing down on me, ruining this person I had made up for myself. It had taken years! Now merely a simple picture ruined all of it, in just a second.
My mouth opening unwillingly and I let out an agonized scream that rattled the entire house. My fists were clenched, as I bite my lip with such strength that if I had been human, a chunk of my lip would be missing. My tiny frame shook, I had to get out of here before I destroyed something.
I bolted from the white mansion directly into the thicket of twisting trees covered in a white sheet of powdery snow. Minuscule snowflakes fell from the clear sky as I sped through the wooded area, snapping branches off of trees on my way.
Heavy sobs broke through from my tight chest as I flew through the forest, eventually I was unable to continue my short journey. I collapsed to the forest floor, my arms tightening around my chest hoping to lessen the heartbreak that imprisoned me. The sobbing was uncontrollable, between cries tortured screams escaped my mouth as I withered on the ground in my fetal position.
Spasms of shooting pain rippled through me causing me to shake violently. Desperately I wanted to unleash the venom tears that would never fall. The devastation, rejection and pure agony never ceased to lessen, only intensify by each passing second, tormenting and taunting me.
The picture that I had held in my hands only minutes before assaulted my mind, flashes of the love and devotion that had been buried deeply in not only my eyes but Edward's as well had sent new waves of crippling convulsions. My eyes full of life, real happiness, adoration.
I cringed at the mental image that would forever be imprinted in my photographic mind, never fading as the passing years continued to trap me in the darkest pits of hell. Where I will forever burn in my loneliness, heartache, anguish and grief.
Because of him.
Anger I didn't know I was capable of erupted from my chest, ready to be unleashed on the closest possible thing beside me. I whipped around at an impossibly fast speed, without thinking I tackled an innocent tree. My nails dug into the tree trunk, slicing through the bark as if it were merely softened butter. Using my rock hard body, I rammed the tree, ending it's life as it fell to the snow covered ground, shaking the earth beneath me.
My eyes found their way to a large boulder sitting on the ground to my left. In a second, the the boulder was in my arms as I hurled it at smaller tree, the trunk snapped in half. Each piece hit the ground with such force, the echoing boom traveled through the entire forest.
My anger had not subsided in the least. I needed to get it out. Which is exactly what I did.
"IT'S ALL HIS FAULT!" I screamed, as I chucked another boulder at a poor tree.
"IT'S YOUR FAULT I'M A SOULLESS MONSTER!"
"YOU TOOK MY FAMILY AWAY!"
Soft advancing footsteps came from behind me deep in the forest. Approximately a couple miles back. They were headed in my direction. That wasn't about to stop me.
"YOU LEFT ME TO BECOME WHAT I AM TODAY!" I flung another boulder, smashing it to small fragments buried in powdery snow.
The impending footsteps were nearing me, but I continued to let loose.
"YOU LEFT ME ALONE UNPROTECTED TO DIE A PAINFUL DEATH!"
It was when the scent hit me. Lilacs and honey, his scent. This added to my relentless anguish, feeding to my extreme fury.
My fists clenched, my body tensed ready to pounce. But I didn't turn around, rather I attacked another tree, pounding it to the ground with fierce punches.
"YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME! BUT YOU LIED!"
I heard a sharp intake of breath behind me, I didn't dare turn around, I only continued.
"I HATE YOU WITH EVERY FIBRE IN MY BEING! I WILL NEVER FUCKING FORGIVE YOU FOR THIS!"
With that, I crumbled, collapsing to the ground. The sobs overpowered my anger, the thing was, all these years I've been lying to myself.
I'm not strong.
I'm not over him.
Nor will I ever.
I love him.
The hole in my chest finally ripped open, the broken fragments of my heart shattered into smaller shards. I wrapped my arms around my chest, attempting to keep the pain at a bay. Excruciating knifes drove through my broken heart slicing into me coldly, devastation exposing my weaken side. The side I always forbid anyone to see, especially him. But I suppose that is impossible as he was standing only feet away.
My stomach rolled as my body convulsed. If only I could free the tears from my glassy eyes, but that was no longer possible. I planted my hand to my chest as my breath came in short seering pants.
Without warning, the inevitable happened. Muscular arms snaked around me, pulling me close. Momentarily, my breath caught in my throat, I stopped breathing altogether. Then my insides melted, his intoxicating scent sending shocking electrifying waves through my body. For years, I had craved for his touch again, the moment was finally here. So I took advantage of it while I could.
I grasped his shirt with my fists, inhaling his sweet honey scent and released my pending sobs in his chest. Edward brushed my hair with his hands, stroking my back in small circular motions soothingly. I held a death grip on him, afraid of him pulling away. I shook violently in his comfortable embrace.
I had finally broken down, crumbled to pieces. The weight of buried emotions I had carried around with me all these meaningless years had finally been lifted. But I was not at all at peace. Edward still didn't know who I was. And if he did, surely he would leave again. He didn't love me, he told me himself.
That brought on a whole new round of venom tears, my eyes were surely red rimmed by now. Though, I couldn't sleep, dry sobbing exhausted me, sucking the energy from my dead body. I was limp in Edward's reassuring arms, except for the occasional sob here and there. My cries had slowed immensely, but I didn't pull out of Edward's arms, I stayed tangled up in his grasp.
Minutes trickled by, I had regained my composure, I knew it was time. My heart clenched as I practically dragged myself from Edward's embrace. Immediately after, my body ran cold, the electricity gone and the hole in my chest larger than ever. I could still feel the warmth on my skin where only moments ago had been in contact with Edward's smooth granite skin.
I smiled weakly at him, he returned the gesture, but it didn't reach his eyes. His eyes were incredible, but there was indescribable pain buried deep within them. He did a good job hiding it, but I wasn't fooled. I knew pain when I saw it.
"Uh, thanks." I thanked him lamely.
"My pleasure." Edward turned away, scratching his neck as the awkwardness enveloped the both of us tightly.
Edward looked back at me, but this time the pain in his eyes was evident. He opened his mouth to speak but looked hesitant. "It was about him wasn't it?" His voice was troubled, barely audible, merely a whisper. Edward tugged at his bronze locks distressed.
"Yes." Even I could hear the anguish in my voice, no bother hiding it after my breakdown anyway.
Anger flashed in his eyes, his fists balling up. Edward muttered something under his breath, though I couldn't make it out.
The anger quickly disappeared and regret filled its place. He breathed out a sigh, shutting his eyes tightly.
"You're thinking about her." I stated.
"Yes." He was thinking about me.
Should I tell him who I really am? How would he react? Would he push me away? I couldn't take the chance.
But I have a better idea.
I smiled, "Edward?" He looked up curious. "I think we both need closure." He cocked an eyebrow but followed me back to the house.
"Where is everyone? Where is Alice?" I questioned him.
"Carlisle is at the hospital, I believe Esme is shopping for some home decor, Emmett, Rosalie and Jasper went hunting. Alice joined them after your shopping trip."
I nodded and pulled him up to the destroyed piano room. I sat on the piano bench, gesturing for Edward to sit beside me.
I began playing, the music renewing my senses.
"If I should stay,
I would only be in your way.
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you every step of the way.
And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
You, my darling you. Mmm."
I looked up at Edward, smiling. He seemed to have a small genuine smile forming on the corners as well.
"Bittersweet memories,
that is all I'm taking with me.
So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.
We both know I'm not what you need.
And I will always love you.
I will always love you."
Edward's glorious angelic voice filled the room, melting my insides.
"I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you'll have all you've dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.
And I will always love you."
I joined in with Edward. We sang from our hearts, for our long lost mates.
"I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I, I will always love you.
You, darling, I love you.
Ooh, I'll always, I'll always love you."
At the end of our duet, we were both staring into each others eyes. He looked thoughtful.
I broke the contact and chuckled. "Now I think we have one more important task to complete."
He looked puzzled, giving me a questioning look.
I laughed, "We need to fix this piano room before Esme returns home." I burst into a fit of giggles as Edward chuckled along with me.
"Race you to the car."
I hope you guys liked this chapter! I enjoyed writing it for all of you as always. You guys finally got to see the 'inner Bella' hidden within Izzy. She finally breaks after all these years, she becomes vulnerable, we are able to see her weaken side. This chapter starts the beginning our Edward and Izzy's relationship.
GUESS WHAT! I FINALLY FINISHED ALL MY EXAMS! THAT MEANS NO MORE STUDYING AND REGULAR UPDATES! YAY!
The song used in this chapter: "I will always love you" By Whitney Houston
Quick Question:
"Why can't Edward sense the electrical pull between Bella and himself?"
Answer: Edward is buried in all his sorrowful feeling, so numb and oblivious that what he is searching for is right in front of himself.
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~Alexandra